Saturday, December 1, 2012

I Serve You, Only You

THE HELP

Reena Lathan shifted on her kneeling pillow and reached for her bottle of oil. She hadn’t been massaging Lyle Martin’s pale feet for very long but his dry skin, the color of library book pages against her cedar-shaded skin, soaked up her oil fast.

“This is the life.” The man in his late fifties sighed as he leaned back. He arched into his wife’s touch while Bethany Martin massaged his shoulders. “Wouldn’t you say?”

Roger Barnes and his partner Tammi Fletcher lounged on the club’s floor next to them. “Well, I’ll just have to see, when it’s my turn.”

“This is so good, I may not give it up!” Lyle laughed before looking down at Reena. “Isn’t that right, mi belleza?”

My beauty.

Reena bowed her head and continued to massage his foot. It was always strange to hear other people speak Spanish to her. Not fluent, she really only spoke it—haltingly but earnestly—with her grandmother and sometimes her mom and aunt. She didn’t even speak it with her dad who, though a white American, was fluent. Because why, when English came easier to both of them? Spanish wasn’t Reena’s language; it was her grandmother’s. Her mother’s.

She shook her head a bit. It felt odd and like too much effort to communicate with someone in it without that familial connection.   So she said nothing.

Reena looked up, when she felt a hand on her shoulder, at Elin Hwa’s stunningly scolding eyes. The gorgeous Korean woman turned her head to look pointedly down at the rag on the floor and the bottle now lying on its side by Lyle’s feet. “Clean up your station, please.”

Reena felt her cheeks flush and her thighs clench tight at the censure in her partner’s—her Dominant’s—voice. She nodded quickly and let go of Lyle’s feet to reach for the errant rag and bottle, righting them by her own side. “I’m so sorry.”

Elin tsked. “There are rules.” She crossed her arms over her chest, the neon dungeon moderator sash that slashed across her blazer looking stern. “And you broke one.” But then Reena saw her smile slightly, just a barely noticeable curl of her lips, before her dark eyes heated. “What am I going to do with you?”

Whatever she wanted.

Reena bowed her head in acknowledged submission.

“Give me your shirt.”

Reena’s head popped up, her eyes wide with shock. Elin knew that it was hard for Reena to be naked in front of other people. That the vulnerability of it made her feel embarrassed.

And fiercely turned her on.

Her belly tightened when Elin extended her hand out expectantly, the gesture filled with grace and authority. Reena took a deep breath and reached for the hem of her shirt.

Elin smiled and nodded, visibly pleased at the sight of Reena in her pretty, violet bra. “Good.” She tucked Reena’s shirt into her sash. “Good.” Elin bent over at the waist to lift Reena’s face, giving the woman on her knees a glimpse of her own cleavage peeking out from between the lapels of her suit coat. She stroked Reena’s cheek sweetly. “For that...”

Reena felt her breath catch as Elin lifted her leg, letting her slim, sleek, stockinged foot slip out of her sensible loafer. Reena swallowed hard and watched the sure, fluid bend of Elin’s knee, the flex and flick of her ankle, and the pointed stretch of her toes as Elin held her foot out for her.   Reena, still uncomfortable with her own foot fetish, peeked up at her Domme, feeling her raw desires laid out bare in front of everyone.   She wanted to look around, to meet the focused gazes she could feel on her back.   But she couldn’t tear her eyes away from the beautifully curved arch in front of her.

“Go ahead.”

Reena closed her eyes, the temptation in her partner’s voice too much to resist. So, knowing what Elin wanted, knowing what she herself wanted, she cupped her heel in her hand, feeling the grounded comfort of it. She pressed her face into the sole and breathed deep, taking in the earthy scent of skin and sweat and Elin. Pursing her lips, she kissed the heart of her high arch.

“That’s enough.”

Reena wanted to argue. How could such a simple touch be enough?   But instead she sat back on her haunches and let Elin pull her foot back.   With a longing sigh, she watched it disappear into its shoe again.

“I’ll come back to check on you.”

Reena bowed her head shyly, only to blush when she heard a low whistle while Elin walked away. She turned back to Lyle and Bethany, who looked at her with knowing looks.   Without Elin, without her confidence and surety, Reena suddenly felt acutely exposed. Her arms instinctively crossed over her bared midriff.

“Didn’t mean to get you in trouble.” Lyle arched an eyebrow at her.

Reena shook her head and reached for her oil bottle again, uncapping it to pour the cool liquid into her palm. “It’s not your fault.”

“Still,” Lyle said, when she began to massage his feet again, “I feel like we ought to do something.” He grabbed his wife’s hand and pulled her out from behind him. “I know! Bethany and Tammi, you should both take off your tops.”

Tammi snorted. “What?”

“Sure,” Roger agreed with a wink. “In sub solidarity.”

Tammi rolled her eyes, but Bethany shrugged. “Sure, why not?”

Reena felt her cheeks burn with embarrassment and her shoulders tense as the woman whipped off her top, baring her full, heavy breasts. She daringly tossed the discarded shirt at her friend, who laughed before stripping off her own top too.

“That’s more like it.” Roger reached around Tammi to play with her rosy nipples while he openly stared at Bethany, who preened, and Reena, who tried to concentrate on Lyle’s feet as much as possible.

“Yes,” agreed Lyle, before he leaned down to face Reena, “but looks like your station is messy again.” He tsked and looked at the crumpled bits of cloth on the floor. He grinned up at Roger again. “She should go clean it up, don’t you think?”

Roger smirked and leaned back, pulling his half-naked partner onto his lap. “Oh, absolutely.” He chuckled low. “There are rules, after all.”

Lyle tucked his foot under Reena’s chin, trailing his oil-slicked toe along the underside of her face. She held her breath as she met his gaze, hard and hot. “Pick up the tops, fold them, and bring them to me.”

Reena turned her head, feeling the slight sting of his nail scrape her skin. She stared at the shirts between her and Roger and Tammi.

She didn’t want to do it. It wasn’t her job.   Was it?   True, it was her job to keep her area clean and clear, so people didn’t trip over her things.   But this wasn’t her mess. It was in her space, but it didn’t feel like hers. They’d taken off their tops. They’d thrown them around, leaving them like rags on the floor.

“Go on.”

But it was still her station. And, on her knees at the feet of this man, this Dom, it felt wrong to ignore or deny him. She felt her naturally submissive nature bend as he shifted a bit in the chair, leaning forward expectantly.

So she stiffened but obediently shifted her body, reaching for the clothes. She shook them out, feeling the women’s body heat and smelling their scent left in the weave.

With swift, efficient moves, she folded the fabric and held it out to Lyle.

There.

Done.

“Good girl.” He licked his lips and set the clothes on the floor. “For that...” he said, wiggling his foot at her.

As if he knew her.

Shocked, Reena’s spine snapped straight and her neck arched away.   She wondered what he thought he knew.   Frowning, she stared at his foot. Thin, papery skin covered bony ridges. Oil matted patches of hair sprinkled straggly over his skin.

Her brow furrowed as she listened to the smirk in his voice. “I saw the way you looked at the DM’s foot—how you touched it.” His foot bobbed in front of her. “You can’t tell me you don’t want to.”

Her jaw clenched. He was right. She couldn’t say it. Try as she might, a self-conscious rein choked the words from her throat. She could never say the scalding thoughts boiling at the back of her mouth; she was too nice—too polite, too shy, too spineless—to do something like that.

She wished she could find a way to give voice to the knot twisting in her belly.

Instead, she bit her lip and backed up a bit. “I think you’re…” She swallowed awkwardly and shook her head. “I mean, your session is done.”

