Showing posts with label Reading's the New Sexy. Show all posts
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Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Would You Defy God, For Love? - Janine Ashbless Excerpt

Hot Excerpt from Janine Ashbless's 
New Novel In Bonds of the Earth:


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We headed at random for a restaurant under a trellis draped with grape-vines, where Azazel carefully pulled out a plastic chair for me. He’d clearly been studying up on manners.

Well, that was what I thought until he parked himself in a chair facing me and, leaning forward, slid a hand up the inside of my thigh, all the way to my damp sex.

I stiffened, arching my spine. “Azazel!” I gasped as his touch sent thrills cascading through my nerve-endings all over again.

“Hm?” It had suddenly gone so quiet that I could hear even that quietest of speculative murmurs as he pushed probing fingertips into the wet split of my sex and sought entry to my body. Blessedly, thankfully quiet. No voices, no music, and even the omnipresent hum of traffic was silenced; the world had stopped. I glanced around us and saw that the figures in the square were frozen in mid-motion, their eyes glazed. A dead leaf, just fallen from the vine, hovered motionless over his shoulder. Across the flagstones an iridescent soap bubble hung just beyond the tip of its plastic wand, defying the elements of air and gravity and fate. I wondered distractedly if it would burst if I touched it, or whether it would feel hard like crystal.

“We shouldn’t do this!”

Azazel’s fingers plunged into me, slick with our mingled juices, stretching me, making me buck in my seat. Wicked delight boiled in his eyes. “But you enjoy it so much, my sweet.”

“Oh!” Blood rushed to my face. We might be the only actors in our secret play, but the audience were all around us, unblinking. I was being pumped in full public view, my skirt pushed up my thighs, my whimpers suddenly alarming in loudness.

“Do you deny it?”

I grabbed the arms of my chair. “No,” I admitted, stammering.

“You like the idea of being watched. That handsome waiter there. Those nice old gentlemen playing chess. It makes you wet when I touch you in public. You want everyone to see.”

“Please, no.”

“They should see.” He slid to his knees in front of my open thighs so that he could get a closer look at his hand working my wet sex. “You are so beautiful like this.”

“Unh.”

“Open your blouse,” he ordered. “Show me your breasts.”

I shook my head mutely, eyes widening.

He grinned, then pushed his fingers deeper, scissoring them, curling them to caress me within. I heaved, unable to control my own reaction. Heat roared from my sex to my flushed face and seemed to set a fire in my breasts. I could feel dampness springing out on my skin beneath my too-constricting clothes.

“Show. Me.” His thumb slithered over my clit, implacable.

I couldn’t bear the heat in my flesh any longer. I fumbled the buttons of my blouse, pulled down the camisole top and the bra cups beneath. My nipples prickled in the unnaturally still air, my breasts quivering.

Jeez. Now I really was at his mercy. If he released his grip on the frozen moment I would be exposed for everyone to see—tits out, thighs squirming open, hips jerking, his hand buried in the molten heat of my pussy. Everyone would see me being finger-fucked.

Everyone would see me coming, like this.

Right now.

I nearly kicked him in my spasms, nearly bit my mouth trying not to squeal out loud. Not too loud, anyway. I couldn’t actually keep silent.

Azazel watched hungrily, oh so hungrily, like he was gorging himself on the sight of my shame and lust. He ate me through his eyes and his hand, cupping the thud of my racing pulse in his palm, until I stopped twitching and managed to swallow and moisten my lips.

He withdrew gently; so gently that I wanted to beg him to put his hand back. Than he lounged back in his chair, the flimsy plastic bending alarmingly under his torso.

“Five,” he said, his eyes glittering.

Five what? I was still breathless and half-witted with the shock of my climax.

“Four.”

Oh crap! I scrabbled desperately for my buttons, trying to restore my disarranged clothes. And I managed to pull my skirt desperately down to my knees just as he reached “One,” and the days suddenly roared into surround-sound and motion again, like he’d pressed Play at last.


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Janine Ashbless is back with the second in her paranormal erotic romance Book of the Watchers trilogy: In Bonds of the Earth.

Unafraid to tackle the more complex issues surrounding good and evil in mainstream religion, Janine has created a thought-provoking and immersive novel which sets a new standard for paranormal erotic romance. The first in the series, Cover Him With Darkness, was released in 2014 by Cleis Press and received outstanding reviews.

Blurb:

“I will free them all.”

When Milja Petak released the fallen angel Azazel from five thousand years of imprisonment, she did it out of love and pity. She found herself in a passionate sexual relationship beyond her imagining and control – the beloved plaything of a dark and furious demon who takes what he wants, when he wants, and submits to no restraint. But what she hasn’t bargained on is being drawn into his plan to free all his incarcerated brothers and wage a war against the Powers of Heaven. 

As Azazel drags Milja across the globe in search of his fellow rebel angels, Milja fights to hold her own in a situation where every decision has dire consequences. Pursued by the loyal Archangels, she is forced to make alliances with those she cannot trust: the mysterious Roshana Veisi, who has designs of her own upon Azazel; and Egan Kansky, special forces agent of the Vatican – the man who once saved then betrayed her, who loves her, and who will do anything he can to imprison Azazel for all eternity. 

Torn every way by love, by conflicting loyalties and by her own passions, Milja finds that she too is changing – and that she must do things she could not previously have dreamt of in order to save those who matter to her.

In Bonds of the Earth is published by Sinful Press and is available now!


