Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Playing With My Partners

STUCK

Cara was still panting, her body still shuddering, when she heard the door open.

And then close.

Leaving her still tied to the bench, alone.

Not alone.

She inhaled, still trying to find her breath, scenting—sensing—someone else in the room.

She breathed in again, deep and searching.

Money. Power. Man.

Rand.

Her body heated even as an exciting, silvery shiver shot through her.

Rand.

Her heartbeat raced at the thought of her play partner, expectation and anticipation rising, mixing with the sexual satisfaction still humming inside her. She squirmed, knowing what was coming next.

“Look what someone just left here,” his voice, deliberately low and gravelly, raked across her skin. “What a pretty, fucking present.”

Cara jumped—as much as she could in her position—as a loud thwack sounded. She knew that sound. She knew she did. The sound of something hard and harsh against a leather-clad thigh. The sound alone sent heat lancing through her, her body’s reflexive reaction. God, she knew that sound, but damned if she could quite place it.

She stilled—her whole body tense—as she listened, straining for a sound. All she could hear was the sound of his boots as they stalked the room.

“I must have been real good to get a gift like this left for me,” he mused as he walked the room from corner to corner. “Makes a man wonder what kind of nasty, little girl you’ve been to get left bottoms-up and exposed...”

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Life can make love hard, especially in the kink community. Follow an eclectic, kinky ensemble, through a series of interwoven stories, as they struggle to put a little more play into their lives.

Especially when the marriage between Kat and Peter Richards starts to fall apart. It’ll take this community of kinksters to bring them back together again. After four years of marriage, Kat and her husband’s relationship seems so…nice. Not bad. Just average, ordinary. Nice. They haven’t played in forever and she desperately misses it. She wonders if they’ve lost their spark and worries her happily ever after came at the cost of her sex life.

Peter will need the help of their friends  — from an exhibitionist learning to reconnect with her body and appreciate being looked at again, to an exhausted, off-duty cop having a rough night with an unexpected partner, to a Little struggling to keep her roleplay fantasy fresh against the toll of reality’s ticking clock — to remember that, with trust, communication, and the right partners, play can make life and love so much better.


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Monday, December 17, 2012

Getting Wet & Wild

SQUEAKY CLEAN GET AWAY

Solomon groaned, her soles killing her in her costume’s four-inch heels, and almost sat back down. But, damnit, this video game convention was her favorite time of year. It was her geek Halloween, her nerd Christmas. She was not going to spend it passed out on a hotel bed. She flexed her poor feet and gritted her teeth. “Let’s go.”

Fighting a giggle, Max waved Solomon back. “Sit down, you look like you’re about to fall over.” Max unzipped her own boots and kicked them off. She wiggled her eyebrows. “How about a hot tub break?” She stood and began to take off the rest of her Captain Jolli Rouge costume. She turned on the faucet, filling the tub with warm, steaming water that called out to Solomon. “Come on, badass Mermaid Queen of the Seven Seas, your bubbly berth awaits.”

Solomon slanted Max a skeptical look. “Why should I listen to you, pirate?” She shook her head. “If I board your boat, it’ll mess up my hair and my makeup.” It’d taken her two hours to get it all right and would take two minutes in that steamy tub to ruin it.

Max just shrugged and stepped into the tub. “Just keep your head above the water and you should be fine.”

Solomon didn’t think that sounded right, but the sight of Max sighing as she lay back in the bath made Solomon want to throw caution to the wind. Grabbing a hair clip, she gathered her hair atop her head before peeling down her mermaid skirt and unhooking her seashell bra.

She stepped into the two-person hot tub, settling next to Max. The almost-too hot water made her skin tingle and the fragrant bubbles tickled. She stretched her legs beneath the water and felt her muscles ease. Closing her eyes, she sighed and sunk deeper beneath the bubbles.

“Feel better?” Max’s thumbs kneaded Solomon’s knotted neck muscles, her touch rough and deep, making Solomon moan softly.

God, yes. “It’s definitely helping.” She tilted her head thoughtfully. “I should be ready to plunder and pillage the oceans soon.” She settled deeper into the tub and into Max’s touch. “You know, maybe after a few days of this.”

Max tsked and shook her head. “So much for the badass Queen of the Sea. And after only one day! At this rate, I bet I could take you down at half-health and a hole in my hull.”

Solomon’s eyes widened before she splashed Max and her impudent mouth. “Saucy wench! Don’t make me summon my tidal wave attack.”

