Showing posts with label Faere Trade. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Faere Trade. Show all posts

Friday, April 15, 2016

Be My Home

Haven

Hazy pulled back a creeping vine from the café window to peer out onto the street. The pixie waitress was never more reminded of Faere Trade’s magic than when she saw the world beyond it through the magically hidden, one-way windows. She frowned at the jarring juxtaposition between the drab, litter-strewn, downtown street outside and the verdant greenery that grew over and all around the inside of the café, reminiscent of the enchanted forests her kind used to live in — that her family still lived in — before the magical community revealed itself to the wider, human world.

At first, when she’d initially left her family’s ancestral home, Hazy had been so excited to see and experience the human world. Magic was great and all, but fairytales didn’t happen in the magical world; they happened in the human one. She’d been so sure that, in the more mundane parts of world where magic felt rare and special, somehow — some way — she would too.

She soon found out that rare and special weren’t always good things to be. That, surrounded by humans who’d been raised on fairytales and myths, she was too often seen as a spectacle, rather than a living being. Too many humans took one look at her and saw a shortcut, easy route to all their hopes and dreams, never even considering that Hazy might have a few of her own. It’d been only a few weeks in the human world before Hazy had just needed a break.

So she’d come here. To Faere Trade, the region’s largest haven place. A sanctuary for magical creatures from the often overwhelming, frequently unwelcoming, and even sometimes dangerous mundane world. Here they didn’t need to hide who they were and Hazy, for one, had been grateful for some place in the big, bad city where she could let her wings loose. It might be her job, but Faere Trade was also her safe space.

And she was determined to protect it.

“What are you glaring at?” Hazy turned to see San, her boss and owner of Faere Trade, gazing over her shoulder. The witch frowned. “Tables five and eight need to be bussed and table six’s order has been up for, like, five minutes.”

Hazy winced and let the thick, hanging vines fall like a twisted curtain over the sunlit glass. “Sorry, San, I’ll get right on it.”

San shook her head. “I already sent Francis out to table six and the lunch rush is dying down. So tell me what’s got you so distracted?”

Frowning, Hazy waved at the world outside Faere Trade. “There’s someone out there.”

San raised an eyebrow. “Someone?”

“A human,” Hazy said pointedly, her wings instinctively twitching. “Lurking outside the café.” Her nose crinkled as she looked at them through the pane. 

All humans seemed tall to pixies, who came in all kinds of sizes — from small enough to slip in through a keyhole to the size of a child just on the cusp of not believing. At just under four-and-a-half feet, Hazy was used to being loomed over by overgrown humans. 

Yet there was something… almost fragile about this particular human. While more than a foot-and-a-half taller than Hazy, they still seemed to always raise themselves up on their tiptoes. Even scanning from across the street or bending at the waist to inscrutably study the pavement just outside the building, the strange human would teeter on unsteadily arched feet as if the added inches would somehow give them more sight. Even with the height difference, Hazy swore, the human’s slight, off-kilter frame always looked precariously on the verge of tripping over.

Hazy huffed, wishing — for all their sakes — the human would just go home. “They’ve been out there for, like, an hour, just pacing the street over and over again.” They’d even stopped right in front of Faere Trade’s door and stared for a solid six minutes as if tempted to come in.

Which was ridiculous.

Hazy had set the most updated way-wards herself and, with the new glamour spell she’d used, it not only made the café invisible to the human eye, but it ought to have undetectably deterred any from coming too close. Most magic, by nature, called to humans, often luring or enticing them near. But way-wards — laboriously laid in conjunction with layers of protection charms and spells — warded spaces from those not meant to be there.

And this stubbornly loitering human did not belong here!

Hazy’s lip curled irritatedly. “I’ll clear five and eight and stop by six, before double-checking the wards outside.” They had to be glitching. That was the only explanation. Maybe — if they were still out there — she’d even try talking to the human. Just to see what they were up to. 

“Don’t,” warned San.

Hazy straightened, not even realizing she’d turned away from San to stare out the window again. “Don’t what?”

“Don’t mess with the human,” San said with her hands on her hips. “The wards are fine. We’d be overrun with human tourists and gawkers, if they weren’t and you know it. And the more attention you give them, the more attention that’ll bring to the café and the magic hiding it.” She shook her head. “Leave it alone.”

Hazy sighed. San was right. She should walk away. Should get back to work. And she would. After mentally making a note to check the wards after everyone left for the day. Just to be sure.  

*

They were back!

Hazy looked up from the wet rag she was mopping up a spilled vanilla affogato laced with a shot of confidence elixir and two shots of caramel syrup to see that dally-lagging loiterer squinting their eyes at the ought-to-have-been-hidden, magically one-way, only-see-out, cannot-see-in windows. Yet that… that… that human certainly looked like they could spy inside!

Hazy leaned closer to the glass, fluttering her wings to lift herself off her feet just enough to stare into the curiously searching gaze. They couldn’t really see through the spell, could they? She focused on those deep, dark brown eyes. Deep set and with tired bags that appeared almost bruised, those eyes had a dreamy quality, like they were forever stuck in that fuzzy, liminal moment right before or immediately after sleep. Hazy all but jumped when they blinked and — for a moment — she would have sworn they could see her.

But that was impossible. She’d checked all the spells and wards and charms last night before locking up the café and again this morning before opening up. There was absolutely no way a human could break through her spellwork.

Except. Here. They. Were.

“Huh,” San said as she passed on her way back to the kitchen. “Your human’s back.”

Plopping down on her feet again, Hazy rolled her eyes at that, not appreciating the overtly possessive pronoun or overly amused tone San was using. Squeezing the soggy wash rag in her fist, Hazy huffed. “I don’t understand why or how they’re here.”

San waved her hands dismissively. “They probably have some magic somewhere in their lineage. Some great-great-great aunt who dabbled with kitchen magic or some long-lost ancestor who got lost in the Underhill. Enough magic in their blood to have an inkling of what’s here, but not enough to get inside.” She narrowed her gaze at Hazy. “Unless we do something to draw them in.”

Hazy backed away from the glass. Who, her? Hazy didn’t want that human — didn’t want any human — anywhere near here. There was no way she was going to do anything to encourage the human, much less invite them in.

“If we leave them alone,” San insisted as she made her way toward the kitchen, “they’ll eventually get bored and leave.”

Except the human did leave yesterday. Before they came right back today. And the next day. And the next day. And the one after that. For exactly forty-two minutes; she’d timed it. For forty-two minutes, they would linger and creep along the block, examining every inch. 

And, every time, San would scoldingly remind Hazy to leave it be. But how could she when, with every breath and peep, this mettling mortal was messing with her safe space?! Hazy tapped her foot and worried her lip, even as she stared at the human separated from her by a thin sheet of glass, the beginnings of a plan fluttering like wings in her skull.  

*

The next day, Hazy was ready. Blinking blearily from staying up too late researching, she came into work early to tinker with the wards. She diligently sprinkled copal ash and black pepper along the edges of the café’s property lines to keep out unwanted visitors. Holding tight to intention, she whispered ancient words to the pre-dawn winds, asking them to watch over the protected haven. For a full half-hour, she pressed her hands to the Faere Trade door and infused it with as much warding energy as she could without passing out. 

There.

If that didn’t keep people out, Hazy didn’t know what would. Almost excited for midday, she forced a smile on her face all through the morning. She tried not to tap her toe impatiently while seating or serving customers as her gaze felt drawn to the clock. Still, she found herself subtly rushing brunchers out the door, offering to-go boxes to those who lingered too long after paying their tab. 