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Janine Ashbless is a writer of fantasy erotica and steamy romantic adventure. She likes to write about magic and myth and mystery, dangerous power dynamics, borderline terror, and the not-quite-human.

Janine has been seeing her books in print ever since 2000. She's also had numerous short stories published by Black Lace, Nexus, Cleis Press, Ravenous Romance, Harlequin Spice, Storm Moon, Xcite, Mischief Books, and Ellora's Cave among others. She is co-editor of the nerd erotica anthology Geek Love

Born in Wales, Janine now lives in the North of England with her husband and two rescued greyhounds. She has worked as a cleaner, library assistant, computer programmer, local government tree officer, and - for five years of muddy feet and shouting - as a full-time costumed Viking. Janine loves goatee beards, ancient ruins, minotaurs, trees, mummies, having her cake and eating it, and holidaying in countries with really bad public sewerage.


Her work has been described as: 
"Hardcore and literate" (Madeline Moore) and "Vivid and tempestuous and dangerous, and bursting with sacrifice, death and love." (Portia Da Costa)




Sunday, March 13, 2016

If/Then: A Two-Decade Fulfillment I Didn’t Know I Needed


**It's been a while since I've done a write-up on non-kinky stories I love.
But I loved this show so much for so many reasons, I just have to share.
Warning. Excessive fangirling and spoilers for the theatrical play If/Then

I was twelve when I first heard “Seasons of Love” and fell in absolute love with Rent. Just starting junior high, it was the first time I’d really seen love portrayed as more than a fairytale. Where love felt complicated and hard and even unhealthy sometimes. When love wasn’t something that just happened to you, but that you did and chose and worked at. It was the first time a happy ending wasn’t guaranteed; when love wasn’t always enough.

It was also, for me, the first time I really saw such diversity in storytelling. Where people of color were prominent plot-changing characters. Where interracial relationships existed. Where gay characters got to tell their stories. Where all these diverse people, who normally were side characters if they existed in stories at all, and their lives and loves were portrayed as just as real and honest and important and complex as the ones we’re used to seeing. It was, for me, one of the first times media looked more like the world I lived in and the experiences I knew. It, for me—for a lot of people—felt eye-opening and heartbreakingly and heart-mendingly relatable.

And, for years, it was my favorite musical. I would listen to the two-disc CD set over and over again on loop, vicariously falling in and out and in love with these characters.

But, as the years passed and my understanding of both story and romance grew...

Don’t get me wrong, I still love Rent to this day. “Take Me or Leave Me” is one of my go-to songs to sing when I need to get out of a bad mood. “I’ll Cover You (Reprise)” still tugs at my heart every time I hear it. But, as I grew older, suddenly my unqualified “you have to see it!!!” recommendations came with disclaimers. About how my love might be tainted by nostalgia and romanticized naivety. About how you might have needed to see it as a thirteen-year-old girl in the late nineties to truly understand why I loved it so much. It—like Buffy and NSYNC—became a symbol of a time and place in my life. Something that would always be meaningful to me, but whose meaning didn’t feel as relevant anymore.

A little like your first high school relationship that, at the time, feels like forever and all-consuming. But, that, with time and distance later, feels hazy and removed. A lovely memory that I love to revisit but can never fully recapture.

Then, this weekend, I saw If/Then, which is from the producer from Wicked and the director of Rent, and was written for and stars two of Rent’s unforgettable actors, Idina Menzel and Anthony Rapp. In essence, it is a show made for me to love.

And it did not disappoint.

It was as if Rent had grown up with me, had evolved with the romantic and sexual landscapes, to become a brand new, but deeply familiar show. If Rent was my first serious, high school theatrical love, If/Then is like going to my reunion and realizing, after all these years, that there are certain feelings—certain corners of your heart—that never fade. That, once claimed, never let go.

It takes elements that made Rent great, like complex relationship issues and diverse stories and cast, and takes it to that next level.

As complex as the relationships had seemed and are in Rent, If/Then beautifully explores the detriment of things like fixating on people who cannot love you or fixating so much on the possibility of risk or failure that you’re afraid to love. Lucas’s love for Elizabeth is so often really unhealthy. Particularly when he’s willing to be with her in any way he can. And at any cost to himself. It’s a romantic idea, to be with someone who wants to be with you no matter what. Who will give and give and give and expect nothing in return. It’s a dynamic that so many stories romanticize and glorify. But should they? His song “You Don’t Need to Love Me” broke my heart because I’ve been on both sides of that relationship dynamic and it’s never healthy. For anyone. Any relationship where one person gives more than the other is difficult to sustain. Anytime one person’s needs are being met more than—or, worse, at the expense of—the other’s, that’s a relationship that is bound to and should fail. And, in the show, it does. Almost irreconcilably.

And, on the flip side, songs like “Here I Go” and “Best Worst Mistake,” show both the very human fear of opening yourself up to hurt and loss as well as the exhilaration and thrill of risking all that for the chance at love and happiness. In a play that hinges on the idea that a single choice in the main character’s life alters her lifeline in significant ways that plays out in two distinct versions of her future, the idea of odds plays a key role. The odds of a good outcome and a bad one. The odds of what may come because of one simple act—one seemingly inconsequential decision—versus another. And how indecision and regret over that impacts us. So often we spend so much of our lives wondering “what if.” And, the truth is, we can’t know. You do the best you can, in the moment, while you can. And, for a natural worrier and odds-measurer like me, that’s a great message. Because, though it is cliché to say, of all the things I regret in life I regret the chances I didn’t take far more than the ones I did. But, even in the face of that, I can’t go back. I can’t change what’s already happened. All I can do is move forward and trust that life will go on. Because, until you die, it does.