Max smirked. “Think it’s that easy to get me wet? Promises, promises.”

Saucy wench, indeed!

Max gave Solomon’s flank a slap before Max, with a devious smile, leaned over the side of the tub to drip and reach over the carpet for her own suitcase. “Hold on.” She unzipped the side pocket and dug deep. “I have a hidden treasure for you.”

With her hand clutching something, Max moved behind Solomon. Treasure, huh?

Solomon turned at a whirring sound behind her, but Max’s hand on the small of her back kept her in place. It wasn’t until she felt something buzz against her back that Solomon squeaked. “Is that your vibrator?” Was she giving her a massage with a vibrator?

Max chuckled and pushed against Solomon’s shoulders so she leaned against the porcelain edge. “Hey, if stores seeking to be family-friendly can sell vibrators as ‘personal massagers,’ then why can’t it go both ways?”

Solomon snorted. Because she knew where that toy had been!

But she supposed that was kind of the point. The idea of where that palm-sized, bean-shaped bit of silicone had been was…well, dirty, in every sense of the word. Solomon imagined the same buzz she was feeling playing on the silken folds of Max’s wet, warm flesh. Solomon swallowed hard, her mind now equating the gentle sweeps of the vibrator over her muscles with different kinds of strokes, the images in her mind making her body feel the simple touch deeper, in more intimate ways.

Solomon gasped when Max’s hand dove beneath the water to press the vibrator between her legs, against her taint.

Dear God!

She could feel the vibrations, rumbling from that cluster of nerves, deep within her body and along the length of her aroused flesh.

Solomon marveled at their bodies, the fit of them, the slip and feel of them against each other. How each move and touch sizzled. Breathing deep, Solomon dove deep into the pleasure Max promised...

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Thursday, December 13, 2012

Need to Learn a Lesson

THE END OF THE WORLD

Ivy Ferris collapsed onto the bus’s badly upholstered seat, her feet aching in the high-arched heels she wore for her job as an administrative assistant at Saint’s Marketing, a small, niche ad agency. Laying her handbag next to her, she shrugged out of the fitted jacket before undoing the first few buttons on the sleeveless shirt beneath.

The day had been hell. They’d had five fussy clients in and out of the office all day and, to top it all off, Harlan St. James, president of the company was out sick so she’d been forced to play apologetic hostess all day.

She was bone-tired and her face hurt from smiling. All she wanted was to go home.

Home.

It was still such a strange idea to her.

Her mother had been a professor of evolutionary psychology, who—no matter how hard she tried—just couldn’t quite make tenure. So they’d constantly been moving about from college to college, trying to make her positions stick.

Growing up in temporary, month-to-month apartments—and then finally her own college dorm rooms followed by her own cheap efficiency apartment—Ivy had never really had a real home until she’d moved into Marcus Ramirez’s house.

But it’d felt like home since the first time she stepped foot in it. As if she and the space recognized the other’s soul. It looked like the sitcom houses she’d stared at with such fascinated longing when she was young. It was a tall, if narrow, brown Victorian, sandwiched between identical blue and brick-colored ones. Comfortable. Settled. With steepled towers and patterned clay tiled roofs. It even had a white picket fence encircling it. It was what she’d always dreamed of as a child, every time she’d had to pack and unpack her life into as many cardboard boxes as their small, fuel-efficient car could hold.

It was Marcus’s dream house too, she knew. Having been shuffled around the foster system his whole life, Marcus understood Ivy’s desire—her driving need—for a home. He had it too. He’d once told her that he’d bought this house almost before he’d been able to afford it, often choosing mortgage over food because while he could survive a day—even a week—off just scraps and leftovers, he just couldn’t survive losing this house. His home.

Maybe that was why—that strained, awkward night three months into their relationship—when she’d told him her most guarded, rarely spoken secret as they sat in front of the fireplace in his perfect house, he hadn’t looked at her like she were crazy. Hadn’t looked at her—like so many others had—as if she were damaged.

She remembered that thoughtful look on his face, the quiet strength of him filling the room, right before he’d smiled, sat her on his lap, and agreed to be her Daddy. Her Papi.

Ivy looked out the window of the bus at the passing scenery, seeing that her stop was quickly approaching. She sat up straighter. She needed to get ready.