She knew she shouldn’t; it was bad customer service and would cost her in tips. But she needed extra time to really pitch in before the lunch rush, in the hopes that no one missed her too much when it finally came.

She was determined to be there when the human arrived. So, with an apologetic glance at her coworkers, Hazy quietly snuck out the back, just as a large group of suit-clad, neo-Vlad vampires from the brokerage firm down the street came in for the best cup of espresso-infused O-Neg in the city. They were fussy customers, so particular about the exact temperature the brew should be at for peak taste and viscosity, the precise ratio of caffeine to blood sugar, not to mention the proper location for the best and most ethically sourced donors. They could talk a person’s ear off about their views on the perfect cup of their favorite pick-me-up. Hazy often wondered if they’d all missed their calling as baristas, secretly wishing they could trade jobs instead of stocks or whatever it was they did in their fancy offices. They were a lot to handle on a personal level, but Hazy was sure — work-wise — no one should miss her.

She had a mission. Feeling fairly sure about the outcome — given the grueling hours of research she’d done last night and the tasking work she’d put in this morning — she still wanted to be sure. She wanted to watch that interloping human walk right on by the building, none the wiser. 

She gripped the corner of the nondescript brick wall that housed the rather remarkable café, peeking around the side to peer at the street facing Faere Trade. Holding her breath, she spotted them approaching. They had that same dazed, dreamy look in their eyes as their gaze swept all along the rather bland and uninteresting block. Hazy narrowed her gaze at the storage company and temp agency that flanked the café. She wrinkled her nose at the hardware and convenience stores across the way. None of them were as fascinating as this human’s wide-eyed wonder and curiosity made them appear to be. So what in this and all the worlds beyond were they looking at?

Again, they stopped right in front of Faere Trade’s door, staring almost… longingly at it. With an irritated huff, Hazy pressed her palms harder into the walls, feeling the slight hum of her spells. The magic was there and, if the pulse running through her senses was any indication, it was strong. 

So why wasn’t it working?

Still pouting, she turned as a group of human brokers, with their own chainstore brand to-go cups of straight-up cold brew coffee, stumbled back as they spotted their vampire colleagues exiting the café.

“There you are!” one of them called out. “We wondered where you’d gone. We thought we’d tag along with you, since you said you were getting coffee, but we didn’t see you there.”

One of the vampires smiled, flashing a fang cheekily. “We have a place we like.”

“Ooo,” another human cooed, “I love a new recommendation.”

The vampire chuckled as they shook their cup, the slosh within audibly thicker than a traditional cup of joe. “I don’t know if this place is quite to your tastes.”

“For sure, for sure,” the coworker acknowledged. “But would still be cool to see. I’ve never been to a magical place. It’s in the area?” Hazy watched as the guy’s gaze scoped around the street, skating over the very building they were standing in front of. The building his vampire coworkers had just walked out of.

So the wards were working. As intended, they were turning the eyes and attention of mortals away.

Mostly.

She frowned as she saw her human standing unnecessarily on tiptoe as they unapologetically eavesdropped on the brokers’ conversation, even as the vampires deftly steered their colleagues back toward their office.

Hazy huffed. She knew there was nothing wrong with her spellwork. She’d been diligent and flawless. No, there was something wrong with this human. And, even though she knew Faere Trade’s lunch crowd must surely be in full rush now, she was determined to figure out exactly what that something was.

With a brief look in the windows’ reflection, she checked her glamour. While the café’s inner magic allowed others to see past her glamour — to work and live safely within its walls as her true self alongside others just like her — she diligently applied the requisite ritualistic spell to look more human every morning before and after work, to avoid the chaos her winged form could cause on her commute. She blinked at the five-foot-four-inch version of herself reflected back at her, even as her wings twitched unseen in the glass behind her back. Perfect.

Don’t.

She practically felt San’s warning ring through her memory. Hazy probably shouldn’t do this. Shouldn’t be out here and certainly shouldn’t be making her way toward the café entrance and the silly human still hovering there. Paying any attention to the human risked drawing their attention to the café and the magic carefully hidden — by her — within.

But their attention was already drawn. And Hazy wanted to know how and why. She needed to know. So she could stop it. She needed more knowledge and Oberon knew none of her tried-and-true books or trusted websites had helped her so far. 

So raising up a bit on her wings to match her glamour’s height, she tapped the human on their shoulder, admiring their slim yet sturdy set. “I’m sorry, but you look lost. Do you need directions?”

The human gave a slight jerk, surprised, as they blinked blankly at Hazy. “To where?”

Hazy shook her head and shrugged. “Depends on where you want to go. I’ve seen you wander the area for a while now. Like I said, you seem lost.” She held out her hand. “I’m Hazy.”

Their brow furrowed as they stared at her outstretched hand. “Excuse me?”

“Hazy,” she repeated. “Short for Hazel. My parents thought it’d be cute to name their kids after nuts. We — and the other kids in school with us — found it less cute, so we shortened them to Hazy, Mondy, and Chessie.”

“Hazelnut. Almond. And… Chestnut?”

Hazy shrugged. “Like I said, less cute.” She wiggled her hand, silently inviting the human to take it. A lot could be learned from a touch, magically speaking, even a brief one. “And you?”

“Do I think it’s cute?” the human asked, raising an eyebrow. “It’s certainly… interesting, I suppose.”

Hazy fought a confused smile, finding the human certainly interesting as well. “What’s your name?” she clarified.

“Oh,” they said, shaking their head. “Of course.” Wiping their palm on their pantleg, they finally shook Hazy’s hand. “I’m Jaime.”

It wasn’t their given name. The fae were sensitive to things like that, the inherent power in names and titles. As their palms touched, the sweet, simple sound of it resonated within Hazy warmly. The name felt actively chosen, not passively received. It felt truer than most names did. Interesting, indeed. Still holding tight to their hand and that feeling of truth, Hazel used the power of it to ask, “Are you lost, Jaime?”

Not letting go either, they shook their head. “I’m not lost.” They looked up a bit, as if searching the midday sky for the right words. “I’m whatever the exact opposite of lost is.” 

“I don’t know what that means.” She tilted her head at the confused look on their face. She got the impression Jaime didn’t quite either. “I can help,” she offered, “if you tell me what you’re looking for.”

This.” They gestured around themselves a bit wildly. “I’ve spent my entire life feeling like I’m never where I’m supposed to be. Feeling like I’m… always late or lost or left behind. But here?” They shook their head. “I can’t explain it but I have never felt more like this is exactly where I’m meant to be.” A deep blush colored their fair skin as they abruptly dropped Hazy’s hand and stepped back. With a shake of their head, they winced. “I don’t know why I just said that.”

Suddenly sorry for taking a truth Hazy hadn’t expected to hear — and certainly one Jaime hadn’t intended to give — Hazy shuffled back as well. “I get that,” she admitted, feeling honor-bound to trade one truth for another. “I’m pretty new to the city too and I don’t quite feel like I fit in yet either.” A part of her feared she never would, that this sticky feeling of failure for foolishly leaving her childhood home would never fade, but that truth felt too secret to share. She coughed. “But I know there’s a coffee place not far from here,” she said, pointing away from the café and toward the way the human brokers had come. She shrugged. “It may not solve anything, but I find a little sugar and caffeine, to lift the spirits, never hurts.”

Jaime smiled politely and nodded. “Thanks; I’ll keep that in mind.” But, even as Hazy left to head back into Faere Trade, she felt Jaime’s presence linger within the buzzy boundaries of her wards.  