“Are you sure?” Lyle arched an eyebrow at her.

“She doesn’t sound very sure,” Roger added.

Reena turned to him. “If you’d like to be next…” She gestured to the seat his friend was currently in.

Roger smiled leaned back with Tammi tucked indulgently against him. “I can wait.”

“There you go,” Lyle said, his foot still thrust out between them. “He’s waiting.”

She frowned and heard Bethany sigh. “Just do it. He won’t let it go, until you do.”

Tammi snorted. “She ought to know.”

“Just a little kiss, mi belleza.” His knee straightened and his toes flexed, coming closer without him moving from the chair. “Just do it.”

Reena reflexively jerked back so far and so fast she had to catch herself on the floor. Her hand bumped the still open oil bottle, causing it to spill. She jumped, shocked, when fragrant oil pooled around her pillow and the clothes left folded at their feet.

Tammi and Bethany began to yell. For her to save the shirts. For her to clean up her mess.

But she just watched from her knees as Lyle stood up to snatch up the shirts and his leather shoes that now dripped with citrus-smelling liquid. Reena gripped the pillow protectively in front of her as anger flushed his cheeks.

“What’s going on here?”

Reena turned and saw Elin.   Though short and not particularly muscular, the Korean woman knew how to take charge of a situation. She held her brilliant DM sash fisted in one hand and Reena’s shirt in the other before crossing her arms over her chest. Her beautiful eyes were narrowed and her face, usually round and soft, was set in an uncompromising expression.

“Well?”

“She knocked over her damned oil, soaking all our stuff,” Lyle said, his voice quiet but clipped in livid tones. “We were just telling her to clean it up.”

Elin’s eyes flitted over the scene, swiftly assessing the situation.   She met Lyle’s gaze again. “I’m sorry your things were ruined.” She turned her head. “There’s a bathroom that way, if you’d like to see if you can wash it out.” When he opened his mouth to argue, she held up her hand and cut him off. “If it can’t be salvaged, send a bill to Donovan’s and we’ll work something out. But you do not get to yell at or order around anyone here without their consent.”   Elin stepped forward to stand over Reena, so close Reena could feel the heat and strength of her Domme’s legs against her back. “She may be a club volunteer, but she’s not the help. It’s not your place to tell her to do anything.”

“But you did...”

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Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Don't Stop, Even If I Ask You To

THE FRAMEWORK OF FANTASY

“Are you ready?”

Nerves churn in my stomach but my gaze never falters.

“Ready.”

———

I tell you no; you do it anyway.

I shove you; you push back.

I try to scream; you seal my lips with yours, swallowing the sound

I feel your fingers inside me, insistent and unrelenting. Each thrust of your hard hand pounds against my soft sex, echoing through my whole body. The length of your arm presses between us, a long, pistoning force I cannot shake. I feel it—feel you—in every cell of my body, inescapable, unignorable.

I rear my leg back to kick you, my power surging as I bend my knee. But, when I strike, you catch my sole in your palm...

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Monday, November 19, 2012

Anything

Anything 

- An imagining of what happened after 
Disney's The Princess and the Frog ended.

 

The evening star is shining bright,
So make a wish and hold on tight.
There’s magic in the air tonight
And anything can happen.



That was what she’d been promised.

And, without doubt, that was what she got.

It’s just that no one had told her, while Tiana was busy building her fairytale—with her fancy restaurant, her handsome prince, and her dreams and hard work—that anything included a lot of things. Not all of which were what you’d wished for.

So here she was. Rich. Successful. In a dress not even her talented seamstress mother could have dreamed of. Skulking around the cemetery during the witching hour.

Where anything can happen.

Tiana stared at the large, extravagant tombstones towering over and around her, emblazoned with the names of folks who’d had more money than their mortal lives could spend. She reached out a hand to touch their stony attempt to take a bit of those riches with them.

Over to the other side.

She wondered if they’d succeeded.

Tiana knelt down on the ground and closed her eyes, thinking of the last time she’d been here. She remembered seeing Facilier—the Shadowman—dragged off into the night by beings beyond this world. Her heart still raced recalling the horror twisting his face into demonic features as the cost his venality caught up with him. Though the soil was smooth and untouched, she imagined that she could still see—could almost feel beneath her fingertips—the desperate claw of Facilier’s nails as he clung—furiously and futilely— to the hallowed ground while blood from his hands fed the earth.

More than amphibian transformations or true love’s kiss, watching the Shadowman swallowed up by this cemetery and his sins had changed her. Had altered her world. Irrevocably and forever. Even in her most restful, most fortunate moments—where life was more dream than reality—she couldn’t close her eyes, not even for the briefest blink of an eye, without seeing it.

In that moment, she’d sworn to the evening star, to whatever God would hear her, and to her dear Daddy’s soul to never—not ever—fall for such an unholy temptation. With Naveen at her side and her dreams in her heart, there was nothing in this world, or the next, that was worth that price.

Well, just look at her now. The fallen bayou princess looked up from the grave’s giving ground at the headstone in front of her and the frozen fear etched forever in stone on Facilier’s face.

How her world had changed.

Yes, her happily ever after had lasted long enough to see all her dreams—her Daddy’s and her Momma’s dreams—bloom like lilies from a swamp. Like magic from the mess of mortal living. She had married her prince, kissed her way into royalty. Together, they had bought and built her restaurant, turning it into the crown jewel of the Crescent City. And, for a time, it was heaven to wake up to her dreams of a good life in the Big Easy.

But their wedding flowers had hardly wilted before her no account, philandering, lazy, bump on a log husband’s customer hospitality had begun to stray outside the restaurant. Where his every tip came complete with a wink and a phone number. Where, bone-tired, she would come home after a late night at their restaurant to an empty house and an emptier bed.

Which was still better than what she’d walked in on tonight.

It’d been the first Mardi Gras Gala held at her restaurant; she’d been planning and fretting before planning some more for months to make tonight perfect. The kitchen was sparkling. The dining area was the epitome of elegance. The staff were prepped and ready. The menu, which she’d been subtly crafting since childhood, was a sublime feast. An edible love story that began with her father, moved through her, and finished with her very own happy ending with her frog prince. She’d worked tirelessly to make tonight a tribute to everything she was grateful for. To everything they’d found and fostered. To their fairytale.

Only to see—not two hours into the celebration—that same loathsome fear that was etched in stone in front of her carved on Naveen’s face as his gaze lifted to meet hers. While the half-dressed, masqueraded diner beneath him shrieked and squirmed, still trapped in his now less than amorous, petrified embrace.

It’d been that look—that same shame-ridden, fright-filled stare that had haunted her everyday—that had led her back here. To the place where evil almost took her fairytale from her.

Her heart hardened with resolve, though her hand wavered with the last shred of the woman she’d been before she’d stepped foot in this forsaken, sacred space, as she pulled the dead frog from her bag. Cold and slimy in her hand, it lay lifeless yet indignant as she pried its wide mouth open. Reaching again into her fancy, jewel-embroidered bag, she grabbed a tied velvet bag, the violet luxury soft against her skin. She pulled at the gold ties and poured rich soil into the palm of her hand.

Her heart broke as some of the dirt sifted through her fingers. Magic, she knew—better than most—came at a price. Tia thought that she could feel her Daddy’s soul in the earth of his grave. The unshakable love he’d had for her and her Momma. The love Tiana had thought she would know someday.

She knew better now the strength of unshakable.

Swallowing the price of her spell, she cupped her hand and let the dirt spill into the dead frog’s mouth like sand, filling the frog’s hollow belly. Her hand steadier now, she pulled out the last bit of her curse.