Reaching up to her bound hair, she deftly unpinned the blond curls, letting the spiraled curls fall to brush her shoulders in springy ringlets. She tucked the pins inside her handbag before taking out her disposable makeup removers.

Carefully, she wiped the oil-soaked pads across her face, wiping away her foundation, powder, and blush. Her stress, her worries, and the toll of years. She could feel herself getting lighter, younger, as the weight of the world was wiped away.

Once clean-faced, she felt freer. Felt a smile creep across her face. Not the coy, reserved, proper one she’d been using all day to placate demanding clients. But the smile of a child. Unburdened by worries of crow’s feet or laugh lines. Not mentally measuring the proportion of lips to teeth to gums, aiming for that winning smile practiced to perfection in mirrors. Hers was a smile that spoke purely of joy.

It was magic, that smile. The way it spread through her, changing the way she held herself. The way she saw herself. The way she felt inside her skin. As an adult, she was always so aware of how others saw her. Was so aware of the fact that people were always watching her, judging her, making sure she toed that exacting line the adult world—the real world—set.

But when she stepped into her other role—her other self—none of that mattered anymore. Scooting back in her seat, Ivy marveled at the fact that her feet didn’t quite reach the bus’s floor. She kicked her legs, letting her heels—which now made her think of times long ago when she used to play dress-up in her mother’s shoes—swing and smack against the bus’s wall. She listened to the hum of the engine, to the weary sounds of the other riders, and tried to get her beating feet to match the world’s rhythm. To lose herself in those sounds.

She turned to press her hands and face against the bus window’s glass and watched the familiar neighborhood whoosh past her. She breathed a heavy puff of air against the air-conditioner-cooled pane, watching with delight as it fogged over the world. She took one finger and traced a big heart, taking exacting strokes to make it perfect. Quickly, before the heart disappeared into the clear nothingness of the glass, she scribbled the initials IF + MR in the heart’s center, sealing it—the wish of it, the promise of it—into the ether forever before pulling the bus’s cord to signal her stop...

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Peter will need the help of their friends  — from an exhibitionist learning to reconnect with her body and appreciate being looked at again, to an exhausted, off-duty cop having a rough night with an unexpected partner, to a Little struggling to keep her roleplay fantasy fresh against the toll of reality’s ticking clock — to remember that, with trust, communication, and the right partners, play can make life and love so much better.

 

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Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Getting Off the Clock

 

OVERTIME

Peter Richards pushed his glasses up on the bridge of his nose and stared at his laptop. With his computer open to the kinky social media website he maintained, he stared at Kat’s page. His wife’s page. Ever since her novel was published, she’d been so busy doing this and that for promotion and publicity. From blog posts to free stories, she’d been dedicated to using every non-working hour into putting herself out there.

Peter sighed and raised his eyebrows. Putting a lot of herself way out there.

He stared at the latest set of photos she’d released and gritted his teeth. He rolled his shoulders and tried to relax his suddenly tense muscles.

So she was naked in the photos?

It wasn’t a big deal.

Or it really shouldn’t have been.

He didn’t want it to be.

But he just couldn’t stop staring at the pictures of Kat laid bare, imagining the hundreds — thousands — hell, infinite number — of men out there on the internet who were staring at her too. At his wife. His Katherina.

His jaw clenching, he rubbed a hand over an inexplicable ache in his chest.

He didn’t know why he cared so much. It wasn’t as if he was the kind of man who thought he owned her just because they were married. And, sure, they played power exchange games. He was her Dom and she was his sub. But he would never presume to think he owned her. Not for real.

It was her body; only she got to decide how she wanted to present it. She had every right to celebrate it, to showcase her beauty and share it with the world.

And it wasn’t even like she was naked naked. She was…strategically nude. Seated at very deliberate angles. Hidden behind precisely placed props. Her long, thick, dark hair draped over her beautiful, saison-shaded skin, offering the slightest peeks at her pretty, petite body. The pictures were erotically tantalizing without actually showing anything.

The photos were objectively beautiful. More about the enticing look in her lovely eyes, the slant of her slyly smiling lips, and the blush sweetly coloring her cheeks, than her nudity anyway. Living on the sun-loving coast, he saw more scandalous wear walking down the beach every day.

But, goddamn it, he couldn’t get the idea of some random, horny man stroking himself to her image out of his head. His greedy gaze tracing the soft swell of her breasts. Trailing along the subtle sweep of her waist and hips, the skin there taut and tan and sweet. Hungrily caressing the full curve of her absolutely perfect ass.