*

It was a week later and, no matter what Hazy tried, not much had changed. She’d tried every trick and tip she could find to strengthen or tweak the wards. The cat’s-eye stones she’d added to the way-ward sites had only intrigued Jaime, leading to a forty-minute talk about crystals that had eaten up Hazy’s entire lunch break. After spending three hours drawing a perfect charcoal crows seal on the back wall of the café, she’d come out to see Jaime posting pictures of it on their social media, gushingly insisting on tagging and friending Hazy as the artist.

It wasn’t until San saw Hazy planting plextranthus caninus along the walkway leading to the entry that she finally put a stop to Hazy’s meddling. “The piss-off plant? Really?” San said, scowling at the newly landscaped strip of soil. “Is your little human some scurrying pest nibbling at your garden?” San shook her head as Hazy stood to sweep the dirt off her knees. “No, don’t get up. You’re pulling that all back up again. We can’t have that growing here; it’s a health hazard.”

Hazy pouted. “It’s nontoxic.”

Popping a hip, San scoffed. “To humans.” Under her breath, she added, “Which rather defeats the point, now doesn’t it?” She sighed. “We have were- and shapeshifting customers, as well as animal spirits and familiars, who frequent this café, who will be affected by this plant’s mere presence. Not to mention children and mundane pets and native fauna, who could be seriously harmed if they accidentally ingest it. At best, this is going to lead to migraines, nausea, and complaints. At worst?” San shook her head. “We’re going to have hospital visits and a lawsuit on our hands.” Pointing at Hazy’s hard work, she ordered. “I want it all gone before we open.”

 Begrudgingly seeing San‘s point, Hazy huffed as she sank down to her knees on the sidewalk again. It had taken half an hour past opening to put the walkway back the way it had been. And, of course, San had been right; Hazy had gotten some pretty nasty glares from a few of their werewolf customers. 

Feeling defeated in her plans before the morning crowd had even left was new. Hazy scowled as she furiously scrubbed dirt from beneath her fingernails.

“Here.” San shoved a steaming mug at her.

Hazy sniffed the aromatic brew smelling lavender, sage, and rosemary. “A forgetting tonic?” She cocked her head. “What’s this for?”

San rolled her eyes and shook her head. “It’s for you.” She made a frustrated sound. “You need to let this go. Let Jaime go.” She folded her arms over her chest and pursed her lips. “Before someone gets hurt.”

Hazy knew she should listen to San. San was her boss and her friend. She was the smartest, wisest, most accomplished and powerful witch she knew. So, while Hazy wasn’t quite desperate enough to resort to magic about it, she resolved to stay in all through lunch. Didn’t even peek out the window. 

Yet she swore she could feel Jaime outside the café. Felt each pacing footstep they took along the block like a tick in her head or a beat in her chest. She did that for three days, before the pressure of it threatened to crack. 

By then, she couldn’t get Jaime out of her head. The eager sound of their voice, every time they greeted Hazy. The way their dark eyes lit up like stars when they smiled. Every shift and sway of their awkwardly lithe body that seemed to speak a language more expressive than words. 

The thoughts and memories wouldn’t stop, just kept reeling through her mind no matter how hard she worked or what she did to distract — to distance — herself. Even after the lunch hour ended. Even when she knew Jaime was gone for the day. Hell, even at home, long after her shift was done and Hazy, strained and exhausted, had already left work behind. Still the human somehow never strayed far from her thoughts. 

Lying in bed, staring at her ceiling instead of sleeping, Hazy snorted to herself. Maybe she should have drunk San’s tonic. 

She bolted up as a sudden thought struck her.

Or have them drink it.

Why hadn’t Hazy thought of that? It was perfect. If she made the tonic for Jaime, if she could get them to forget Faere Trade, they’d stop coming back. 

Hazy swallowed hard and rubbed at a sudden, inexplicable tightness in her chest. She shivered and tucked her covers around herself tightly, even as apprehension seeped like ice beneath her skin. She shook her head, willing the weird sense of worry away. She could do this. She should. She would. She had to. It was for the best. 

For both of them.  

*

Hazy clutched the to-go mug in her hand, the pleasantly distracting scent wafting up from the cup. She ought to head to the front of the building, but she couldn’t quite make her feet step out of the shadows along the side wall. Hidden behind the brick line, she watched Jaime go about their midday ritual.

This would be the last time she’d ever see it. The thought made her body freeze and tense. This was what she wanted, wasn’t it? To keep her haven secure. To make sure Faere Trade remained a home to those who, like her, depended on the safety of its walls. Then why did every step forward feel weighed down? Why did her heart sink as Jaime noticed her and waved excitedly.

They grinned as Hazy approached. “I haven’t seen you around lately; I was worried.”

Hazy forced herself to smile back. “Been busy,” she said, her voice sounding strained even to her own ear. She lifted a strangely shaky hand, offering the drink. “I brought you this to make it up to you.”

Jaime took the cup and beamed. “Thank you. You didn’t need to.”

But she did. This was what they both needed. She stared as Jaime’s fingers touched their name that Hazy had written on the side of the cup. And the intricate, apotropaic snake design she’d sketched in marker that bled into the waxy cardboard. 

She watched Jaime inhale deeply. “Is it tea? It smells… floral?”

Hazy nodded. “That’s the lavender. It’s a special house blend.” She’d used San’s basic forgetting tonic recipe as a base, layering it with the snake seal, not only steal the memories of this place from them but to blind them entirely to the magic here. And adding their name, using the truth and power of it, focused and strengthened the spell. This would work. It had to.

“Cool.” Jaime pursed their lips into a bow and blew on the steaming brew before taking a sip. With the way they gripped the cup in their hands, the tip of their finger was poised at the open mouth of the snake, its pointed fangs parted to strike. “Yum!” As they took another, deeper drink, their finger smeared the marker, staining their skin green with the ink. “I’m not much of a tea drinker, but this is good.”

Hazy’s smile turned bittersweet as she thought of the liberal amount of wildflower honey she’d added to the tonic because she could tell, from all the pictures they posted online, Jaime had a weakness for sweets. “I’m glad you like it.” She watched their grip on the mug tighten as they tipped it so more of the tonic flowed into their waiting mouth. The moment made their fingers rub against the emerald ink, all but erasing their name and Hazy’s mark. Fisting her hand against the sudden aching clench in her gut, Hazy watched them drain the cup to the very last drop. 

Her movements stilted, she took the finished paper cup from them. “I should go back now.” She swallowed hard and took a step back into the safety of her shadows and wards. “Farewell, Jaime.”

And, before she could let herself second-guess or regret what was already done, Hazy rushed inside and leaned against the heavy kitchen door. She shut her eyes and took several deep breaths as she tried to calm the anxiety creeping through her chest. It was over. Now her life could go back to the way it was. The way it was supposed to be.

San rushed through the door leading to the café. “What did you do?”

Hazy’s brow furrowed. “What do you mean?”

San stormed toward her, her eyes angry and accusing. “I mean, what the hell did you do?” She threw her arm out toward the front of Faere Trade. “Your human is breaking down in front of my café.”

Hazy straightened. “What?” Without waiting for an answer, she rushed out through the crowded lunch service, most of whom had abandoned their tables to stare out the street-facing windows.

Hazy pushed her way to peer out the pane. At Jaime. Who was still pacing up and down the street but, instead of their usual fanciful exploration, each step seemed frantic and fraught. As their head turned this way and that — as if searching for something lost or taken — small, helpless sounds slipped from their trembling lips. Tears spilled from their eyes, the bright midday sun hiding nothing from the chittering crowd gathered around her.

“What’s wrong with them?” she heard someone say. 