And the relationship of Kate and Anne, Elizabeth’s friends throughout the whole show, is a great example of that. Theirs is the most long-term and, arguably, healthy relationship in the show. We get to see them support each other through good times, like Kate winning a teaching award, and hard times, like seeing Elizabeth lose her husband. We get to see them go on dates and get married and live their lives.

And we see them fight. When Anne cheats on Kate because of a difference in libido levels, we see them, like many others, face the decision to divorce or stay together. In one version, they divorce, because that’s what it’s assumed people do. When an infidelity happens, we assume—we’ve been told that—separation is inevitable. It’s the right thing to do. And, sometimes it is. It is a violation. A betrayal. And it almost always hurts like hell.

But, statistically, 60% of men have cheated and 40% of women have. It happens. A lot. To pretend otherwise, to think that it will never happen to you, is to willfully ignore the facts. And I really like that this show addresses the first-response reaction to cut-and-run as well as questions whether one should act on it or not. In one version, Kate leaves Anne. And is okay. And, in another, Kate stays with Anne. And is not only okay but happy. They’ve worked it out and worked through it. I like that this show admits the viability and reality of both options.

I also love that Lucas, played by Anthony Rapp who played Mark in Rent, got to be an open and visible bisexual character. With the dual nature of the show, you get to see Lucas pine and obsess over an unrequited love with Elizabeth in one version and you also get to see him let go of that obsession and find happiness with a gorgeous, kind, Asian man. It’s not always easy to portray monogamous bisexual characters because, so often without deliberately and often clumsily telling the audience, it’s easy to assume that they’re straight or gay. Lucas beautifully shows how, for bisexuals, gender just doesn’t matter when they meet the right people.

And, even though it gained both uproarious laughter and disapproving groans, I kinda loved that they had a line in the show about bisexual invisibility, stating how Elizabeth doesn’t “believe in bisexuals; pick a side.” Because, while I don’t believe the statement to be true, I do believe there are people who do. Even those, like Elizabeth, who dated Lucas in college and saw him date both men and women and who would go on to see him form a family with another man, who should know better. For me, having that line in the show was as important for addressing bisexual invisibility as it was to show Lucas having feelings for both men and women.

And, yes, as someone who loves Mark Cohen, Rent’s tortured artist filmmaker who ends the show as the only main character unattached, it was nice to see him get a happier ending this time around. To see him not only become friends with his ex and her chosen partner, but also find his own. And with someone, whatever their gender, who felt right for him.

While there was so much to love about If/Then, from its storytelling to its songs to its set designs and costume choices to its choreography, the thing I likely will love best is that it fulfilled a hole in my story-lover’s heart that I didn’t even know was there. That it took a show I loved so long ago and found a way to rekindle, transmute, and transform it into something new and just as, if not more, lovable. Thank you, If/Then, from 12-year-old me who didn’t even know she was waiting for a closure she finally got twenty years later.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Twisted Heroes: DC's Gods & Monsters

So I’ve mentioned it before that I love superhero stories. I’m absolutely in love with the Marvel movies and TV shows, but my heart will always truly belong to the DC animated cartoons. As a kid growing up in the 90s, I was utterly enamored with Bruce Timm’s Batman and Superman animated series. I remember coming home from school and spending afternoons and waking up early on Saturday mornings just to watch the world being saved over and over again by my favorite heroes. There was something exciting yet comforting about it.

Then as I grew up, so did my heroes with the Justice League and the Justice League Unlimited and the Young Justice series and with the many, many movies like “The Mask of the Phantasm,” “Return of the Joker,” “Doomsday,” and “Under the Red Hood.” And I got to see my heroes struggle. My heroes, who had seemed so infallible as a child began to show cracks and flaws, began to explore the moral gray ground that I knew my real world inhabited. I became privy to the more human sides of my superhuman heroes, which was fascinating.

And, to this day, I still love DC’s animated work. I think the style of art is beautiful and fun. I think many of the stories are still fun to watch. And the fight scenes are amazing!

But, as I grew up further—particularly as a storyteller—the less, well, marveled by DC’s work I seemed. Like how their obvious favoritism toward Batman often makes plots feel unbelievable; I’m a big fan of Sherlockian genius, but Batman is just a man yet he deus ex machinas more than anyone else in the Justice League, often to ridiculous and illogical degrees, like in “Superman/Batman: Apocalypse.” Or how the problem of having an obscenely superpowered boy scout like Superman, whose moral compass rarely points anywhere but directly north, almost predictably means that the bad guys are going to try to brain-wash or possess him into being their vehicle of evil. Or how, despite having a plethora of amazing and interesting female characters—in the League (Wonder Woman, Huntress, Supergirl, Black Canary, etc.), in the rogues gallery (Poison Ivy, Catwoman, Harley Quinn, Granny Goodness, Star Sapphire, etc.), and just out in their wider world (Lois Lane, Amanda Waller, Max Gibson, etc.)—they’re too often treated more like overly emotional, high-tempered, reckless sidekicks, screw-ups, or eye candy rather than real, plot-moving characters. More plot devices than actual plot developers.