Peter’s throat constricted. That faceless man’s hand would grip his mouse hard, even as his other hand’s grasp tightened on his straining cock. That stranger’s heart would race and his mouth water as he wondered at Kat’s feel and touch and taste. Peter’s mind swam with the myriad of moves and acts all those men would imagine doing to his wife.

Peter closed the site.

He just couldn’t look at it anymore. Not without going insane. It felt too much like sharing her — sharing the innermost intimacy of her, few beyond him ever got to see — with unknowably countless viewers. As if that intangible, grabby gaze were taking something from her. From him.

He grumbled and swiveled in his chair before looking at the clock. This line of thought was stupid — he did know that — and it was late. Nearly 9:00.

Huh, Kat should have been home hours ago.

Where was she?

His jaw jutting, he fought the urge to sulk. It felt like he never saw her anymore. She was always at work these days or off doing book stuff or promotion stuff. And, even when she was home, she was either sleeping or snapping at him. He just felt so distant from her. Like she was slipping away from him. Bit by bit every day.

Frustrated, Peter stood up and strode away from his computer. Moving to lean against his bookshelves, he glared at his desktop. He hated that he felt like just another guy jerking it to her pictures; it felt as if those digital images were the only time he got to really see his wife now too.

And, God, how bitterly insecure did that make him sound? Sighing, he shook his head and ran his hands through his hair.

This was why he hadn’t said anything to Kat. He just couldn’t tell her how he felt. It was just so pathetic. And it was his problem, not hers. It was something he had to work out. On his own. Because she didn’t need to be burdened with his fucked-up issues. Especially when she had enough things stressing her out without adding in his sad insecurities.

He looked at the clock and frowned, worry creeping in uneasily. It really was late. Kat should have been home by now. Digging in his pocket for his phone, he dialed her number. He thought about her stuck in traffic, tired and stressed. Or, God forbid, still trapped at her office, drowning in work. He sighed and ran his other hand through his hair, tugging at the strands, as he stared out his kitchen window at the dark night falling over the ocean.

He waited as the line rang, holding his breath until she picked up. He just wanted to talk to her. To hear her voice. To feel some kind of connection with her. He just wanted to know when she’d be home again.

Because, God, he missed her.

———

Kat Valdez-Richards sat hunched over at her desk, her tired eyes watering as she stared unblinking at her computer. She groaned and pushed her long, dark hair out of her eyes before looking at the time in the corner of her screen.

9:38.

Almost ten at night and she was still here in the empty office — even the cleaning staff had left her by now — not even close to finishing the massive amount of work her boss had dumped on her desk this morning. Right on top of the ever-growing mountain of work that he’d been steadily forming for more than a week already.

She closed her burning eyes and sighed. She’d been staring at columns and rows and pages upon pages of numbers for more than twelve hours now.

It was punishment. She knew it. Administrative limbo. A wild goose chase that her boss, Stan, was torturing her with until either he could think of a fireable offense to go to HR with or Kat quit. It was the only explanation.

Her job, even under normal circumstances, wasn’t glamorous or exciting or even all that satisfying. It was a paycheck. A job that she was qualified for and could do pretty effortlessly and without much taxing thought.

Until Stan decided to send her on impossible searches for needle-in-a-haystack invoices and correspondences that no one cared about and didn’t really matter. Decided to bury her in multi-yearly reports and novels of hand-scribbled notes from nearly a decade ago. Decided to drive her insane with hunts for missing, misfiled affidavits and games of outdated contact tag.

She hadn’t even had time to take lunch in forever, since Stan was constantly pulling her into meetings and conference calls that she had nothing to do with right around her lunch hour all week. More often than not, she dashed to work more than an hour early, coffee still in hand after a very forgettable breakfast, only to work eleven, twelve, sometimes fourteen hours a day, before coming home to a cold dinner and an already asleep husband.

She sighed and grabbed her mouse. Peter. God, she missed Peter. She barely saw her husband these days. If he wasn’t already sleeping by the time she got home, she was too tired to do more than shovel barely re-heated leftovers into her mouth and fall into bed unconscious. The few times when he’d tried to talk to her, to offer comfort and support, she’d grumbled almost unintelligible, aggravated words at him while shoving him away.

She didn’t mean to. God knew, she didn’t want to push him away. But she was just so tired. Tired and stressed out. To the point where comfort and support were too much to deal with. Where her husband — the love of her life — was just one too many things on her plate.