Her spine stiffened as she turned to see who’d said that. She could taste the bitter Nothing on her tongue, when her eye caught the smear of ink left on Jaime’s hand, almost instantly dousing that quick flare of defensive anger with a flood of guilt. She was what was wrong. She’d done this. She winced at the ink staining Jaime’s hand as they clutched their heaving chest as if they couldn’t quite breathe. 

Hazy turned when she felt San’s hand on her shoulder. Surprised, she noticed that the crowd had dispersed, their collective attention turned back toward their food. Her nose twitched as the scent of San’s power mixed with the now magically reheated food. Hazy let out an involuntary laugh at the idea of one of the most omnipotent witches the world had ever known using her vast skills to warm-up lunch. San was nothing if not a consummate hostess. “Faere Trade is a haven place,” she told Hazy. “Do you know what that means?”

Hazy nodded. “It’s a safe place for the magical community.” Every magical being knew that. “It’s a place where we can be ourselves without worry or harm.”

“Is this who we are?”

Hazy blinked up at San as she looked out the window at Jaime with a frown. She knew she should answer San. Defend herself. Explain that she’d just wanted to protect this place, these people. She hadn’t meant… this. The desolate pain plain on Jaime’s face hurt to look at.

“It’s hard to live in a world not made for you. That reminds you daily, in small and grand ways, in sometimes irritating and sometimes horrifying ways, that you do not fit. That you don’t belong.” San’s words felt weighty — fell heavy — on Hazy. “Haven places, for all their wards to keep that world out, call out to and welcome those who need them.”

 “I’m not lost. I’m whatever the exact opposite of lost is.” Jaime’s words echoed in Hazy’s mind. The wonder and peace of them had been so effortlessly joyful that, at the time, Hazy had dismissed it as the silly thoughts of a perplexing human.“I’ve spent my entire life feeling like I’m never where I’m supposed to be. Feeling like I’m… always late or lost or left behind. But here? I can’t explain it but I have never felt more like this is exactly where I’m meant to be.” 

But now… the memory of those words was so devastatingly at odds with desolate misery now filling — drowning — Jaime’s dark eyes until it leaked down their cheeks. Hazy shook her head. “They’re human.” They were of the world. They belonged in it.

Yet Hazy remembered scrolling through their social media page, filled with more pictures of food than friends. Even the landscape portraits of the lit-up city at night or close-ups of graffiti felt lonely, like looking out at a world that never let you in.

“So were vampires before they were bitten or many monsters before they were cursed,” San said with a shrug. “So was I, all those centuries ago, before I cast my first spell.” San looked at Hazy’s wings that were fluttering tensely at her back. “You were born to magic, had it passed down to you through your blood. You knew it as your birthright every day of your life. But that isn’t the only way magic is granted.” She looked out the window again, as a pair of cops approached Jaime on the street. “Whether born into it or not, few of us chose this life. Magic — with its chaotic and ineffable whim — chooses us. For better or worse, and through no great act of will on their part, magic touched your human. Brought them here. Brought them you.” They watched as the cops forced a clearly panicking Jaime to sit on the curb with restraining hands on their slim, shaky shoulders. “I wonder, when they walk away from here, will they see themselves as gifted or cursed?”

Hazy’s wings lifted her off the ground in a horrified flap as she saw Jaime inconsolably jerk away from the cops’ attempt to subdue them, their elbow unintentionally rearing back to crack against one of the cop’s heads. The cop’s face flushed with fury as they reached behind their back for something on their belt. Without thinking, Hazy rushed out the door. “Stop!” she shouted, waving her arms in a desperate effort to get the cops’ attention on her and off Jaime. “Please stop. I know them.”

One of the cops pointed at Jaime, a pair of handcuffs in their hands. “You know this person?” Giving Jaime a sharp shake toward Hazy, trying to get a response from them, he asked, “Hey, you know them?”

Hazy frowned as she saw Jaime’s dazed eyes narrow on her, unsurely. Not waiting for Jaime to respond, not entirely sure any response from them would do either of them any favors thanks to her spell, she reached into her apron’s pocket and pulled out her phone. Pulling up the picture of them posing in front of her crow seal on Jaime’s page, she flashed it at the cops. “See, we’re friends.” She pushed her phone at the cops. “See, that’s us. I know them. I can help.”

The other cop narrowed his eyes, his grip tightening on Jaime, making them wince. “We got a call about a person acting suspicious and causing a disruption on the street. Then we arrived on the scene to check it out and your friend assaulted a cop.”

Hazy held up her hands. “They didn’t mean it,” she insisted. “They’re upset and it was an accident. I’ll take them inside, calm them down.”

The cop blinked up at the building, their eyes narrowing on Faere Trade’s sign. His jaw tensed. “That’s one of those haven places, isn’t it?” He pulled his hands away from Jaime as a scowl pulled at his lips. “They one of… them?

Hazy took the opportunity and took Jaime’s limp hand in hers, pulling them closer to her. She cringed as Jaime’s foot stumbled nearer, tripping through her glamour’s toes. She felt them jerk in surprise, their brow furrowing as they stared at their feet. She gripped their hand tighter, willing them not to pay so much attention that her glamour failed. But she felt it flicker, watching the cops’ eyes widen as it did. “They’re one of us,” Hazy said, her voice strong and unwavering, as she pushed Jaime behind her. 

“And we take care of our own.” Hazy turned and saw San walking toward them. Looking closer, she saw Francis and some of her other coworkers in the doorway, their phones clearly pointed at them, recording. As Sand moved to stand tall beside them, she stared down the cops, her gaze firm but her smile kind. “Thank you for all your help. We’ll take it from here.”

If anyone thought it strange that the two policemen stepped back, backed down, they didn’t know San. Whether mundane or magic, people recognized power and San was powerful. Hazy herself wrapped an arm around Jaime’s shoulders as a shiver ran through them as the air practically crackled with tension. The cops shook their heads and glowered. “We’ll have to report this to the magical division. They’ll have questions.”

San simply nodded, but said nothing as the cops walked away. She didn’t have to. The officers might be authority figures, but this was her territory. This was their home. They would defend it and each other. Which now included Jaime. Hazy hovered over Jaime’s shoulder. They’re one of us. She felt the rush of power in that truth. And, while it strengthened her, she also recognized how familiar it felt. Almost from the start, San had referred to Jaime as your human, creating and cementing that connection. Speaking that bond into being. While the words felt powerful in this moment, they’d been true for a while now, even if Hazy hadn’t seen it yet.

But she did now.

“Let’s get them inside,” Francis said, handing Hazy a ceramic cup. 

Taking it from him, she smelled the sweet-smelling tea. She smiled and held it out to Jaime. “It’s okay. We’re here to help.”

“You said we’re friends?” Jaime asked, their voice quiet, unsure.

Hazy nodded. “Yeah,” she told them. “We’re friends.” 

Jaime studied her for a moment, making her feel a little nervous. “You have wings.” They smiled as Hazy’s wings reflexively twitched. “They’re pretty.”

Hazy let out a laugh, liking how their voice sounded softer now, less strained. Raising an eyebrow, she asked, “Want to see more?”

Jaime’s dark eyes twinkled with curiosity. “More what?”

“Magic.”

Jaime sat up straighter. “How?”

Hazy nodded at the mug in their hands. And the enchanted drink that would let them see past glamours. 

Clutching the mug, Jaime breathed in the comforting, welcoming steam from the tea and nodded. “It smells nice. Nutty.”

Hazy smiled. “It’s pistachio tea; you’ll like it.” 