And I think these points can be seen in their latest animated film, “Gods and Monsters,” as well as their online “Chronicles” series done as teasers to the film.

Again, don’t get me wrong, I still thoroughly enjoyed them, but a part of me wishes that this team of animators, that does such great work, would find people to refine their stories just a bit more. To take them to that next level.

Let’s take for example the film’s new monstrous version of Batman. Kirk Langstrom (originally Man-Bat in the series) is clearly the most developed, most sympathetic character of the three. Aptly (if not amazingly) played by the actor famous for bringing serial-killer-cum-do-gooder Dexter Morgan to life, Kirk is a man dying of cancer who, through playing around with science best left alone, turns himself into a blood-sucking vampire. Choosing to make the best out of a bad situation, much like Dexter, Kirk directs his affliction toward cleaning up the mess of criminals, feeding off of dregs of society whom, he figures, deserves it.

His was the first teaser to come out online and it perfectly setup what this film was going to be. I love that it took one of Batman’s most beloved characters, Harley Quinn, and let her be part of this world’s big-reveal twist. She was a great way to make this feel familiar and strange at the same time.

The short starts off in much the way most Batman stories start. Cloaked in the night lights of Gotham, Batman stalks around in a creepy Joker-esque lair, filled with large Jack-in-the-box cages and fridges filled with grape-flavored soda and body parts (a delightful nod to the Dexter series).

Even Harley herself starts off very familiar before twisting into something new. The short keeps Harley’s very disturbed sense of humor and regressed childishness, while very much upping the mature-content ante. I also loved that, from the grape “soder” in the fridge (a nod to Superman’s Bibbo Bibbowski) to Harley’s desire to create her own family, even if she has to steal and Frankenstein it together, from “The Return of the Joker,” this short took bits and pieces from its Kids’ WB past and wove them seamlessly into this incredibly adult story, creating a kind of whimsically unsettling magic. She may hold many recognizable elements, but this is clearly not your Saturday morning’s Harle.

Which makes the short a perfect setup Batman’s vampiric twist. Harley, crazy and regressed as she often is, is smart. I don’t think she’s actually criminally insane, not by our court’s standards anyway. When she’s done well, she knows exactly what she’s doing when she does it. Always. It’s part of what makes her such a good villain; unlike many of Batman’s other villains—including her love interest, Joker—she walks into evil with her eyes open. Every time. She’s no result of some freak chemical accident or great tragic mental break; she is an example of humanity’s innate desire to revel in that which we know we shouldn’t. To make bad decisions and feel good about it. For all her playfulness and levity, what makes Harley so interesting is that everything she does is by informed choice. She’s not stupid or misled. She’s a smart and calculated person choosing to joyfully play the fool. She’s studied and understands human behavior, expertly manipulating and playing in that space. She knows exactly how the game and all its players work.

That’s what makes this short fascinating. Harley knows how her Batman works. She commits crimes, he catches her, she gets locked up in Arkham, and Gotham’s revolving-door justice system lets her out, intentionally or not, to let her start the whole cycle over, again and again. She knows that these are the rules to the game; she is so sure of it.

Right up until the moment it doesn’t work the way she expects.

That first bite perfectly sets up this world as playing just within but ultimately against those established, expected rules; I can’t think of a better way to do so.

But if I could have added one thing to the short, it would have been a line reminiscent of her “Don’t you knock before entering a lady’s boudoir?” from “Harlequinade.” Personally, I don’t understand DC’s attempts to sex-up Harley. To me, there is nothing sexier than her iconic, form-fitting harlequin outfit; everything else is just a derivative copy (including my own, I know, I know). I find it so unnecessary to dress her up in kinky nurse outfits or lingerie. And, if one is going to do so, at least make it serve a point, like in “Mad Love” when she dons lingerie to tempt the Joker. And it wasn’t even that far of a stretch to have her in her underwear in this short; she is at home and wasn’t necessarily expecting guests. Why not acknowledge it, crack a joke about it, instead of kinda making it seem like a bustier, panties, and barely held-together stockings are her normal everyday crime-wear? She’s crazy, sure, but it’s just impractical to go running around the streets of Gotham in that. I’m all for making her sexy—she undeniably and, again, joyfully is—but she could have been sexy and funny, which fits her so much better.

But, like I said, whatever she’s wearing, at least Harley got to be more than just eye-candy or a prop. The film’s main female character in the Batman story arc, Tina, is just that: a pretty prop meant to manufacture motivation for Kirk and the movie’s ultimate villain, his old college roommate, Will Magnus. Tina hardly speaks. She has little to no characterization or backstory, particularly independent of the men in her life—hell, we don’t even know what she was studying while she was in school with them. We also oddly don’t know exactly why she’s dating Magnus who is, from the start, a complete, misogynistic, consent-violating, manipulative, jealous, ungrateful jackass who isn’t even remotely sympathetic or concerned for his dying friend; why is she with him, when the movie practically hits the viewer over the head with the fact that she ought to be and would likely rather be with Kirk (though, even with Kirk, I don’t really understand the appeal; he doesn’t really have many endearing qualities and we never really get to find out much about their relationship to each other, other than that they have one)?

Except, there goes our entire plot, if her dating choices made any sense at all.