And she hated the fact that was true. Kat shut her eyes and laid her head on her desk for a moment.

She should just quit.

She didn’t want to be here and her boss certainly wanted her gone.

“Kat?” she heard a familiar voice say in the shadowed emptiness of her office. “Are you still here?”

Peter? Her head popped up. “I’m here.” She stood to look over her cubicle’s partition. She saw him, looking like a buttoned-up and bespectacled miracle, lost in the darkened maze of cubicles as he made his way to her, the smell of Mexican food wafting deliciously with him. Her very own alter-ego-ed superhero. “What are you doing here?”

“I got worried.” He adjusted his glasses, still juggling his keys and the bag of takeout. “It was getting late and you weren’t home yet and you weren’t answering your phone.”

She dug into her purse and found her phone. Dead. That’s right; she’d meant to charge it last night, but was too tired to search for her charger. She shook her head and dropped the useless device back into her bag. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s after nine.” He frowned. “Let’s go home.” Lifting the heavenly scented takeout bag in his hand, he dangled the bag enticingly. “You can eat in the car. I’ll draw a bath when we get home, give you a massage, and we can head to bed.”

God, that was tempting. She closed her eyes and let her mind wallow — for just a moment — in what it would be like to do just that. “I can’t.” The words felt like sand — sharp, gritty glass — that tore at her as she spoke. “I need to finish this before I can go.”

He sighed, shoving his hand into his cargo pants pocket, his keys and whatnot clinking. “Well, how long will that take?”

She shrugged. “Hopefully, only another hour or so.” But it could be all night.

Peter’s brow furrowed. “Kat, it’s late. Whatever you’re working on will still be here tomorrow and you’ll be able to tackle it better after some sleep.” He reached out his hand. “Come home.”

She shut her eyes. She wanted to. So badly she wanted to cry with it. But she wouldn’t. She was better than that. She wouldn’t let this — wouldn’t let her boss — get to her like that. “I can’t,” she repeated, “I appreciate you coming here and bringing me food, but I can’t leave.” She grabbed the food from him, hoping that would at least make him feel like he was helping. “I’ll see you at home later.”

His hazel eyes narrowing, he studied her curiously from behind his lenses. “Why are you doing this?” He crossed his arms over his broad chest and leaned to rest his hip against a nearby desk.

“What do you mean?” She put the bag down on her own desk even as her food-and-sleep-deprived body began to shake.

“You hate your job.”

She rolled her eyes. “I don’t hate my job.”

“You hate your boss,” he continued as if she hadn’t spoken. “Yet you’re working late every night, killing yourself for a job you’d leave in a minute, if you thought you could.”

Kat pursed her lips. She wanted to argue with him, but what could she say? “Well, what am I supposed to do?” She slouched back into her office chair. “Stan is just looking for a reason — any reason — to fire me.” She grabbed fistfuls of her hair and pulled it back into a harsh ponytail, the tense tug comforting her a bit, before she let it tumble back down to shield her face.

“Why?” He gave a shake of his head and grabbed her cubemate’s chair, so he could sit next to her.

Her shoulders slumped as she held her head in her hands and sighed. “I think he found my author’s page on your site.”

She heard Peter inhale sharply. “How?”

She shook her head. She didn’t know. Through a friend. Through his wife or his teenage son. Maybe through his own online porn perusal. “Does it matter?”

“What did he say when he told you?” Peter’s wince was audible through his voice.

She shook her head. “He hasn’t.” Not overtly. Not yet.

Peter paused. “Then how do you know?”

She scoffed and peeked up at him ruefully. “There’s a very specific look a man gives you when he’s seen you naked,” she drawled, recalling the photos — fun, sexy, and, yes, seminude pictures — she’d had taken and posted. With pride.

Until Stan’s gaze had tainted them. Had made the playful pictures seem dirty and shameful as he eyed her from head to toe with disgusted censure. Even fully dressed in her prim, proper office clothes, she felt stripped bare by his gaze.

She’d loved her photos. Loved taking them. Loved posting them. Loved the enthusiastic response to the teasing shots. She hated that she couldn’t look at them now without feeling that disapproving look on Stan’s pinched face. “I don’t think he liked them very much.”

“Or enjoyed them more than he would have liked,” Peter pointed out as he sat back, his arms crossed over his buttoned-down chest.