They held the mug closer but kept their gaze on Faere Trade’s sign, that familiar dreamy look on their face again. They turned to grin at Hazy. Before taking a long, deep sip.


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CHAPTER EIGHT: BETWEEN THE LINES - PART TWO

Well, that had been a disaster. Azel shut his apartment door and sunk back against the wood. What had made him think it would go well? He wasn’t exactly the kind of partner a person — especially an accomplished and amazing one like Harri — would introduce to their family. He sighed and tugged at his horns in frustration. He was a poor, jobless demon with nothing but a mountain of debt and a pretty face; yeah, what mother wouldn’t want that for her daughter?

He rolled his eyes as his phone buzzed. What now? He checked his text messages, seeing one from Xara.

XARA: Hey, Az, wanted to give you a heads up. The credit check we ran for your employment background showed several IRS audits and a lot of debt payments that haven’t been dealt with yet. I mean, I know you, so you’re hired regardless, but you should definitely look into that.

Azel groaned and shut off his phone. Perfect. Maybe he should just swallow his pride and take Harri up on her offer to give him an advance. It wasn’t like he could afford to not finish out the contract, no matter what Xara had told him. He needed the money too much.

And, especially after seeing her with her mom, Azel didn’t think he could walk out on Harri, even if he didn’t need the money. He didn’t want to just be one more person in her life who let her down. One more person who only stood by her when it was easy. No, he’d see this through to the end. He’d make sure she came out okay.

Though how he was going to do that… he had no fucking clue.

He sat down on his couch and stared at all the bills and statements haphazardly spread out on his coffee table. Maybe he should start by figuring out his own shit. Get his own life sorted out. He was never going to convince anyone that he was good enough for someone like Harri like this. He needed to be better.

So he gathered all his papers together and started to sort. It took him all night, all morning, and well into the afternoon to organize it all into bills that had been paid, bills he needed to pay, and bills that were past due. It was still staggering, seeing it all organized in front of him. But it felt… strangely better knowing the numbers. 

He’d always been a little afraid that tallying up the total would make it all feel too real and that, by avoiding it, he was somehow staying one step ahead and out of its reach. 

He was beginning to think it was more like being a man who didn’t notice he was drowning. And the longer he took to save himself, the worse he was making it on himself. Now he knew how far he had to swim. He just had to do it. And, while it still felt daunting as hell, it no longer felt insurmountable. 

And that was something.

By the time Xara texted him about his first shift at the shop, he’d done some online digging on the IRS website as well as figuring out what kind of payment plans were available for some of his default-ier dues.  

XARA: Az, you good with starting Monday? I can get you on schedule for the 10a-6p shift, if that works for you

Azel texted her back that it worked perfectly for him and thanked her again. He was about to start a real job. He had at least the beginnings of a real plan. It finally felt, for the first time in a long time, like things were looking up.

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Between the Lines - Part One

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CHAPTER EIGHT: BETWEEN THE LINES - PART ONE

This was a terrible idea. Harri had suspected it the second she’d agreed to do it. But, now that the moment was here, she knew it. Without a single doubt.

“So,” her mother said as she spread her cloth napkin across her lap, “how long have you two been seeing each other?”

They were all seated around a too small, glass table in the corner of her mother’s favorite upscale French bistro. Harri really hadn’t wanted to come, but Azel had pointed out that, if they really wanted to convince Nate, they needed to convince her family and friends. If they kept seeing and treating Nate as her boyfriend, Nate had no reason to stop either. So, despite her reservations and with extensive prepping, they’d come.

Azel, as if sensing Harri’s stress level, reached for her hand under the table and smiled at her mother politely. “Not very long. Only a few weeks but I know having the people in Harri’s life hear about us through other people was…” He paused, as if weighing his words carefully, before reciting the explanation they’d discussed ahead of time. “We didn’t think it was a good situation for any of us.”

Her mother sniffed and lifted her fork to pick at her Waldorf salad. “Well, I’m glad that it sounds as if neither of you are rushing into anything.” She looked at Harri pointedly, making her feel six years old again. “I’d hate for you to do anything you can’t take back.”

Harri’s hand — her whole body — tensed, as she felt all the complicated emotions she felt around her mother rise inside her. Shame. Anger. Disappointment. And a deep need to seek her approval and love. Again, she felt Azel squeeze her hand, a silent sign that, even if she didn’t think she did, he knew she could do this. He had her back.

So she straightened her shoulders and met her mother’s gaze. “I knew that you might be worried—”

Might be?” Her mother scoffed behind a perfect bite of her salad.

“—and we wanted to put your mind at ease.”

At ease!” Her mother’s incredulity made her voice literally crack.

“Yes,” Harri continued, working hard to keep her own voice calm in the face of her mother’s very un-calm tone. “I’m happy now. Happier than I’ve been in a long time—”

Harri shut her mouth at her mother’s raised hand. “I’m sure you are.” She leaned forward and laid her hand over Harri’s clenched fist. “I remember what it was like to be young and on the cusp of your real life.” She pouted and gave her daughter a patronizing look. “It can be scary to take that first step into adulthood, so if you need…” She looked Azel up and down, pursing her lips. “...time to sort yourself out…” She shook her head, her perfectly arranged hair not moving even a strand. “We’ll all be here for you, dear. You know that.” She sat back and picked her fork back up. “Just don’t keep us waiting too long, if you know what I mean.”

Nate. She meant Nate. Harri knew she meant Nate. Azel knew she meant Nate. Hell, the diners at the surrounding tables likely knew she meant goddamed Nate.

“Harri is an adult.”

 Both Harri and her mother turned to Azel. Her mother raised an imperious eyebrow. “Excuse me?”

Azel sat up straighter, his ill-fitting sport coat stretching over his broad shoulders and tucked-away, covered wings. “With all due respect, Mrs. Wren. But Harri is not only of age, she’s educated, successful. She’s the most responsible, most capable, smartest person I know.”

Harri stared at Azel. This wasn’t their script. Wasn’t the clean, pat answers she’d told him to say. Where was this coming from?

Azel ticked off his fingers. “She has a good job. A good home. She has friends and is always willing — sometimes too willing — to help out everyone around her as much as she can.” He met her mother’s steely gaze unflinchingly. Something she didn’t think she felt up to most of the time. “Even now, she arranged this meet-up — took time out of her busy life to do something she knew would likely be deeply awkward — to make you feel better.” He lifted their joined hands and laid them on the table, in front of her mother. Harri stared at their hands, feeling his strength, his confidence, his conviction in her, flow from him into her. It felt good. Better than anything she could have ever imagined. “By every metric that matters, your daughter is an adult, one who has proven she can make the best decisions about herself and her life.”

Her mother’s gaze narrowed on their entwined hands. “Maybe not every metric.” She held up her hands to cut off whatever either Harri or Azel might say. “Look, I’m sure you’re a perfectly fine…” She waved her hand dismissively over Azel. “But she is my daughter; I think I know a little bit more about what’s best for her.” 

Maybe you don’t know me as well as you think you do.” That thought just kept haunting her. Did anyone in her life truly understand her? Did Harri herself?

She looked at Azel, at the surety radiating from him. Did he know her? It felt like he did. Or was it that he accepted her, however she was, however she needed to be in that moment, without judgment or reservation? Was it that he let her show him who she was, instead of expecting her to be someone else? 