A wedding band, discarded on and stolen from the edge of her office desk. A forgotten treasure left for trash. To it was tied a lock of her husband’s hair.

They’d been happier as frogs. It was how they’d met. How they’d fallen in love. They’d once given up everything to stay that way. So long as they could stay together. Things would be better that way. She could give up being human to have her prince again. It was a price she was willing—was happy—to pay.

She clutched that ring in her hand and sighed.

She was almost there.

Tiana felt an inky chill shiver down her spine as a shadow crossed her back.

Are you ready, my friend? it asked her. Is this what your little heart desires?

She squeezed the frog in her hand.

Yes.

Ignoring the shadows that shifted from dark and unseen dens, swirling about her in eager unease, she slid the ring past the frog’s lips, set stiff with rigor, before bringing the frog up for a kiss.

At the press of lips, she felt it croak in her hands, an abrupt hiccup that jerked its dead frame to life. She lowered her hands and looked at the slippery creature in her hand. And, even through its panic, she saw her prince peering out behind those blinking eyes.

She choked on his name as she held him close to her chest, feeling her own change begin to build like a rapid beat in her heart.

Are you ready?

Yes.

Are you ready?

With all her heart.

Are you ready?

She was changing. Changing inside. Could feel it in her veins and bones.

I hope you’re satisfied.

A searing prick stabbed, making her chest heave as she lost her breath. Tiana’s eyes snapped open as she watched a small, smiling voodoo doll pull its pin like a saber out Naveen’s small, heaving back. Drawing a drop of her heart’s blood through his with savage glee.

With a vicious laugh through its sewn lips, the tiny doll jumped from Naveen’s back to disappear into the dark while its pin continued to hover in the night. Bile rose in Tiana’s throat as the pin’s green head pulsed and glowed. And grew. The small round head swelled into a macabre mock of a grinning face. She gasped as the pin’s needle bent and stretched, surging toward her before wrapping around her neck, securing the talisman—like a brand or a collar or a fist—around her throat.

Tiana felt it burn against the hollow of her throat, in the beat of her prince’s heart that echoed vaguely in the once-more stiff form in her hands.

She shut her eyes as her face fell, her hand lifting to touch the charged pendant hanging from her neck.

She had indeed sold her humanity trying to get back her soul, but the shadows on the other side had learned from their last deal. They couldn’t trust something so weak as a man to hold up his end of a bargain.

Feeling her lover’s life tick within the charm, Tiana understood the full cost of her curse. She would have to pay her profane pipers first, before she ever got her prize.

Bleak despair lowered her to the grave’s bed as she wondered how many souls made up the worth of a soul mate.

And whether the price was still worth paying.

She felt the wisp of a spectral hand brush her shoulder. She looked up at the shadow—a tall, thin figure that seemed to smile facelessly—as he handed her the Shadowman’s old hat. The dark ghost held out a familiar hand to lift her from the ground. C’mon, Tiana. The voice mixed with menace and hope. You’re almost there. 

 

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Play a Trick, Get a Treat

ALTER EGO

Hayato didn’t get Halloween. Having grown up in a very conservative, very traditional Japanese neighborhood, he hadn’t really celebrated it as a child. Had usually spent October thirty-firsts studying, not trick-or-treating.

“It’s fun,” his roommate, Peter, insisted, futzing with the whip on his hip as they pushed their way through the overstuffed, past-capacity sorority house party.

Hayato eyed his friend who was gotten up as Indiana Jones. “Aren’t we a little old to be dressing up in costumes?”

As it was, the best Hayato could come up with — would put up with — was a large, floppy wizard hat Peter had made him buy at the local secondhand store.

“It’s not about us wearing costumes,” Peter insisted as they shouldered their way into the living room, pushing past a chainsaw killer and a unicorn. “It’s about the costumes everyone else wears.”

What did that even mean?

“Excuse us,” two girls dressed up in black lace lingerie and witches’ hats said, sidestepping them. Hayato hissed as the crowd pressed one of the witches flush up against him, her small, firm breasts thrust up into his chest.

Ah. Okay. He understood that.

He re-adjusted the hat’s wide brim as he watched the two giggling girls disappear into the throng. “So this is just an excuse for girls to wear socially unacceptable clothing in the guise of costumes?” Hayato asked, looking around the room spotting a sexy nurse, a sexy paratrooper, a sexy umpire, and even a sexy headless corpse. All more scraps of lace and lycra than actual clothes. All more skin and body paint than cloth.

“Get in the spirit,” Peter urged, smacking him in the shoulder, sending his now righted hat askew again.

Peter sighed and gripped Hayato’s shoulders. “Just,” he said, shaking him a bit, “have fun.”

Peter was a personable guy. A computer science major, he supplemented his own scholarships and grants by fixing and upgrading other students’ computers and gadgets, often on the cheap and with a blind eye to niggling legalities. While no quarterback or valedictorian, he was well-known and well-liked among the student body. Hence his invitation to this hedonistic bash.

Hayato had grown to respect and admire — even envy — him that. Not much for going out, it was harder for Hayato to network and mingle alone in his room with a book. It was a skill he’d never really mastered. He tended to shy away from people, which tended to make people shy away from him. It was an invisibility that was far more convincing than the sexy ghost flashing thigh as she tipsily collapsed on Peter’s lap.

“Do you remember me?” the girl asked Peter, wrapping her arms around his neck as she stared into his eyes.

Peter looked her up and down. “Sure do,” he assured. “You wanted to lift a copy of a design program your friend had on her computer. Couldn’t do it, but I did find you a comparable program for free.”

“Do you remember my name?” she asked, eyeing him suspiciously.

Peter gave her a sheepish yet charming grin. “You could remind me.”

“Or,” she said with a mischievous smile, “we could go upstairs where you’ll get three tries to guess my name.”

“What do I get if I guess correctly?” Peter asked with a game grin.

“Me,” she answered matter-of-factly.

“And if I don’t?” Peter asked, obviously intrigued.

She leaned in, wriggling on his lap, as she whispered in his ear.

Hayato’s friend’s eyes widened. “Well, that’s not really much incentive to get it right,” he murmured hotly as his grip on the girl tightened.

The ghost simply tipped her head knowingly.

“Uh,” Peter said as he turned to Hayato. “You gonna be okay here?”

Hayato just smiled ruefully. “Go.” It wasn’t as if he couldn’t handle a party by himself.

And, even if he couldn’t, it wasn’t as if he couldn’t make his way back to the dorms on his own.

He watched as Peter left, trailing behind the wisps of greyish white strips barely covering the girl.

For a long moment, Hayato just sat on the couch, listening to the many conversations going on around him. Sometimes, he would meet the gaze of someone at the party — maybe even try to join in on a group — but, after a few awkward attempts, he got up.

He pushed his way through the crowd of people, thinking it odd and illogical that he should feel more alone in the thick of the loud, boisterous crowd than he ever did in the quiet of his room.

He made his way to the food table, picking at odds and ends he found there. A handful of grapes. A couple of crackers. A bite of cheese. Nibbling at a frosted pumpkin-shaped cookie, he stared at the many bottles and jugs sitting at the far end of the table.

He watched as people poured drinks. Rum and Cokes — one-third rum, two-thirds Coke. A lemon drop — one-half vodka, one-half lemon juice, sugar, and stir. He listened as partygoers mixed drinks with crazy names like “Salty Dog” — five parts grapefruit juice, one part gin, add salt and pour over ice — and “Four Horsemen” — one part tequila, one part Jäger, one part peppermint liqueur, and one part rum.