Kat’s lip curled. “At any rate, I’m stuck here until I finish all this.” Her hand gestured to the insurmountable paperwork piled on her desk. “Or his little crusade is done.” She shot him a dark look. “Which do you think will come first?”

“Or you quit.” Even as she shook her head, he grabbed the edges of her chair and pulled her close. “You could just leave.”

“And do what?” She couldn’t leave this job. If Stan wanted to fire her because of her online page, what were the chances that someone would be willing to hire her despite it? If he found out, others would. And while she wasn’t ashamed of it — wouldn’t let that tight-assed fuddy-duddy suck the joy out of it — she couldn’t exactly hide. She’d put herself — her body, her thoughts, her words — out there online. For better or worse.

And, sure, she loved writing and maintaining her page, but it wasn’t as if it paid her well. With just one book out, her sales, even if they were higher than she’d thought they would be, weren’t exactly a livable wage. She sighed. “I need this job.” She shook her head. For better or worse, indeed.

“Why?” Peter shook his head. “I’m doing well, Kat. My business is growing and thriving. I make enough to take care of both of us, if we cut out some of our luxuries,” he amended with a dismissive shrug. He shook his head. “You could quit this job — that you hate anyway — and write. Full-time. Really give it a go, if it’s what you want.”

Kat shook her head. She couldn’t do that. “I won’t be dependent on anyone.” She stiffened, squaring her jaw. Not financially or otherwise. “Not even you.” She might be his wife — she might be his submissive — but she would not be some kind of burden on him or leave herself so vulnerable.

She didn’t make as much as him — wasn’t even close to being in the same income bracket. But, heaven forbid, if she ever lost him — ever found herself alone again — she would survive. If she quit, learned to live off what Peter could provide, could she say the same?

She shook her head. “I’m not quitting.” God, the words sounded petulant even to her own ears. She didn’t care. She hated that she felt so powerless. So weak. So at the mercy of everyone all around her. She was tired of feeling like Stan’s bookkeeping bitch. Even feeling like Peter’s little woman that always needed to be taken care of and coddled was grating at the moment. She was just so tired of having everyone else control what she did and felt and thought. Her entire life was reactionary, responding to the demands and desires of everyone around her.

Except her book. And her page. Those were hers. And, damnit, she’d worked hard for them. She finally did something for herself — that didn’t belong to anyone but her — and she’d be damned if she’d let her boss think he could punish her for it.

She might be a submissive — a bottom — but she decided who topped her and who didn’t.

And she chose Peter.

“Well,” he sighed as he leaned forward to grab the bag of food off her desk, “you can at least take a break.” He shook his head and held it out to her again. “C’mon, Kat, you’ve got to eat.”

She looked up at him, her dark eyes meeting his hazel ones, seeing his concern turn curious. “Kat?” he questioned as her lips curled defiantly.

She shook her head and pushed herself up out of her chair. Taking the bag from him, she set it aside again. “I don’t want food.” She came to stand between his legs, nudging his knees apart to make room for her. Her voice was low, teasing, even as her body swayed with sensual sass.

Peter’s lip twitched, recognition flaring hot in his eyes. “What do you want then?” He leaned back even as his hips arched up a bit, not so subtly leading her gaze downward to the bulge rising beneath his pants.

What did she want? She bit her lip. Him. That much she knew. She always wanted him. Couldn’t imagine not wanting him.

She looked around, still worrying her lip. The question, at the moment, was how did she want him?

He lifted a shoulder. “We could do it on your boss’s desk.”

She snorted. That was so clichĂ©. Besides — no matter how dirty Stan thought her pictures were — she knew he was the dirty one. His desk was always littered and stained with years’ worth of delivered lunches and the endless coffees she’d fetched over the years. Used tissues and napkins were always mixed in with his paperwork. His desk was a mess and the thought of being naked on it was enough to put her off sex. She wrinkled her nose. “Uh, no, that’s okay.”

The conference table on the other hand…

She smiled and took Peter by the hand, leading him from her cubicle into the conference room. Yeah, she thought, as she stepped into the large room. It was a commanding space, where all the important announcements and meetings happened. From the time she’d been hired, this had been the room where every important professional moment happened and, if she were honest, it’d always intimidated her a little.

It was perfect.

“Kat?” A confused laugh touched his voice while she sat him down at the head of the conference table. The seat of power. The one always reserved for the president of the company. “What are you up to?”