And, to be fair, it could be seen as hypocritical of me to love Harley Quinn so much, despite her horrifically abusive relationship with Joker, yet hate on Tina so much. Except, when done right, DC explains Harley’s attraction and deeply held love for the Joker very well. As someone who grew up with abuse, who intimately knows what it’s like to love someone logic tells you you shouldn’t…Harley feels like, yes, a cartoonish and hyperbolic yet deeply relatable peek into this kind of relationship. He charmingly and often disarmingly grooms and romances her. He monstrously balances his disregard and abuse of her with tenderness and what often feels like genuine affection and caring. It’s confusing and crazy and overwhelming. You see how horribly he treats her and you know that she should walk away. Yet, just as often, you see them together during the good times and know they were made for each other. It isn’t—not in any way—ideal or healthy, but it’s earned. It’s developed. You might never make Harley’s same decisions, but you never wonder why she makes them.

Yet, with Tina—whose existence and story progression is the linchpin of the film’s plot—you cannot say the same.

Like I said, Kirk’s characterization felt the most fleshed-out and developed. I love that they focused on Batman’s desire for family and connection and how often that ends in tragedy for him. Loss of family and creating one’s own family—and often losing that made-family as well—is always at the heart of the Batman story and it belonged in this twisted version as well.  Your heart aches when he says, “I’ve only loved two people in my life. And they’re both gone,” to Magnus. To be so betrayed by someone he loved and whom he thought loved him back is so powerful and calls back to other stories where DC’s done this so well, like “The Return of the Joker” and “Under the Red Hood” or even with characters like Harvey Dent or even Nightwing in the animated cartoon.

Like I said, it’s done well, but could have been done so much better by making Tina as important in this trio as Kirk or Magnus. The way she ought to have been.

I had much the same feeling for Wonder Woman, the female protagonist of the film, as well. While I can appreciate the fact that they made her a sexually open, very sex-positive female, like I’ve said before, it’s not enough to make her that and only that. And, yes, Wonder Woman is strong in this film—fifty times stronger than Steve Trevor—and she gets some of the best and most interesting to watch fight scenes, but that’s abilities, not characterization. It’s what she can do, not who she is.

I can appreciate that DC tried to make her a strong, independent, sexually liberated female character, but I don’t actually think that this Wonder Woman felt all that empowering. Yes, she’s powerful and, yes, she says some of the right things (e.g. “I belong to no man,” etc.) but she ends up falling really flat.

I think the main reason for that is because she really doesn’t get much in the way of real motivations. Fight the bad guy, win the fight, get the guy, and that’s really it. I mean, Batman is trying to find a cure for himself. Superman is trying to figure out his past. And Wonder Woman is...trying to get laid?

Even her backstory just doesn’t feel realistic. For one, she falls for a guy she just met two second ago who ends up dying because of a family feud on a planet that isn’t even remotely hers. Making her essentially a superpowered Juliet. It’s just not that interesting and certainly doesn’t feel empowering or logical for her character.

And I’ve heard the argument that, because she was basically used as a sexual pawn in a war on her home planet, her overt sexuality and attempts at sexual manipulation—which are never actually seen to work, by the way—could be her way of reclaiming that part of herself that other people tried to exploit. I don’t buy it. Like I said, it doesn’t seem to actually work. Other than some mildly ribald jokes—often made in a very judgmental, slut-shaming way—nothing actually comes from her sexual relationship with Trevor. She doesn’t really seem to get any less grief than her male counterparts from the public, the government, or even from Trevor himself. She never gets actionable intel. She never gets leeway or privileges. Hell, she doesn’t even seem to get an actual, functional, or even all that enjoyable—much less lasting—relationship out of the sex. Mostly, she gets unreasonable and grotesquely territorial jealousy from Trevor and eye-rolling judgement from her teammates. That’s supposed to be empowering?

And I suppose there’s also an argument to be made that she’s on a redemption journey and is trying to do good because she’d done bad back on her world by betraying her interstellar Romeo, but there really didn’t feel like there was enough of that in the actual film either.

And there was opportunity to put more of that in the film. Diana almost always serves as an ambassador between her world and ours; she is the bridge that preserves and protects both. Yet, Bekka is disgraced and essentially exiled from her home world and is determined to hide her past from her adopted world. I would have loved, in the sparring scene between Trevor and Bekka, to have a moment where he questions her more significant, non-sexual intentions. If, after the fight, he turns to her and asks, “Why are you here, Bekka? I mean, why did you choose this planet, of all the planets in the universe, to run to? Are you really here to help? Or just to hide?”

They could also have had a moment when Batman mentions that, since her arrival, humans have been trying to copy her technology; that could have been a moment of self-reflection for her about her effect on her new, adopted home and her ability to be the hero she wants to be. Is she making a difference and is it a difference worth making?

And, if they’d taken more time to acknowledge that Magnus stole her tech, that could have made for interesting fight banter between Platinum and Bekka. With the idea that, for better or for worse, Platinum exists because of Bekka. Especially, if there maybe might have been a little bit of Tina left in Platinum—which there seemed to be in previous scenes—because here is this other woman who’s being used and twisted by another man who thinks he owns her.

They could have used these moments to take the two most plot-driving female characters and actually do anything with them that felt at all meaningful and impactful and at all on the same level as their male counterparts. All in all, Wonder Woman wasn’t a bad start to a character; they just focused on the wrong things which left her woefully under-developed.

Which they also did with Superman, who was my favorite character in this film, just not nearly as severely. Full-disclosure, Superman is my favorite classic superhero. There is something about his story—as it was told over the airways in the nineties—that just spoke to me. In much the same way I said that shapeshifter stories often make great symbolism for multicultural, first generation Americans, so does Superman. There’s something powerful in the idea that earth’s—and more specifically, America’s—greatest hero is an alien from another planet who rarely feels like he fully belongs in or to either world.