It seemed easy enough. Hayato got out two glasses. In one, he poured small sips of random drinks to taste before discarding the bottles or pouring measured amounts into the second glass. Working his way around the table, he sipped and mixed his way into what he thought was the perfect drink. He took a sip of the concoction and smiled. It was delicious even as it spread a satisfying, glowing warmth through him.

“What is that?” a beautiful magician in coattails and a towering top hat asked him as she eyed his glass curiously.

Hayato shrugged. “A Lazarus Pit,” he told the done-up Zatanna, his mind flicking back to the Batman comics he kept in his basement. Wrong character, he knew, but it was the best he could think of, at the moment.

The superhero magician smiled, dimples forming in her stunning, show-ready face. “Can I try it?” she asked, gesturing for the glass. As if the words were some kind of spell, he relinquished it to her, marveled and a little anxious as she put the plastic cup to her pursed, pink mouth. Licking her lips, she moaned. “That’s amazing.” Tapping a fairy on her glittered shoulder, the illusionist said, “You have to try this.”

Passing the glass, Hayato watched with amazement as more girls sipped this drink like an odd, profane communion. He swallowed, a bit panicked, as a chorus of “Make me one” rung out.

“Uh, sure,” he said, uneasily, as he grabbed a stack full of glasses.

For the fairy, he made a “Stardust” — two parts citrus soda, one part peach Schnapps and a splash of sour apple liqueur. A sexy caveman couple got “Stone Throws” with hard cider and beer. He made a “Speakeasy” — three parts Guinness, one part whiskey, with a guzzle of coffee liqueur — for a flapper girl who’d written her phone number — 896-7853 — on the back of his hand.

People kept coming, acting as if he knew what he was doing. So he kept doling out drinks, pretending that he did. It got easier as he went along; remembering the taste and mix of drinks. Vodka’s sharp bite. The smooth burn of rum. The bold richness of Jägermeister. He learned that citrus could bring out the crisp taste of the lighter beers. And, while the darker stouts reminded him of the bitter taste of coffee, he didn’t much care for them once they went warm.

By the time the crowd cleared, Hayato had all but exhausted the combinations of drinks. Feeling flush with accomplishment and the alcohol’s warm, soothing effect, he mixed himself a little something. See, he thought as he took another deep and satisfied sip, this socializing thing wasn’t all that hard. He didn’t need Peter to have a good time. He’d done just fine on his own.

Hayato turned, when he felt a tap on his shoulder, just in time to avoid the crowd of conga-ing costumers gyrating to some oddly mixed song that sounded strangely like French reggae. Stumbling a bit as a few of the line’s more enthusiastic — if not most coordinated — members bumped into him, Hayato felt a pair of hands cup his, steadying him and his now sloshing glass.

“Careful.”

He secured his grip on his glass as he looked up to see the costumed Zatanna in front of him, her blue eyes smiling — maybe even laughing — at him. The curve of her darkly painted lips seemed somewhere between a smirk and an invitation. Hayato pondered which it could be even as his gaze slipped south, idly tracing the deep vee of her pearl white vest that — while not exactly canon-accurate — lay tantalizingly tight over black lace-covered breasts.

“Mix me a potion?” she asked, calling his gaze back up to her grinning face.

“Sorry,” he mumbled over the loud, culturally eclectic music, blushing at how he’d been caught ogling, as he set his glass aside and wiped his wet hand against his jeans. Maybe that was enough intoxication tonight.

She just continued smiling, seeming oddly and mysteriously omniscient. “Make me a drink?”

“Uh, sure,” he said, flustered by that gaze. Not knowing what else to do, he turned to start mixing again. His neck prickled as he felt her watch him, her gaze assessing while he grabbed and combined this and that. At first, he thought that she was judging the drink but, the more he mixed, he didn’t think so.

She was watching him. Not his hands, as the others had, trying to figure out formulas and recipes. She was watching him. The whole of him. And waiting. For something. Something Hayato couldn’t even begin to guess at.

It was as if she knew him. As if, with so much familiarity from her, he really ought to know her.

But he didn’t think he did.

He was sure he would remember a girl like her. With clever, blue eyes that shone sharply with thoughts he could see but not decipher. Like him, she had a very angular face, sculpted in shapes that should have seemed wrong but somehow, together, were stunning and foreign. Riding that line between gaunt and gorgeous, the sharp planes of her nose and cheeks, her brow and chin, were as alien as they were alluring.

Long, dark curls framed her face and flowed down her back and over her shoulders, caressing her body as she leaned against the counter.

Though he tried — so very hard — not to, his eyes kept drifting to her breasts that were now propped up on her forearms as she rested against the back of a chair. He wondered if she’d done that on purpose. If her arms, that encased and displayed, were a deliberate attempt to draw his gaze down. Judging by her knowing grin, he thought yes.

“Hayato,” she said, tilting her head as he handed her the drink concoction — some grab-bag of booze that he couldn’t have recreated to save his life, “right?”

He looked up a little sheepishly.

So she did know him.

He nodded, unsure if it was ruder to ask for her name now or pretend like he knew it. Not much for names, he didn’t normally pay much attention, if he could help it. He always figured that sort of thing tended to work itself out in the normal run of things, linking memory and importance in a completely organic way.

And, looking her over again — Hayato was almost sure — if he’d once known this girl’s name, he would have made a point of remembering it.

“Halloween is the best time of year, isn’t it?” the magician continued, leaning a bit more forward on the chair to reveal the deep vee of her cleavage.

Those pale, round breasts were beautiful, rising — just a bit — with every breath as they pushed against the tight fabric of her vest. He knew it was rude to stare but, try as he might, he couldn’t look at her without staring. “Sure,” he said on a deep swallow as he forced his gaze to focus on hers.

“There’s magic in the air this time of year,” she said breezily, even while studying him as if she could read his every thought, as if she could witch out exactly where his mind had drifted. “One night a year, we all get a chance to be someone else. To be something else.”

Hayato thought about that. About the magic in not being yourself.

Except he liked himself.

He was honors pre-law at the college of his choice. He’d been on the Dean’s List every semester. He was a National Merit Scholarship Winner, a National Collegiate Scholar, and the youngest member of an elite study group for law students.

He was on track. He’d been preparing for this, working his ass off, for as long as he could remember. Why would he want to give that up, even if just for one night?

“With a little makeup and a wig,” she mused, “you can step out of your life and into one of your own imagining. With just a wardrobe change, it’s like being given license to do all the things you normally wouldn’t. It’s like identity alchemy.”

Hayato nodded and shrugged, not really sure what to say. To be honest, Hayato hadn’t had all that much experience with girls outside a classroom. Mostly fumbled fits made in library reading nooks or someone’s dorm room bunk bed. And, while he’d certainly enjoyed himself and — God, he hoped — they’d enjoyed themselves, he wasn’t altogether certain he’d even know what to do with a girl like the magician, who was almost too pretty to look at, much less touch.

“You just can’t beat that,” she sighed almost wistfully.

Not that he was planning to touch her or anything. Hoping, sure. Fantasizing, oh yeah. But she’d only asked him to make her a drink. She was a sorority sorceress and he was an undergrad in a secondhand hat; he couldn’t even imagine what she would want with him beyond a little bartending.

He watched as she tipped the red solo cup back, draining the “Love Potion #9” in one long drink. Even over the party’s strange soundtrack of German punk rock, he heard the definitive crunch of the cup’s plastic as she all but slammed it back on the table. “I want to show you something,” she told him, her face a bit tight but determined. “Upstairs.”

He blinked. Upstairs? “What?” he asked blankly, sure he’d heard her wrong.