“I just don’t think you’ve thought this through,” her mother continued. “I’m sure you both are having your fun now, but where is this going? Really? How does this all look in five years? Ten? Twenty?” She too precisely cut her salad into smaller and smaller bites. “How will your lives fit together? Do you plan to bring him to family events, like weddings and funerals? Are you prepared to attend work or social events together, where image matters? Where will you live? Will your landlord even allow someone like him on your lease? How will you get married? How will you even be able to attend services together, much less be married in our church? How will you have children? Is it even possible and, if it is, will they be normal or will they be…” She looked Azel up and down again. “I’m just saying these are questions you should have answers to.”

Harri didn’t know whether to stare slack-jawed at her mother’s rudeness or to grind her teeth in rage. “Like we said, it’s only been a few weeks; I don’t think we need to be asking those kinds of questions quite yet. But,” she said, feeling more than a little hurt along with being incredibly offended on Azel’s behalf, “I would hope that anywhere I was welcome, my partner — whoever they might be — would be welcome as well.” She stood up, tossing her napkin over her mostly untouched lunch. “Azel agreed to come here with me, so you could meet him, so you could see who he is outside the gossip being whispered in your ear, and hopefully feel more comfortable with all this.” Harri shook her head. She’d known this was a bad idea. “I would have hoped you could have met us with the same goodwill.” Harri should have known her mother wouldn’t. 

Thank God none of this was real. She hated putting Azel through this. Making him sit here being demeaned and dismissed by her mother. Over her. She couldn’t imagine what it would be like, if they were actually dating. To be sitting with the person you wanted to spend your life with and see this as your future. No one was worth that, certainly not her. 

She’s the most responsible, most capable, smartest person I know.” He’d said such wonderful things about her. In a moment where she’d felt like none of those things, he’d said them with unwavering certainty. Seen who she wanted to be, who she tried very hard to be. She owed it to him to do her best to live up to that, as much as she could.

So she reached for her purse and pulled out several bills, enough to cover the tab and tip. “Enjoy your lunch, Mother. Please let me know, when you’re ready to try this again. Until then,” she said, reaching out a hand to Azel as he stood up too, “we have nothing more to say.”


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Brass Tacks - Part Four

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CHAPTER SEVEN: BRASS TACKS - PART FOUR

They walked in silence back toward Harri’s apartment. Azel’s wings itched to stretch out and wrap around Harri’s shoulders to shield her from the biting breeze. But he wasn’t sure that would be welcome, so he clutched them tight against his back, hunching his shoulders and holding himself as still as possible so he didn’t accidentally brush against her as they made their way.

“I’m sorry about all that.” Her words were so soft he almost lost them on the whipping wind.

He shrugged. Like she’d said to the servers. “It wasn’t your fault.” Wasn’t the first person to react to him simply existing like that. Wouldn’t be the last, he was sure. He shoved his free hand into his pocket. “That was kind of you to tip them.” It was incredibly kind of her to stand up for him too, but he didn’t know how to say that without… Crying? Falling at her feet? He didn’t quite know, but he was sure it would be embarrassing, for them both. 

She scoffed. “No one gets paid enough to deal with people like that.”

Azel nodded. Didn’t he know it. And it always seemed to be the lowest paid among them who were always forced to. “Which just makes your gesture mean more.” He was sure those two guys appreciated it. He knew he would.

Which made him feel somehow more conflicted. About everything. If he was honest, a part of him, the poor, struggling part, chafed at her ability — her easy, carefree, reflexive propensity — to, once again, throw her money around to make problems disappear. And to have her do so yet again at his expense… It made him feel greedily envious, and graspingly inadequate, and just… small.

Why had she done it anyway? Because that holier-than-thou hymn-hummer insulted him? Why did she care? She’d literally spiked him with holy oil; now she wanted to be offended that some pathetic pew-warmer said mean words to him. It didn’t make sense.

Neither did his reaction to it. Her anger on his behalf had been humbling and humiliating, yes, but also… hot as hell. She was the last person in the world — or any other for that matter — he would have ever wanted to see him being yelled at, being insulted and belittled, like that. He’d felt so helpless, knowing that there was nothing he could do or say that would change that stuffed pantsuit’s mind or make the situation better. So he’d just sat there, trying to make himself as imperceptible as possible. 

And then, out of nowhere, Harri had appeared, standing taller than her 5’ 2” stature should be able to, right between him and the big bad. Her furious indignation had lit her up from the inside out, making her look glorious. Like an avenging angel in cashmere and pressed pants. He hadn’t been able to look away from her.

And the taste of it! All that confidence and righteous indignation, like crackling lightning, was somehow both chilling and searing, yet so very sweet. It was satisfying in a way he’d never experienced before and couldn’t get enough of. He could have gorged himself on her defense of him forever, drank deeply of it from her fiery lips and licked its lingering taste from her skin, and still stayed hungry for it. For her. 

For someone so impossibly out of his reach, he had to remind himself. He needed to remember that. His fingers brushed Xara’s business card in his pocket. She’d been right; he should cut his losses and run. Take the job Xara was offering and forget this whole thing with Harri.

Except, as they approached her apartment, the look on Harri’s face, the way her gaze anxiously darted up at her ex’s window, fucking gutted Azel. She’d just goddamed smited that simpering piety pusher like it was nothing. Even if he hated it, it’d been audacious as hell to poison a literal demon one night then schedule a meeting with him a few days later. Woman was fearless.

A small smile teased his lips before a frown stole it. Yet that smarmy, khaki-wearing, minivan-made asshole next door scared her. It wasn’t right.

Azel kicked a fallen stick along the sidewalk leading up to her building. “Need me to walk you to your door?” It was the least he could do for her. And then, if he was smart, he should walk the fuck away and not look back. 

She shook her head. “No, I’ll be fine.”

She didn’t sound like she even believed that. But Azel simply nodded and held out the delivery bag. “Here.”

She wrinkled her nose at it. “Take it.”

He shook his head resolutely. “No free meals, remember? You paid for it.”

She sighed, her shoulders slumping tiredly. “I really don’t want it; I think that whole experience ruined me for breakfast foods.”

He snorted. Yeah, he got that, but he wasn’t exactly in a position to waste food like that. He let his arm drop to his side with a shrug. “I’ll pay you back then.”

She rolled her eyes. “You don’t have to do that. It’s just fucking pancakes, Azel.”

But it wasn’t and they both knew it, so he didn’t say anything.

“Sorry,” she said, pressing her fingers to her temple. “I didn’t mean to snap at you.” She shook her head. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me.”

He shrugged. “It’s fine.” 

“No!” she said, her voice rising again. “It’s not.” She sighed and licked her lips. “I don’t want to be mean or cold or distant. I don’t want to scare servers or make scenes in cafés. I feel like I don’t even recognize myself anymore.”

It was strange. Because, yes, Azel knew that the Harri standing in front of him now — certainly the one who’d stood up for him in the café — appeared different than the lonelyhearts woman he’d met in that bar. But, having felt her emotions every step of the way — the longing, the betrayed sense of justice at the way people too often treat each other, the strength and resilience to have lived with that day after day and still keep going — she felt the exact same. She was simply acting on those feelings more. She was choosing to act on them differently. Allowing those secret inner emotions to rise to the surface, showing in her words and actions.

And, for the life of him, Azel would never see that as a bad thing. Trying to find a way to say all that, he sighed and tilted his head thoughtfully. “Maybe you’re not yourself anymore.” She jerked her gaze to look at him questioningly, defensively. “Maybe you’re not who you used to be, behaving and believing exactly as you did before. But who said you’re supposed to be the same person forever? Maybe you’re who you need to be in this moment?” 

She shook her head. “What do you mean? I’m supposed to be mean and cold and scary?”