This film takes that idea to its logical conclusion.

Sort of.

Almost.

Too often, the film sells Superman’s twist as the fact that Zod is his biological father and not Jor-El. Which admittedly is a big twist. In many ways, this robs Superman of his Kryptonian identity, his legacy, as Kal-El. He also doesn’t discover his history in the traditional way, when he’s a teenager in Smallville with his safe and well-adjusted Kent family. Instead, he grows up into a man without ever knowing what his powers mean or what they were intended for, when his birth parents launched that pod off into space, only learning an edited and censored-to-the-point-of-fabrication version from Lex Luthor. This definitely changes and shapes him.

But DC gave him one more twist that I think is far more fascinating. They not only stole Kal-El from him, but they stole Clark Kent from him. Instead of the Kents finding him and adopting him, he was rescued by illegal immigrants crossing the border into the US.

This, for me, is where his story should have been. This is what turned him. So much of what makes Clark, and by extension Superman, a boy scout who follows and firmly believes in the government, justice system, and promise of America is his upbringing with the Kents. He grows up with the traditional, All-American childhood and all that entails. He doesn’t even know anything is all that strange or unique about him until he’s in his teens.

But, by changing this—more than changing his genetics (especially since Superman only gets a pre-packaged, sugar-coated, Luther-approved version of his origin story, without knowing until well into the film his father’s true nature)—the film changes the essence of what it means to be Superman.

And I wish the film had gone more in-depth about those changes. We hear that he had a tough life; I want to know about that life. Presumably, that feeling of being alien and other and, likely too often, unwanted and othered must have hung over him as he grew up. Suddenly, the America that had stood for freedom and justice and promise for Clark must have looked far different to this Superman. Suddenly, the rules that Clark was taught build up and hold together the fabric of our society are the very same laws and restrictions that would have marginalized and often endangered this Superman.

And, without Clark to lean on for an identity outside of and safe from that sense of otherness, this Superman has far less of a connection to humanity in general. One of my favorite Superman quotes is from the episode “The Late Mr. Kent.” After someone tries to kill the intrepid reporter, which leads to the obviously false report of Clark’s death, Superman is forced to retreat to Smallville to ask his parents for advice while lamenting the loss of, if not his literal life, his life as he knows it, telling them “I am Clark Kent; I’d go crazy if I had to be Superman all the time.”

And this Superman does. And, while bothered by it, he just doesn’t seem bothered enough. Take his short; in many ways it also doesn’t seem that far off from a traditional Superman story. The world is in peril and we need Superman. At the very last minute, he swoops in to save the day.

Yet we watch him calmly walk past a bus of people crying out for help without even a second-glance much less any kind of reassurance. Once he penetrates the danger’s energy field, he sees a small, crying, terrified child Brainiac, who is clearly more terrified of himself than he is of even Superman. And, while not cruel, this Superman is suspiciously cold in his treatment of a child in so much fear and pain, who never asked to be made into a monster meant to kill a god. It feels efficient. He perfunctorily, almost obligatorily, goes through platitudes about controlling one’s own powers. But, when he sees that’s not going to work, he quickly and without much emotion informs the child that, in order to stop his out-of-control powers, he’s going to kill him. And then he does.

And, while there is regret and maybe even remorse on his face afterward, there is resignation also. This is the way of his world and, as he says in the film, “I’ve seen the harshness in life. If I deliver justice with a heavy hand, it’s because I’ve been on the receiving end.” This Superman rarely experienced softness and it’s difficult to be that hard and also be the kind of hero we like to celebrate.

This short reminds me of the JL:U episode “Epilogue.” In that episode, Batman is sent in to deal with Ace, a superpowered girl whose powers are causing chaos and distorting reality. He’s sent in with orders to eliminate the threat before she can do more damage. Instead, he calmly sits by her side and waits with her until she dies so she doesn’t have to be alone in her final moments. It’s that compassion that spurs Amanda Waller to start Project Batman Beyond because, after witnessing that act of mercy and humanity, she didn’t want to live in a world without a Batman.

And it’s that difference that makes the short seem so disturbing to me. Ultimately, they are the same basic plot—they even share the same main player, Amanda Waller. And, despite the fact that at the end of both the world is saved, one feels heroic, while the other…just doesn’t.

It’s made doubly more off-putting in the way Superman kills Brainiac. He lobotomizes him. It’s the exact same type of execution that the Justice Lord version of Superman uses to kill Lex Luthor and Doomsday, which incites so much of the conspiracies and chaos of JL:U’s first season. It’s an act that so separates the Superman we grew up with and his less compassionate, more villainous version.

If Batman’s short setup this world well, this short cemented it. We are not in Kansas anymore. And that is an interesting twist because, for an extremely powerful, godlike being like Superman, the world can’t afford to have him see himself as not human. It puts the systematic othering we often place on the backs of immigrants, legal and otherwise, into interesting perspective.

Another aspect of his character I found fascinating is his relationship to Lois. So much of their stories are inextricably intertwined. She’s almost always Superman’s first interviewer. She almost always names him. She’s often his conscience and hope in humanity.

But, in this twisted version, they hate each other.