“Magic,” she told him, answering a question he hadn’t actually asked but was pretty sure he liked the answer to. “I want to show you some magic.”

Hayato had to blink for a moment, his brain adjusting to hearing the vaguely porno phrase outside the fantasy. It was weird. Even in the real world, the words sounded like fantasy. Scripted and a little stilted, she’d said them as if she didn’t really mean them.

He wondered what that meant.

Then she held out her hand to him, the gesture so much more convincing than the words.

His gaze swept over the long lengths of her legs, lifted and shaped by the tall heels on her feet, and up the swell of her slim hips. He swallowed hard at the way the tight vest clung to her waist, soft and sweetly curved, before framing — hugging — those breasts.

Meeting her pretty, blue eyes, he saw the briefest flicker in her gaze — a quick break in character. He reached out, that look making him take her hand. There was something so familiar in that look. An uncertainty that he knew well and wished she didn’t.

He watched that crack in her confidence close as her small hand gripped his, tugging him through the party crowd and up the stairs, and wondered why that would make him feel so much better.

Hayato swallowed hard as the scent of booze, sweat, and over-stimulation struck him. Seeking that surety again, he held tight to her hand and focused on the magician as she snaked her way through the space, sometimes seeming little more than an arm almost swallowed by the mob and a bouncing top hat.

They wove through congested hallways, squeezing tight to couples who’d congregated in and out and around the bedrooms. Some of the doors were wide open, revealing rooms overflowing with too many conversations and even more people. Some doors were shut, quiet dens — pockets of conspicuous silence — or muffled murmurs — music or moans — hidden behind the wood and walls.

They stopped in front of a door, shut and silent. Hayato held his breath as she turned the knob. Letting his hand go, she stepped into the room, flicking on the light. She turned, a dramatic, almost dance-like pivot, with her hands spread in ta-da as she took off her hat in one smooth motion. Standing just inside its entrance, she looked at him, left lingering in the hallway. “Come in.” It was almost a command with just a trace of question touching the performance.

He stepped into the room, the door shutting behind him. He gave a small laugh and shuffled a bit on her carpet as she reached into her hat. “Don’t tell me there’s a rabbit in there,” he said.

She pulled out a box of cards and waved them at him. “Much as I love a classic hat trick, pretty sure a bunny violates house rules,” she said as she sat down on one of the room’s beds.

“So you actually do magic?” he asked, a little impressed. He’d figured it was just a costume and a line.

“Of course,” she said, an obvious look on her face, as she gestured for him to join her on the crimson comforter covering her bed. “I told you, I’m a fan of magic.”

Hayato looked around what he assumed was her half of the room as he sat down. C.S. Lewis sat spine-bent and well-read next to Tolkien on her bedside. Tamora Pierce and Mercedes Lackey sat stacked on her shelves. Kelley Armstrong kept Kim Harrison company as their corners peeked out from under her bed. And strewn and stuck alongside all those were biographies of Houdini and David Copperfield and how-to books on classic illusions and close-up magic. They were everywhere, tucked away like treasures among her textbooks.

“So what are you going to do?” he asked, nodding to her as she shuffled the deck. “Do I pick a card, any card?”

“Mmm,” she said as she dealt out eight cards, four in front of him and four in front of her, “sort of.” With a flick of her hands, she shuffled the rest of the cards. “We’re going to play a game.”

A game? “Okay,” he said, even parts wary and intrigued. “What kind of game?”

She flipped the top card in the deck and flashed the eight of hearts. “Basic high card, low card,” she said. “Beat my card,” she said, flipping the next to reveal the jack of spades, “and I’ll take something off.”

He swallowed hard as his gaze shifted south. He liked those rules. “And if I don’t?” he asked.

“Then you do,” she answered simply.

That was a magic trick?

Looking at her, sitting cross-legged across from him, her soft thighs parted and her posture welcoming.

Yeah, maybe it was a kind of magic.

“Sure,” he agreed, shifting to mirror her position on the bed.

Together, they flipped over the cards — his outside left, her inside right. He smiled when his ten of diamonds beat her three of clubs. “So,” he said with a nonchalant cough, “do I get to say which article of clothing you take off?”

She pursed her pink, gloss-coated lips and tilted her head. “I’m willing to take suggestions,” she decided as she tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear. “So long as you take mine.”

Hayato shrugged, figuring that was pretty win-win.

Jutting his chin a bit, he looked her over. There was a strategy to this, he was sure. Did he go for the easy start, like her shoes or the bow tie, or did he dive right in? It felt creepy going right for a big ticket piece, like her vest or panties, first, but it also felt like lying to pretend like that wasn’t, in fact, exactly what he wanted.

Besides, if he asked for something so exposing, what would she ask for in return? He shifted a bit. He wasn’t really all that comfortable naked. Didn’t really understand how anyone could be so casual about being so vulnerable and exposed like that.

And, sure, it wasn’t like he hadn’t guessed — and, God, sincerely hoped — that that was where they were headed.

It was just that…he could wait for a bit. Ease into it, really.

“Shoes,” he said hesitantly, almost as a question.

She nodded sagely, looking too much like a mind reader for his comfort. “Shoes, it is.”

Reaching beneath her bent thighs, she gripped the black pumps’ tall, thin stiletto heels in her hands and pulled the sleek shoes off. Bending low, she folded over herself so she could tuck them safely under her bed with her books. It really shouldn’t have, but watching her twist her legs around so she could rub the now bared soles of her feet in her hands, moaning softly as her fingers and palm pressed into her flesh, made his breath hitch.

Which was weird.

It was just her feet.

Just shoes.

Not anything particularly sexy to him.

But there was something about the fact that she’d taken them off — bared herself — for him. Because of him. Because he’d asked her to.

“Go again?” she asked, her hand now traveling up her calf to rest on her knee.

He nodded as he reached for another card. He flipped over his inner left card — a seven of hearts — as she flipped over her outer right — an eight of diamonds.

Hayato swallowed hard as he looked at the cards. Moment of truth, he supposed. “All right,” he said, wondering if she’d play fair.

She bit her lip, tilting her head this way and that. “Shoes too, I suppose,” she said as he let out a relieved breath.

Hayato toed off his sneakers. Flexing his feet, the boy born and raised in a strictly Asian home actually felt much more comfortable without his shoes on her bed. His shoulders — that he hadn’t even known were so tense — relaxed as he rolled his neck a bit. “Keep going?” he asked.

She smiled. “Yeah,” she said as she flipped her outer left to show a queen of diamonds that beat his next card, the five of spades.

Her grin spread and her blue eyes glittered. He really ought to have seen it coming — and a part of him perhaps had. “I should be nice,” she told him, lifting her shoulder casually, “and ask for your socks or even your shirt.” She gave him a pointed look that made his body stiffen, anxiously but not unpleasantly. “But I’m not going to be,” she said plainly. She held out her hands. “Pants, please.”

Hayato choked. His pants? They’d gone from shoes to pants? He could feel his face pale as his mouth slacked and his eyes bugged. His eyes flicked around the room and, while he knew it to be completely empty, he still felt put on the spot. Put on display. It was too well-lit in the small sorority house room. He could still hear strains of the party happening below and around them, thumping music that was more pounding beats than songs and discordant conversations layered on top of each other in a rumpus of sound that echoed in his ears.

“We can stop, if you want,” he distantly heard her voice say across from him. “Go back to the party.”

And, though it was completely illogical, a part of him was sure, as he listened to and imagined the goings-on below him, that the costumed revelers below were doing the same with him. Knew every play of their game. Eaves-dropping, hushed and hovering, as the magician stripped off her heels. Had snickered at him as he, so eager and sure of himself, shucked his own shoes.