Azel clutched the bag in his hands, feeling and hearing the paper bag crinkle as he fidgeted so he couldn’t reach out to comfort her like he wanted to. “I think you’re scared right now. You have an ex who won’t leave you alone, yet who also has left you alone, isolated you from and pitted you against your family and friends. Your whole life has been turned upside down. The people you thought you could trust don’t feel trustworthy any longer. The places and activities you thought were safe don’t feel that way anymore.” He scoffed, fisting the bag in frustration at wanting to — needing to — defend her with the same fervor she’d defended him. “You’re not mean, Harri; you’re mad. And you have every right to be.”

Her face went slack for a moment as his words whirred in that buzzing, fascinating, little computer in her brain. “But I don’t want to be.”

He clenched the bag in his hand so hard his talons pierced the thick paper as he fought the urge to smooth her furrowed brow. He didn’t understand why he wanted to make her feel better so much. He really shouldn’t — it wasn’t his place as her… employee, her fake boyfriend, whatever the fuck he was to her — but he needed to. “You don’t have to be. Not forever,” he told her softly. “Right now, everything in you is telling you to be wary, defensive, because, if you can’t tell who or what to trust, you can’t trust anything.” Was that why she’d poisoned him? “But, in time, you’ll learn how to have faith again, both in other people as well as in yourself.”

She smirked a little. “Is it weird to be getting advice about having faith from a demon?”

He chuckled, his stomach clenching over that tiny, light curve of her lips. “Yeah, I’m probably not the most qualified person on the subject.”

“I don’t know.” She shrugged, her expression widening into a genuine smile. “I really needed to hear someone say that; it was pretty perfect to me.” The relaxed, grateful look in her eyes eased a strange tension inside him that he hadn’t even been aware of until it was gone. “Thanks.”

He stared back at her, grinning himself, feeling almost dumbstruck by her words. By her, really. “You’re welcome.” He liked seeing her like this, lighter, freer. Because of something he‘d said. It made him feel… useful, powerful, wise. He blushed a bit at the fluttery thought. “Anytime.”


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CHAPTER SEVEN: BRASS TACKS - PART THREE

Harri had been hiding in the café’s restroom stall for far too long, spending nearly fifteen minutes just watching and listening to the many varied feet shuffle across the scuffed tile. She needed to leave. It wasn’t as if she could stay here all day. As it was, Azel might have already assumed she’d just ditched him and left.

Part of her hoped he had. She didn’t know how she was going to face him. 

God, she was pathetic! So paralyzed by the fear of looking weak or useless that that was precisely what she ended up being.

She practically jumped at a knock on the stall door. “Sorry, are you almost done in there?”

“Yes!” she yelped, leaping to her feet and straightening her clothes. “Sorry; I’ll be right out. Sorry.” Still feeling shaky, she straightened her clothes before walking out of the stall and toward the sink.

“Finally!” the woman sighed before rushing into the vacated stall.

“Sorry,” Harri murmured again, even as the water from the faucet drowned out her voice. She knew she ought to check the mirror. Ought to at least try to make herself more presentable. But she simply couldn’t bear to look herself in the eye. So she snatched a handful of paper towels and headed back into the café.

Only to stop short, when she saw Nate standing in the empty walkway in front of the restrooms. She stiffened, debating if she ought to just head back to her stall.

“Harri!”

Too late. She fisted the crinkled, slightly damp paper in her hands. “What are you doing here, Nate?” Was he freaking stalking her?

Nate frowned, looking hurt at her accusatory tone. “You know I like the coffee here.”

He did. As a caffeine-fiend and a coffee snob, they’d come to this café often, when they were dating. Whatever. “Well, hope you enjoy it.” She tried to move past him, but he stopped her with a hand around her elbow.

“I’m sorry,” he said quickly, “I know you need your space, but I just wanted to make sure you were okay.” He let go of her arm to duck his head down and shuffle his feet awkwardly in front of her. “It looked like you two were fighting.”

Oh, for fuck’s sake! Nate would have to be here for that, would have to witness her being — rightfully — chastised like some recalcitrant grade schooler. She clenched her jaw. “I’m fine. Great! We’re great. Everything’s great.”

Nate looked up at her doubtfully, knowingly. “I’m sure.” He tilted his head, placatingly. “But, if for whatever reason, you weren’t…” He shrugged. “I know we’re not what we were before, but you still mean a lot to me. And I hope you know that I’m always here for you, if you need me.”

She sighed and pressed her thumb against her throbbing temple. “Thank you.” The perfunctory, polite words felt like ash in her mouth. “Now, if you’ll excuse me. I should be getting back.”

“To him.” The quiet, harsh words sent a sharp, apprehensive shiver down her back.

“Yes.” It hadn’t been a question, but she warily answered him anyway.

Her eyes widened as she saw his fists clench, his knuckles flashing white with the force. The sight, aggressive and angry, was so different from the sweet, easygoing man she’d thought she’d known. Something hard and almost hungry flashed in his eyes. “If you ever need me to, I’ll take him on. I’m not scared of a demon like him.”

That was it! She did not need another hotheaded protector on her hands. “No, you definitely. Will. Not.” She shoved a pointed finger in his face. “Do you hear me? I neither want nor need anyone picking fights on my behalf.” What the hell was wrong with everyone?!

“I’m just trying to look out for you, Harri.” He grabbed her hand with both of his, patting her soothingly, looking and sounding more like himself. But it was as if Harri could still sense that other side lurking beneath his easy smile. “You’re too nice for your own good. You need someone to—”

Furious, she snatched back her hand. “I need everyone to stop acting like they know what’s best for me and let me decide for myself.”

Nate frowned, his eyes widening with worry as they looked over her. “Are you okay, Harri? Really?”

Jesus Christ! “I am fine!”

His frown just deepened as he continued on as if she hadn’t spoken. “Because you’ve changed. And not in a good way.” He studied her, his lips pulled into a grim line. “You’ve become… mean, cold, distant;” he said with a sad sigh, “everyone thinks so.”

Harri stopped short. Had she? She thought about her actions over the past few days. The way she’d talked to — the way she’d behaved with — Azel. Maybe something was wrong with her.

“I think it’s because of him.” Nate gritted out that last word like it was poison on his tongue. “You weren’t like this before him. You were never like this with me. He’s changed you. Made you into someone else.”

Then why, when she was around Azel, did she so often feel more honest with herself, even when she didn’t really want to be? Why did it feel like Azel was the one person she could, for better or worse, just be with? Maybe it was because of the contract, or because everything between them was fake, but she didn’t feel like she needed to try so hard to fit with him, to impress or gain approval from him. She didn’t need to be on her best behavior, be the best, most helpful, most polite and fun and sociable and compliant version of herself. She could just be herself

It was nice. Freeing. And she didn’t think she wanted to go back. Wasn’t entirely sure she could. So she leveled Nate with a cold stare. “Maybe you don’t know me as well as you think you do.” Maybe no one did. And, with that, she pushed past him and headed back to the table.

But, just as she entered the café proper again, she froze at the heavy tension gripping the space.

“Ma’am, I need you to lower your voice—”

“My voice!” a highlighted blond haired woman with a severely tight and high bun practically shrieked. “I will not lower my voice. I came here with my daughter to pick up brunch after church, only to find a devil seated not six feet away.”

The poor, frazzled server held out his hands, straining to calm and contain the situation. “Like I said, your order is almost done; how about I get you a cup of coffee while you wait—”

“I don’t want coffee;” her shrill voice rang out, “I want this hellspawn banished back where it came from.”