She pushed him back into the chair. It was strange to be taller than Peter, to be above him. It wasn’t that Peter was a particularly tall man. It was just that Kat was particularly short. Just barely five foot, she rarely got to look down at anyone.

She smiled.

She liked it.

———

Peter sat back in the chair, staring up at his wife grinning down at him. God, she was beautiful. Smiling her knowing, little smirk, she swiveled her hips and danced about him, taunting and teasing him with strokes of her hands on his shoulders and brushes of her ass over his lap.

He moved to reach for her, wanting to pull her fully onto his lap, to feel those grinding hips hard on his. But she just pulled away and tsked, shaking a scolding finger at him. “Katherina?” He wondered what she was planning. Lord knew, he was more than ready to get this show going.

“Patience, Peter.” Eying him coyly, she pushed on the table to jump onto its surface. But her pencil skirt was too tight, making the movement awkwardly impossible. He chuckled low as he watched her grin turn sheepish as she reached behind her to unzip the constricting cloth.

But he stopped laughing when she slipped the skirt past her knees, stepping out of it to stand in just a long shirt that hung half-way down her thighs, knee-high sheer stockings, and matching lace garters. He held his breath while she slid smoothly onto the table, placing one foot on either side of his chair.

He swallowed hard as her feet framing his hips planted in the chair’s cushion to pull him closer, revealing the shadowy place between her thighs as her knees bent high. “Uh, Katherina,” he pointed out, “you’re not wearing panties.”

“No.” Her feet moved up to wrap around the sides of the chair, pulling him closer and offering him a fantastic view of her full, pink pussy. “I’m not.” She reached for the buttons of her shirt. “I’m not wearing a bra either.”

“Naughty girl.” He tsked as she popped the first button, revealing the smooth span of her throat and breastbone.

“Yeah.” She laughed as his gaze roamed her body. “It sounds dumb but, when Stan’s being particularly prickish, it’s just a bit of rebellion being a little risquĂ© at work.”

“Mmm,” Peter murmured approvingly. “Not dumb at all.” He liked her rebelliously risquĂ©. “Wait.” His eyes widened as she reached for the button between her breasts. “Wait.” He fished into his back pocket for his phone. He held it up, aiming its camera at her.

Kat squealed and pulled her stockinged knees closed and tight to her chest. “Peter!” she cried. “You can’t take pictures. Not here.”

He grinned, his phone’s camera focusing on her, and stared at her cringing body through the lens. “Why not?”

“This is my workplace!” She squealed shrilly and clasped the collar of her shirt shut. “I can’t have half-naked pictures of me in my workplace.”

“Well, I was kinda hoping for fully naked ones anyway.”

“Peter!”

“C’mon, Kat,” he urged. “What’s the big deal? It’s not like anyone else is going to see them.” These were just for him. For them. Peter felt something in his chest unclench at that thought. The idea that no one else would ever see this part of Katherina. That this moment belonged just to them. He zoomed in close on her face and snapped a photo before turning the phone so she could look at the screen.

Could see the wide depths of her night sky eyes. Could see the way her full lips moued as if for a kiss. Could see the excited flush of her cheeks. Could see the beautiful lines of her face.

Could see herself the way he saw her. Beautiful. Sexy. Perfect. He wanted to capture this moment. To keep it forever in photos. “C’mon, Katherina,” he said, his voice low and inviting. “Do it for me.” For them both. “Think of it as really sticking it to Stan.”

She bit her lip and stared at his phone, her face set in uncertain lines even as her body relaxed and her hands loosened their grip on her shirt. “Okay.” Her voice was soft but intrigued. That’s it, Kat. There was the defiant girl he knew. She puffed out her chest and nodded. “Yeah, okay.”

He smiled and leaned back as she unbuttoned her shirt, letting its halves frame her delicate form. He aimed his camera on her again. “That’s it.” He took her picture. Just in those stockings and garters, she was gorgeous, the hottest sight he could imagine. Her small breasts were firm and round. Her dark nipples were hard. The slight nip of her waist drew his eye before his gaze traced where her hips flared delicately. “Get up on the table.” Mmmm, yeah. “On your knees.”

He watched as she bent her knees beneath her, the submissive in her instinctually spreading her knees — opening herself to him — and lay her hands palms up on her knees. His dick hardened at the contradictory image of her so submissive in front of him even as she towered over him, looking down at him with such hunger in her eyes.