“Hayato?”

He imagined those eyes and ears tuning in as his shaky hands fumbled for the button of his jeans. The sound of his own zipper sliding down ripped metallic and loud through his head. Reaching for the now loose waistband, he turned away from her — feeling too watched already without watching her watch him — and caught the robed image of Gandalf glossy on the cover of one of her books. It was so strange that the cheap polyester hat should feel so much heavier on his head as he looked at his costumed copy.

What would the great wizard do?

The thought was as ridiculous as it was unavoidable. Made Hayato smile a bit, really. What would Gandalf do, if he ever found himself in this situation?

Gandalf was brave and powerful. Hayato would’ve bet that he would never have backed down. Wouldn’t cower — or would at least stalwartly hide his hemming and hawing in some never outwardly seen inner monologue. He was the leader and mentor of the Fellowship of the Ring! Staff at the ready, he could do anything.

Which sounded dirty, under these conditions.

But, at any rate, Hayato took a deep breath and turned back to his patient prestidigitator. Straightening the hat’s wide brim, he steadied himself and stood before shedding his jeans down with a quick shove.

For a moment, he felt silly. Stupid, really. Standing at the side of this beautiful girl’s bed with his pants around his ankles and his skinny, chicken legs sticking out. He felt like an idiot. A half-naked idiot. He shut his eyes and waited for her to just start laughing at him.

“So,” she asked, “you want to keep going?”

He blinked and stared at her. Her blue eyes were looking up at him expectantly. Maybe even a little excitedly. She was having fun.

And why wouldn’t she?

This was her game, after all. She’d picked him. Brought him up here. Laid out her rules. She must have known what she was getting into. Must have chosen him for a reason.

“Why me?” he asked. He hadn’t meant to but now he couldn’t stop thinking it. He had to know. Out of all the guys who’d come to this party — all the frat guys and athletes and everyone — why had she settled on him?

She shrugged. “You like magic and Batman,” she said simply.

Was that all it took? Really?

Well, why not? While very alluring, his Zatanna wasn’t really more attractive than the tens of sexy ghosts and witches and cats running around the party. Looking at her now, with her angular face and softer, fuller form, she was actually less conventionally attractive than the tall, slim flapper who’d written her number on his hand.

So why had he gone with her?

Magic.

He’d gone with her because she’d promised him magic. She’d looked past the hat, straight through to his nerd heart, and spoke to that sci-fi/ fantasy fan who longed for something supernatural — something special. Who, from the time he’d read his first Spiderman comic, had been promised that there was something special in him.

And, skinny legs and a hermit personality or not, she’d seen that promise in him.

So, yeah, why not?

Hayato sat back down. Together, they flipped over their last cards. And his king of spades beat her nine of hearts.

“My turn,” she said, a knowing look on her face. “What’ll it be?”

He looked at her, his Zatanna. Suddenly, he didn’t want her to take off her clothes. Didn’t want her to strip herself of her costume. Of her magic.

He could go for something simple, like her bow tie. But it was such a defining part of her costume; he couldn’t take it from her. He couldn’t go for her vest or bra or panties without making her strip off other pieces first. So, though a part of him hated to lose it, he said, “Coat.”

He watched her sit up a bit, tossing the fluttering coattails before rising to her knees. She grabbed the lapels and slipped it from her shoulders and down her arms, letting it fall like a curtain around her. Ever the performer, his Zatanna knew how to put on a show as she sat — almost preening — in front of him, her white vest brilliant against her pale skin.

She leaned forward with her hands planted between her parted thighs as she lowered herself down onto the duvet, her arms again framing her breasts and aiming his gaze down.

With his gaze still lingering on that hidden space beyond her balled fists, he asked, “So what now?” They were all out of cards.

She crawled forward, those hands moving her forward and her breasts swinging full and weighty as she prowled over the downy plane. She smiled a cunning grin as she flipped his cards face-down again. “Now we go again,” she said.

“But we already know the cards,” he said. Without the element of surprise, didn’t that take all the fun out of the game?

“And you remember them?” she asked, skeptical as she turned her own cards.

He nodded. Sure. It was four cards. Eight, including hers. Even after a few drinks, of course, he could still remember eight cards.

She smirked. “Then this should be an easy win for you, shouldn’t it?” she concluded as she sat back on her haunches.

Good point. So he sat back and mentally went through all the cards. He knew his cards, definitely, and did know which cards she had and was almost certain he knew their order.

“Ready?” she asked him, reaching for her inner left card — a nine of hearts.

He felt a little bad — wondering if she knew that it was the last card she’d played and the easiest for him to remember — but not quite guilty enough not to play his ten of diamonds.

“Easy win, indeed,” she murmured as she sat back, looking at him — and not the cards — almost daringly. She fingered the lapel of her vest and gave him a questioning look.

It was the logical choice, so he nodded as she thumbed the buttons open, each springing open to reveal more and more. Hayato felt his mouth water as the bright white material parted.

Underneath, she had on a black lace teddy that hugged and adored every curve. He’d thought that she was wearing a bra and panty set under her costume, but this was better. The thin, almost airy layer of lace both hid and displayed her, playing a teasing game with his head.

The cups dipped in a low vee that barely contained her breasts, letting them spill, full and cream-colored, out a bit now that they were free from the constraints of the pearl white cloth. A sheer lace belt wrapped the dip of her waist, offering peeks of pale skin and accentuating the lush sway of that line. His gaze drank in the swell of her hips and belly, soft and sweet, following it down to where the lace fluttered playfully over her thighs.

The white, now discarded fabric puddled on top of her coat as she reached for her lowest card — a three of clubs. Another easy win. With confidence, he flipped over his five of spades, a low card, but high enough. Hayato liked games and all, but he was done playing around.

“The teddy,” he said, without hesitation. As much as he liked it, he wanted to see her.

She took a deep breath, hesitation flickering a bit in her eyes. She shut her eyes and nodded, her shoulders squaring. “As you wish.”

He watched her peel the lace straps down her shoulders, the cups dipping with her movement. He held his breath as the soft, black material fell below her breasts — so lush and sweet — leaving her pretty pale pink nipples bare to his gaze. His hands fisted in her comforter as he held himself back from touching her, tasting her.

She tugged the teddy over the sweep of her hips, wiggling a bit as she freed it from her legs. God, he could smell her, hot and aroused. A rich warmth that filled his senses, at once comforting and exciting. And the sight of her, bare and so smooth — he had to hold himself back from touching her.

“Let’s go again,” he said, his hand already turning over his seven of hearts, anticipating her eight of diamonds. The room was too hot and, despite his usual modesty, he welcomed the loss of his shirt.

She laughed as she turned over her card. “Last one,” she said as she moved on to her next card, turning it over to reveal the queen of diamonds.

Yes, it was. He didn’t even look at the card, knowing it to be the king of spades. “Bow tie,” he said, more than ready for her to be completely naked.

“Ah-ah,” she tutted, pointing down. “Not so fast.”

He looked down. He shook his head then looked down again.

A two of spades.

What?

That wasn’t his card. He hadn’t had a two of spades. He looked down at his cards again. A ten, a seven, a five, and a two. No. He’d had a king. He knew he had. “You cheated,” he blurted out.

“Not cheating,” she said as she picked up her queen. She twirled it between her fingers with a quick flick, transforming it into a joker. “Magic.”

He pouted. He knew it was just a strip card game, but rules were rules and he should have won.

“Tell you what,” she said, reaching for her bow tie, “I’ll take it off if you do something for me.”

“What?” he asked, narrowing his eyes at her.