“Ma’am—”

She slammed her hand on the table, making Azel’s body twitch before the bound wings clenched tighter against his back. Thrusting an accusing finger in his face, she wagged it like a crucifix. “I know what you are. With that face and those…” She waved her hand at the whole of him. “…wings. Tempter demon.” She sneered and spat the words at him. “I won’t let you lead my daughter astray.”

Azel gave the woman an irritated, confused look. “Lady, I don’t even know who your daughter is.”

The woman’s face flushed a deep, furious red. “She is a pure, innocent girl and I know what filth like you—”

That was more than enough! Harri strode to the table and stepped between the woman and Azel, forcing the woman to step back. “What is going on here?”

The woman, suddenly robbed of her big, dramatic moment, looked flustered as she took in Harri. This close, with the woman’s pastel pantsuit and fashionably understated jewelry, she looked like any one of the nice, well-to-do church ladies her mother and aunt liked to brunch with. Right down to the confused, disappointed look she gave Harri, for not behaving like a carbon-copy-to-be version of herself. 

By all rights, she ought to be. Harri had grown up in this woman’s world. Had been raised by people just like her, who’d been raised by people just like them. Looking down at her own white linen, impeccably pressed shirt and perfectly pleated grey woolen slacks, properly paired with a simple strand of pearls, Harri knew there was a high probability the woman owned an almost identical outfit as hers. By all outward appearances, they were the same.

Maybe you don’t know me as well as you think you do.” 

The phrase came back to her, straightening her spine. Shooting the woman her mother’s most censorious stare, Harri crossed her arms over her chest. “Is there a problem here?”

The woman’s lip wobbled, the movement seeking, signaling the need for, sympathy in what certainly appeared to be an ally. “This— this— creature was threatening my daughter.”

Harri raised an eyebrow. “How so?”

The woman clutched the tastefully jeweled gold cross dangling at her throat. “We were just here to pick up our brunch order on our way home from mass and that thing tried to seduce her.”

Harri fought a disbelieving scoff. She knew Azel well enough to know that accusation was bullshit. She narrowed her gaze and repeated, “How so?”

“I pointed out where the restrooms were,” Azel grumbled behind her.

How very seductive. Harri tilted her head to glare condescendingly at the woman, whose flaming cheeks looked ready to combust. “And?”

The woman all but stomped her foot as her arm flew out to gesture at a cowering preteen in a pretty, cozy sweater dress who was trying as hard as possible not to be perceived. “His very presence is a danger to someone at such an impressionable age.”

Harri rolled her eyes as the poor girl shuffled her feet anxiously. “Forgive me, but the only thing your daughter seems in danger of is dying of embarrassment at her mother’s atrocious behavior.”

A collective gasp seized the café, even as it wheezed out in a few stifled giggles. The woman’s already stony, likely botoxed face steeled. “How dare you!”

“How dare you insult my…” Harri’s mind stalled a second as it searched for the right word. Friend? No, that didn’t seem right on a multitude of levels. Fake boyfriend? Accurate, but hardly appropriate. “…date,” she settled on, strictly maintaining her tone in the hopes that it would help mask the slight pause.

“Date?” The woman’s lip curled in distaste. 

Another harried server rushed up to them with a large delivery bag. “Ma’am, I have your order now.”

The woman sneered and recoiled from the bag. “I don’t want that,” she snapped. “It could be contaminated.”

“By what?” the server asked, confused.

The woman motioned wildly at Azel. “Him.” She sniffed, disgusted, at Harri. “And his harlot.”

Harri stiffened, fury now overtaking her annoyance. “Excuse me?”

The first server grabbed the delivery bag and held it out to the woman, like a peace offering. “Why not take your order and—” 

The woman shook her head. “I’m not paying for that.” She crossed her arms over her chest. “I’ve been coming here for years; I’m a very loyal customer but, if I had known that you serve their kind here…” She sniffed indignantly. “I am never coming back again. And,” she added, this time actually stomping her boutique-bought, appropriately low-heeled shoe, “I want my money back.”

The server’s face fell as he continued to hold the bag out, as if in desperate hope it could somehow end this interaction. “Ma’am, it’s already made and, I promise you, we follow every health and safety guide—”

“I am not paying for that,” the woman insisted. “And I’m not leaving without getting my money back. I want to speak to your manager.”

“Ma’am, I am the manager on duty and I—”

“Great!” she snipped, turning all her attention on him, much to his dismay. “Then I want a full refund. After,” she added, with an imperious sweep of her hand, “those two are escorted out.”

“Us?” Harri scoffed. “We haven’t done anything wrong.”

The woman looked down her disapproving nose at Harri. “You are wrong.”

Azel grabbed Harri’s arm as he stood up next to her. “We should just go; we were pretty much finished here anyway.”

That wasn’t the point. Harri gritted her teeth. She was sick and goddamned tired of being pushed around and belittled by people who thought they were better than her. “You said you’ll leave after you get your money back?” Harri scoffed. “Of course that’s all you care about.” Leave it to rich people to think they could nickel-and-dime their way to dignity. “Fine! I’ll pay for it.” She dug in her purse and slapped her credit card down on the table with a loud smack that seemed to echo inside the crowded café. “If it means I — and everyone else in this restaurant whose day you’ve ruined — never have to see you again, it’s well worth the price.” She turned back to the woman and leveled her with a ruthless glare. “Now leave.”

She and the oh-so proper church lady glared at each other, frozen for a long moment before the woman huffed and turned on her heels. She gruffly collected her daughter, who was still sputtering weakly about breakfast and bathrooms, and hurried toward the door. As the woman pushed it open, she shouted over her shoulder at Harri. “Your mother should be ashamed.”

Harri cringed, remembering that Nate was probably still spying on her somewhere in the café. Her mother very likely would be. And Harri was sure she’d hear all about it later. Joy. 

With a resigned sigh, she picked up her credit card, the action feeling silly after her grand, climactic gesture, before turning to the two servers. They jumped, their saucer-like eyes looking at her panicked, as if they thought she was going to yell at them too. She winced. Maybe she and that puffed-up woman in all her Sunday worst were more alike than Harri would like to admit. Swallowing hard, she forced a polite smile and a softer tone. “Let’s head to the counter, so you can ring all this up.”

The two nodded dutifully and meekly headed to the front of the store. As she followed them, she could feel the whole restaurant staring at her in utter and unbearable silence.

You’ve changed. And not in a good way.” Nate’s disapproving words echoed back to her. “You’ve become… mean, cold, distant; everyone thinks so.

What if everyone was right? What if she had been better before? When she’d bitten her tongue and just gone along with what other people wanted? When she’d always done what was expected of her and no one had been mad or worried or scared of her.

“Here you are, ma’am,” the manager murmured demurely, handing her a receipt. “I apologize for all that.”

Harri quickly signed the slip of paper before handing it over. “It wasn’t your fault. Add whatever tip you think is fair on the tab.” 

The manager shook his head as he took the slip. “You don’t have to do that.”

“You deserve it,” she said, knowing it was the very least they were owed. She nodded to the other server as well. “Enough for the both of you.”

“Thank you,” the other server said with a slight yet still nervous smile. “And here,” he said as handed her the delivery bag. “It’s our brunch special; we’re famous for it. And you did pay for it.”

“Thanks,” Azel said, taking the bag from him. “I’m sure we’ll enjoy it.”

Nausea swirled in her stomach at the idea of food at this moment. And though she was sure her mood soured it, she smiled at the servers again. “Thank you.”

They simply nodded. No You’re welcome or Please come again. Not that she blamed them. She let Azel take her by the elbow and lead her out of the café, feeling suddenly drained.


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