I wish there had been more of their history. Maybe she did idolize him at the start; she’d better have been the one to name him. It would have added an interesting layer to their relationship. To have a moment when she looks at him with such contemptuous disappointment. Like in the “Brave New World” episode, she could tell him how she’d had such high hopes for him, but “look at you now.”

To which, I could see this incarnation of the caped crusader responding, “I am what your kind made me.” After all, when we treat people as less than human, how humanely can we really expect them to act in return?

I know that it might sound like I didn't enjoy the movie or that I hate DC or that I think they’re bad storytellers. Nothing could be further from the truth. Superhero and superhuman stories are often so powerful, DC’s more so than most. These kinds of stories resonate so much with the cultures that created them. This is why, when we talk about Ancient Greece, we talk as much about their mythology as we do their historical figures. Like I’ve said before, these kinds of stories, by magnifying and intensifying aspects of human nature, allow us to more easily and more extensively explore that nature. They urge us to be introspective. To ask ourselves what makes us us. They ask us to be better and to strive for more.

And, as an avid fan of them, I think it’s a sign of great admiration to ask them to do the same.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Between the Shores's Official Release!

My story Donovan's Door is now available in the New Smut Project's anthology Between the Shores:

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A volume of literary erotica centered around the possibilities of sexual negotiation.
Twenty complex, surprising, intense, and relatable stories from a spectrum of new and established writers explore something unusual in erotic fiction: someone saying no. Submissives—and dominants—safeword out of a BDSM scene. Couples (and one threesome!) discover the possibilities and boundaries of their new relationships. Past trauma rears its head. Personal preferences clash.
Between the Shores shows respect for the boundaries people set as an integral part of sex, and highlights trust, communication—and mutual pleasure.
Some call a halt to the action. Some proceed with care and caution. Some bare secrets to their partners that they’ve never before shared. And some find exciting alternatives. Through negotiation—whether serious or accompanied by laughter—they move beyond their “no” to reach what they truly desire: healing, growth, and fulfillment both sexual and otherwise.
Honestly, working on this anthology was an eye-opening and growth-inspiring experience. I'll probably do a write-up like the one I did for my novel. I really hope that everyone who reads this collection gets as much out of it as the authors and editors who worked on it did. And, as always, please enjoy!


LEARNING A NEW WORLD
Please check out my novel The Taming School from Sizzler Editions that explores discovering kink!
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MAKE-UP SEX MAKES EVERYTHING MAKE-UP SEX MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER!
See what happens after Kat & Peter's happy ending in my story from Deep Desire Press!
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THINK YOU OWN ME?
Please check out my novel Show Me, Sir from Sinful Press that celebrates feminist kink!

REBEL WITH US!
Erotica is an expression of rebellion. Please check out my stories in Coming Together's defiant, charity anthology that celebrates diversity and equality in the face of our uncertain future! Available Now On
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OFF-HOURS OFFICE SEX
Please check out my story "Overtime" in this sexy collection & let it whisk you away from the office and into sixteen stories that explore sex in the working world.
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Monday, February 16, 2015

My Story Came Out!

Huh, while I was ranting and raving about 50 Shades of Grey, stuff happened!

The New Smut Project's anthology Between the Shores: Erotica with Consent came out while I wasn't looking. And it's already in the top 100 Rankings for Bisexual Books and Bisexual & Paranormal Ebooks! Yay!

A sparkly, new, revised and edited version of my story "Donovan's Door" is included in this anthology. It has pages of new content and took a nice spin on the original story. It's definitely worth the re-read, if you loved the story. And, if you never read it, well, it's worth the read, in my humble and thoroughly unbiased opinion.

So, please, come check out the anthology. It's all about how consent makes everything sexier, so it should be a fun time.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Yet Another Fifty Shades of Grey Review

This is my review's easy-access table of contents, with sort of short-and-sweet sum-ups for each chapter. Each individual chapter review has a lot more than what's in here, of course, but this is the tl;dr version.

Hope you enjoy it as well as the links to the long versions!


Introduction: "After all, I'm a firm believer that you can't really have an opinion of something that's worth anything if you don't at least try it."

Quotes: "This kinda smacks of meanness—sorry—but people found it funny and the venting process enabled me to be able to get as far into the book as I did...for whatever that was worth."

Chapter One: "However, my biggest complaint, has to be that, for all James’s effort to build Grey up as a Dom, Ana is no sub."

Chapter Two: "She wants the Christian Grey life-sized doll that she can sit in her shelf and look at for hours on end. She wants the Tiger Beat poster of him that she can hang on her bedroom ceiling."

Chapter Three: "She's one of those emotionally unstable messes that bear traps people with her hotness. And the only reason why she can't see it is because she IS crazy. It is the ONLY explanation."

Chapter Four: "For a while, it was really bothering me that the one kinkster, Grey, in this story was a manipulative, secretive, abusive predator while all the vanilla guys, Jose and Paul, we such nice, normal, sociable guys. Well, James took care of that little problem in this chapter."

Chapter Five: "This is why—I'm sorry—I believe that vanilla people really shouldn't write kink. Kink is all a mind set. It's a complicated, complex mental game of make-believe that is terribly hard to understand from the outside looking in." 

Chapter Six: "James takes the very thing that BDSM stands upon, freely given and fully informed consent, and knocks it on its ass. James steals our first and last legitimacy, the one thing we can use in our defense against all the prejudiced cries of criminal deviancy and depravity. Without it, we are the worst images that the vanilla public as a whole fears. Without it, we become the very thing we—as kinksters—fear most and fight so stridently against. Without that basic and most fundamental element, we become the stereotypes of the rapists and the raped. Nothing more than the helplessly abused and their demonic abusers. This is NOT who we are."