“If you,” she said, pulling one of the ends and unraveling it into her hands, “put it on.”

Really? “Sure,” he said with a shrug. “Okay.” Why not?

He took the tie from her and began wrapping it around his neck.

“No,” she said, stopping him, “not like that.”

He cocked an eyebrow at her questioningly. What did she mean, not like that? “How do you want me to do it?” he asked, trying not to sound snide. Or feel ridiculous in just socks, briefs, an untied bow tie, and a crooked hat, like some Middle-earth Chippendale dancer.

Crawling over the cards on the comforter, she pulled the tie from his loose grasp with a devious smile. She grabbed one of his wrists and wrapped one end of the cloth around it before twining it around the other. She then wrapped it around both. Tight. Before tying his hands together in front of him. “Yes,” she said, sitting back to review her handiwork, “something like that.”

Uh. He looked down at his bound hands, trying to decide if he was okay with this. On one hand, he wasn’t not okay with this. He pulled at the tie a little bit and was relatively certain that, with how short the cloth was, he could pull it apart with one strong tug. He wasn’t exactly trapped. Didn’t feel threatened or uncomfortable with it.

Beyond — well — he’d never done anything like this before. Wasn’t entirely sure he knew what to do or how to do.

At least, he didn’t have to worry about what to do with his hands. He ruefully lifted them up to inspect the knot.

“Now,” she said as she sidled closer, dragging the corner of a card down his chest, “we’re ready for our next trick.”

“Which is?” he asked, his body stiffening as the card’s cardboard edge cut along the taut, sensitive skin of his stomach.

“My favorite,” she said with a dramatic tone, “show-stopping trick.” She tapped the card over his hard-on, making him jump a bit. She flipped the card in her hand to reveal the queen of clubs.

“This trick,” she said waving the card in front of him, “is called The Queen’s Club, which is based on an old tale of an ancient princess.” She took the card and slid it up his right thigh and down the other, leaving a strange, shivery wake in the card’s path. “This princess lived in a very rich land with her dying father, who was determined to see her happily wed before he passed.” Reaching for each knee, she lay his legs flat in front of him on the mattress. “But the princess was stubborn, a little spoiled, and, most of all,” she said, kicking one leg over his, so she straddled his thighs, “very, very smart.”

Hayato’s mouth went dry and slack as she settled over him, her naked pussy hovering hot and tempting, so close to his own bare flesh.

“So,” she continued, completely ignoring his intense stare, “liking her life just as it was, without a husband or lord to tell her what to do, she told her father that she would lock herself and her servants in her rooms, which for her had everything she could ever need, and any man who could find something she wanted that her rooms could not supply would earn the key and her heart.”

Hayato fought the urge to squirm — to shift his hips up to touch his to hers. “Did anyone ever succeed?” he asked, concentrating on her words rather than her sweet scent, like warmth and woman and want.

“Well,” she said, tipping his chin up with the card, “let’s see.” She took hold of his hands and brought them down between their thighs. “It’s said that, if you can please the queen well enough,” she said, holding up the card in her hand, “the key will be revealed.”

God, the soft, satiny slide of her slick sex against his hands as she settled on top of him was intoxicating. He watched her eyelids flutter a bit as she slid his fingers inside her pussy and purred, “So show me something, Magic Man.”

Then she bit the card, holding it tight in her teeth, as her hips swiveled a bit to adjust to his hands.

Please the queen, huh?

Hayato cocked his head a bit. That — yeah, that — he could do. So he did. Leaning forward, he bent low to capture one taut, pink nipple in his mouth, his lips closing wetly around the hard flesh. He suckled her, licking and nipping and enjoying the lush texture of her against his tongue, as his fingers explored her.

He noticed, as he slid his slick thumb up to stroke her clit in circles, that his magician liked a rougher touch, her moans growing into deep, desirous growls as his fingers pistoned within her. He triumphed at the throaty sounds that tore out from behind tensed teeth and the silken arousal that flowed from her and onto his fingers as her body pushed her hips down onto his hands only to lift her breasts up to meet his mouth.

From under the awkwardly hanging brim, Hayato could see, could feel, her body thrust up and down — and up and down — over him, his mind memorizing her movements and imagining them within a myriad of other contexts. The sight, the sound, the scent of her arousal woke something within him, some sleeping beast inside that craved more of it. All of it. He wanted this moment to continue on. Forever, maybe. It would never be enough. There wasn’t enough pleasure in the world to sate the hunger now building within him. It was a hunger that, once fed, only grew.

“Come on,” he murmured, feeling magic in those words, as he urged her on, seeing the tension in her body and the pleasure on her face build. “Come on.”

He could feel her reach for — would have sworn she could practically see it in her sightless, trance-like, lust-hazed gaze — her climax’s peak. His teeth sucked on her nipple deep in his mouth as he pushed his fingers as hard and deep inside her as he could. Her body pulled taut as a cry rang out in the room.

Idly, Hayato wondered what the soulful song sounded like on the other side of the wall. Wondered if her crescendo-ing cry would echo in concert to the party’s music. He imagined that every beat of her orgasm — that inviting clench that hugged his finger still buried hilt-deep in her warmth — would match the sorority’s soundtrack.

He saw her languidly lean back, reaching up to take the card from her mouth. He could see the tracks of her teeth, from where she’d bitten down on the laminated card. She turned it. He blinked at the ace of spades. Her ace in the hole. The key that would unlock everything.

She backed off a bit, reaching out to grab one end of the tie and unraveling it as she pulled. It wasn’t until she was leaning back over his knees, that he realized that — somehow — his briefs and socks were gone, leaving him as naked as she was. Which was strange as he couldn’t recall when or how they’d disappeared.

But what was puzzling him more was the crinkly, stiff feel between his wrists. Right where the tie had been. Separating his hands, he watched as a condom — foil-wrapped and ready — landed on his lap.

The key to everything you could ever need.

Hayato shrugged as he picked the condom up off the mattress. It was one hell of a trick.

One he was determined to figure out.

Later.

He ripped the hat from his head and threw it to the floor before tearing the wrapper open and rolling on the condom with precise and efficient moves. He grabbed her by the waist and flipped their positions. Free of the awkward hat, he looked down at her, more than a little amazed by his magician. She looked beautiful laid out beneath him. Her long, midnight strands flowing about her. Her face flushed and set in an eager expression. “Come on,” she dared, licking her lips. “Come on.”

Atop her, his arms and legs around her as the rest of his long form surrounded her, he leaned down to kiss her. She tasted like a sweet mix of liquor, soda, and seduction as he slipped himself inside her. He moaned against her mouth as her snug softness enveloped him, making his entire body heat. He thrust, wildly and almost helplessly, knowing that he wouldn’t last long and wishing he could care more than he did. But, like her before, he could almost see his peak, could feel it call to him. Tugging him toward it, headlong and uncontrollable.

“Come on,” she panted again, thrusting just as frantically beneath him. “Come.”

And the words — like a spell or incantation — pulled his orgasm from him, letting it flow through him, into her. His long body stretched as he felt her arch against him, the sound of their lust loud in his head.

For a moment, the world stilled, shrinking down to just him and her and the thundering beat of their bodies still entwined together.

Hayato opened his eyes lazily as he carefully pulled himself from her. He sighed as he removed the condom, his body still sensitive. He settled down next to her on the mattress, feeling her hand on his chest as she curled her body around him, the labored rhythm of her breath soothing as she drifted into sleep. He looked down at her, trying not to move and wake her.

Early sunlight filtered in through the slit in her dorm room window to shine on her face.

It was strange.

In the morning light, she looked different. Her skin — that had seemed flawless and fresh in the night — was streaked with fading makeup that now strayed and stained skin it’d bled into. Even her hair, that had flowed so beautifully over her shoulders and around her face, now seemed crooked and a little off. Hayato spotted wisps of blond peeking out along the hairline of the now obviously synthetic, black strands.

She looked younger in this light. His lips, now slightly chapped with her lipstick all but licked and kissed off, parted on a snuffling yawn. There was something youthful about her, snuggled up tight on her bed, like a child playing dress up.

It was a trick of the light.

It was identity alchemy.

“With a little makeup and a wig,” she’d told him, “you can step out of your life and into one of your own imagining. With just a wardrobe change, it’s like being given license to do all the things you normally wouldn’t.”

It was magic.

He leaned back against her headboard and looked at the palm of his hand. In red ink, it read 896-3360.

Hayato had a head for numbers. For remembering things like that. And those were not the numbers the Speakeasy flapper had left on his hand.

With a smile, he let his mind center on those numbers — committing them like an enchantment to memory — before letting his own dreams drift over him.


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Friday, November 16, 2012

Rise Up

RISE OR SHINE

I grab my phone from my desk when it dings, my fingers and palm spread over the screen.

“Who’s that?”

I stare at the screen. I should have shut off notifications. At least on this app. But then I’d have missed this message.

See you tonight after the show, right?

I suppress a smile. Hallie. Clutching the phone tight in my hands, making sure that the screen isn’t visible by anyone but me, I click on the kinky social media app many of Donovan’s members use and type Absolutely! back.

Good. Just be warned, zombie girl: I bite back.

I’m counting on it. I slide my phone back into my bag.

“Who was that?”

I blink. I’d forgotten Keith was still here. I shrug. “No one. Just a friend.” The words feel awful in my mouth. Hallie is so much more than that. But Keith wouldn’t understand. Maybe he would have—would have at least tried—a few years ago. But now…

I’m not sure anymore. He feels different now. The world feels different now. There was a time where I’d have laid my life on the fact that family meant more to my brother—to my parents—than anything else. That, for me, for my happiness, they’d have been able to see past politics and religion. But now.

I know I should just come out. Should have done it years ago. But, as bisexual, it hadn’t felt necessary. For a long time, I’d been attracted to both men and women, but really only dated men. So why come out, when it would just complicate things unnecessarily?

But then I met Hallie.

It should have made things simpler. Now there was a reason to come out. I want to be with her. To do that—to really, honestly, fully do that—I need to come out. And, what’s worse, I know—I just know—if my family got to know her, they’d love Hallie with her sweet demeanor, easy laugh, and tenacious strength.

But I met her at Donovan’s. Which, until recently, hadn’t felt like it was anyone’s business but my own. My government doesn’t need to know and my brother and parents certainly never need to know.

But where does that leave Hallie? Suppose that Keith and our parents could accept Hallie as my girlfriend, how do we answer basic questions like “Where did you two meet?” How could I ever hope to explain my family to Hallie? To my friends at Donovan’s?

And, God, what about my job? If anyone at work found out that I’m a member of Donovan’s, that I perform at that club, that I’m dating someone from the club—dating a woman from the club—I’d be ruined. Everything I’ve ever worked for, wasted. Even if my party is a mess at the moment—going through some strange growing pains—one day, hopefully soon, it’ll go back to what it once was. Won’t it? It has to. And, when it does, I want to be in position to make a real difference. If I walk away now, will I still be able to do that? To do everything I’ve hoped for?

And, dear God, if my friends at Donovan’s ever found out where I work—who I work for—I can’t even imagine what they’d think. Would they hate me? Think I’m some kind of traitor for holding my nose through all the hateful rhetoric and spiteful politics, that I despise and am disgusted by, in exchange for my hopes for economic reform that could save or at least help struggling people like my parents? Would they question my convictions, thinking my concerns over long-term debt mean nothing in the face of appalling present-day policies that threaten their freedoms and safety right now?

But what scares me most is that they could be right.

No. It’s best to just keep everything the way it is. I hate Rosen and what he’s done to my world, but he won’t be president forever. I, just like the rest of the world, simply have to get through this administration. I just have to keep my eye on the future. Keep my family and work life out of my personal life and keep Donovan’s and Hallie out of my everyday life. It’s not perfect—not even ideal—but what other choice do I have?

———

“Rebel!” Elin the stage manager of Donovan’s Burle-Q Burlesque Troupe hisses, “The Risen number’s up next.”

I breathe out deep and slip my phone into my bag before standing tall on wobbly heels. I fix my long, brunette wig, fluffing the bangs over my grotesque zombie gore makeup as I lean in close to the mirror.

Showtime.

I’ve been performing as Rebel Rouser, a Russian Bettie Page, a doe-eyed devushka with a heavy accent and too many stilted A-meri-kan idioms, for nearly five years now. It’s a fun escape to play the clueless tourist or the tough-as-nails, sexy-bitch spy. To step into a role so different from myself.

But, since the election, the Burle-Q girls had been performing as The Risen, sexy Rosen-supporting zombies who shimmy and shamble aimlessly over the stage losing limbs and clothes throughout the dance. A real crowd pleaser.

Stripped of my usual conservative suit or Stepford sweater set, I hardly look like myself. With ample cleavage showing and my long legs exposed by the torn “We Shall Rise” dress, the woman I’d been earlier that day—the prim and proper campaign aide—all but disappeared. With the dark wig and heavy makeup, I couldn’t recognize myself at all.

It’s almost frightening how easy it is to lose yourself. To erase all traces of the life you’ve built and the person you’ve become. A change of clothes, different hair, some makeup, and a brand new person’s born.

Which is the point.

Cady Carrington doesn’t exist in Donovan’s. In fact, outside a very well-protected file kept under digital lock and key, that part of my life has no ties to the club or any of its shady clientèle. And there are a whole bible of rules and regulations keeping it that way. Cameras, video, and recorders of any kind outside of the club’s sanctioned security are strictly forbidden. Anyone caught outing or telling on any fellow member is banned.

Donovan’s believes in privacy for its clients above all else. With all their efforts—not to mention my own—the two halves of my life remain completely separate.

Sighing, I blink at the image in the mirror and wonder who the hell I’m looking at.

“Rebel!” Elin calls. “Cue’s up in ten.”

I adjust my props—a detachable zombie arm and breast—and rush out of the dressing room to the stage wings.

The other girls are in place, making last-minute adjustments to costumes and props.

Elin hands out mic packs and says in a hushed whisper, “Good luck, girls, knock ‘em dead.”

The lights dim as the other performers clear the stage and we take our places. As the eerie music starts and the lights come up, I blink, blinded by the brightness. But soon my eyes clear and then—the first sight I see is her.

Hallie.

Smiling that brilliant, beautiful smile, she’s clapping, cheering us on. Cheering me on.

Hallelujah.

As we go through the routine—a mix of old school vaudeville humor, tawdry striptease, and good old fashioned bump and grind—all I see, all I can think of, is Hallie.

Even after the show is done and all the yocks have been had, I still can’t get her out of my head.

She’s so stuck in my head that I don’t even notice her watching me while I take off my makeup and change out of my costume. But, when I look up, there she is reflected back at me in the full-length mirror.

“Great show,” she purrs, her Southern belle tone drawing out the sound. “As always.”

“I’m,” I say, suddenly flustered and nervous as I futz with the edges of my robe, trying to decide whether to close it or not, “so glad you could come.”

“Well, you know me,” she drawls as she saunters close, snaking a hand beneath my robe to grasp my hip. “I rarely pass up the opportunity to come...”

 

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