Chapter Seven: "She’s trying to avoid the bad press the word 'sadist' has gotten in the mainstream. She wants to say that Grey is kinky—so she gives him all the toys and tools and appropriately furnished space—as that seems the easiest, most obvious, least complicated, and least complex way to say so. But she doesn’t want him to be THAT KIND of kinky, so she vehemently says he’s not a sadist, despite that her easy, obvious, uncomplicated, and simple way of expressing his kink kinda screams that he is."

Safeworded Out: "I'm not too proud to admit it: the book won. It got me—a very proud and high-tolerance, pain-slut masochist—to cry 'Communist Manifesto' at the top of my lungs. Like I'd said before I could not—for my own sanity, just couldn't—finish this book."

My 50 Shades Film Review: "The movie may have been boring as hell. But it's a fascinating social critique that everyone is still calling Grey abusive and Ana a victim in the film when the movie goes out of its way to show that the opposite is true. [...] Movie Ana isn’t stupid. She got into this relationship with her eyes open. She knew what he wanted. Knew what he was asking of her. Knew what all that meant. And entered the relationship anyway. Then, when the romance doesn’t go the way she wants, she uses the kink they consensually did as a stick to psychologically beat him with."


Thursday, July 3, 2014

Heroes of My Heart

For those who live in Minnesota or just love Midwest nerds as much as I do, the annual geek-fest Convergence is happening right now. And I, for one, am super excited about it. It’s nerd Christmas, geek Mecca, and dork mating season all wrapped up in one fabulous four-day weekend. It’s an entire event devoted to loving the hell out of whatever it is you love.

For anyone who wonders why my site tends to go quiet right around this time every year, yes, this is why. Sorry. But even erotica writers need holidays too.

So, in deference to this hallowed event, I’ve decided that this month is devoted to my personal favorite geekdom: strong female heroes. From Wonder Woman to Xena, I have a soft spot in my heart for, well, wonder women. Sci-fi and fantasy are all about wish-fulfillment, about being able to step into a role and a life bigger and more spectacular than our own and, for me, these women have been an inspiration and the best escapism I’ve ever found.

I grew up loving Wonder Woman comics and the Xena show but, if we’re talking first loves, Buffy holds—and always will hold—my heart. Yes, it’s campy and quirky and more than a little odd, but Joss Whedon’s writing and storytelling is also smart and funny and full of heart. As another of my favorite authors, Francesca Lia Block, said about the show, “I figure if [...something] makes me laugh, cry, or come, I have to give it credit. If it does all three...” And Buffy, from the musical episode to when Joyce Summers dies to the entirety of Buffy’s love life, has done just that. She taught an entire generation that “Every girl who could have the power, will have the power. Can stand up, will stand up. Slayers every one of us. Make your choice. Are you ready to be strong?” Whedon himself said that the show was always about “[subverting] that idea, that image, and [creating] someone who was a hero where she had always been a victim […] The helpless blonde girl […] who, at the end of this scene, turns out to be something a little more than we expected.” Probably more than any other fiction in my life, Buffy has done the most to shape me into the type of strong, resilient woman I wanted to be.

Karen Marie Moning’s MacKayla Lane is another of my favorite heroines. Personally, I love Moning’s romantic and sweet Highlander series as well, possibly more than her darker, sexier, more adventure-based Fever series that features Mac. But the sharp departure of the second series that still exists within and incorporates the first seamlessly marvels my writer’s mind. As I’ve said before, I’m a big fan of interconnected stories, when series follow different characters within the same world, where what one character sets in motion affects what all the others in their own stories must now deal with. It echos the truth that everything we do affects everyone else, maybe on small, butterfly-wing levels and sometimes on huge, typhoon ones. And the literary journey from Adrienne in Moning’s very first book, who’s spunky and brave but still plays a more damsel-in-distress type role, to her ass-kicking, world-saving MacKayla wonderfully shows how adversity and the demand of hardship can change people. How, if we have to, we—any of us, all of us—can rise to be the heroes and shapers of our own destinies. That no matter where we come from, or who we start our journeys as, we can change the world.

Lastly, my current favorite love has to be Patricia Briggs’s Mercy Thompson series. I love shapeshifter stories and, even more so, I love that this one features a woman of color. The metaphor of existing within two worlds while never feeling fully a part of either is such a hugely common experience for first-generation American people of color and, as one, these stories always resonate so much with me. And Mercy is a great example of that. Of how the things that make you feel different and isolated—the experiences and qualities that can sometimes separate you from everyone else around you—can feel like curses or burdens but, given time and courage, can become the gifts that make you special and lead you to the places and the people who make you feel like you belong. I love that this series, while very action-packed, does a great job of showing that power doesn’t just belong to the strongest. Mercy, within her pack and within her world, is often the smallest and weakest, but her power lies in her quick-wits, her ability to use her limitations to her advantage, and her ability to gain the loyalty of the people around her. It’s a reminder that often the people we dismiss as powerless, as useless—even and especially when it’s ourselves—can wind up being the people we must depend on.

These women, and so many more, are my heroes. They remind me of what people are—what I am—capable of. That, even when I feel beaten down or hopeless, that we all have the ability to rise. So long as we can keep the will to.