She was slipping into subspace. He could see it in her dazed expression and the way her breath quickened. He swallowed hard as he stood up so they were eye-to-eye.

Or eye to lens, as it was.

“Turn around.” He walked about her, looking for just the right angle. “I want to see that ass.”

He watched her bend over onto her hands and knees. He bit back a groan as her sleek, little body crawled and squirmed around so he could look at that round, upturned ass. Yes. He zoomed in his camera, taking picture after picture of her, before he put the phone onto the table with shaking hands that longed to touch.

“God, Katherina.” He reached out to trace the line of her garters, feeling the soft skin of her thighs. “You are so amazing.” His hands slid up her leg to coast over her lush, round behind. “I love this ass.” He let his fingers trail along the edge of the garter’s belt, dipping along and over the curve of her bottom. “The look of it. The feel of it. The things I could do to it.”

“What could you do?” Her tone was both curious and just a little daring.

His mind swam with the possibilities. He smiled and cupped the full flesh. “What do you want me to do to it?” He breathed deep, savoring the sensual potential in his hands.

He watched her turn to look at him, licking her lips as her words formed on her tongue. “Uh,” she breathed, slicking her mouth again, “I, uh.”

“Tell me, Katherina.” He wanted to hear her say it. He loved, more than anything, to hear her tell him exactly what she wanted, what turned her on. How he could turn her on. “Tell me.”

“Spank me.” A pretty blush flushed her face. “I,” she swallowed hard and said a little louder, “I want you to spank me.”

He chuckled and rubbed her butt, patting it sweetly. “You want to be spanked?” He grabbed her hips and pulled her down so her feet touched the carpet even as her stomach and breasts pressed onto the table’s shined surface. “You want me to smack this pretty, little ass?” He caressed and massaged her behind. “You want to feel my handprints — hot and stinging — all over your skin?”

“Yes.” She hissed as he pinched her flesh. “Please.”

Well, she did say please. So Peter pulled back his hand and struck her left flank, loving how her body bounced and a small squeak escaped her mouth.

“Again,” she begged.

Again and again. He hit her right flank, then her left again. He kept smack her in a rapid, steady rhythm he knew she loved, watching her body writhe her hips seeking and shying away from his touch. Responding to him with electric heat, with both their needs meeting and matching with each stinging strike.

His own breath was ragged and his heart was pounding. He stopped and stepped closer to her, cupping her ass in his hands, feeling her sensitive heat against his tingling hands. Kat and he had been playing these games for years now. Had used a treasure chest of toys. But there was something about the basic act of spanking — of flesh meeting flesh — that Peter loved. That could never be replaced. There was simply something so intimate about it, the ultimate shared action.

He could feel her warmth, could feel her shake with desire, against the raw nerves in his hands. He leaned down and kissed the base of her spine, just above the rise of her ass. “God, Katherina,” he growled as he took a nip at the ripe flesh, “you drive me crazy.” His hand slipped down between her legs to stroke her sex. “You’re so hot,” he purred, “and wet.” His fingers dipped between her folds, coating his fingers in her thick, fragrant arousal. “I love how wet you get for me.” He slid his fingers inside her, slowly filling her as she moaned low and sweet. He licked the top of her ass, gliding his tongue from one cheek across the other. “I want you to come for me.” He used his whole body to press her further against the table, grinding his hard erection against her hip. “You want to come for me, don’t you, Katherina?”

“Yes, Peter,” she begged, her voice a breathy, reedy sound.

“Good.” He pulled his fingers from her cunt even as she whimpered at the loss of his touch. He kissed her back again before straightening. Don’t worry, Kat, he thought. He wasn’t done with her yet. Not even close.

He slid his foot between hers and gently kicked her feet further apart even as his hands parted the soft globes of her ass. He stared at her tight opening and bit back a groan. Just imagining the tight grip of her ass on his cock made his body stiffen with want. “I want to slide into that pretty ass.” His voice strained with need as he tucked one slick finger at her anus, letting it slip inside her knuckle by knuckle, “teasingly fill you up with my dick so slowly you’ll be begging me to pound into you. Ride your ass until you come, hard and pulsing on my cock.” With agonizing slowness, he began to push and pull his finger within her with short, easy strokes. “You want that, don’t you, Kat? You want my dick here.” He shoved his finger hilt-deep into her, watching her body take him easily. “Or my tongue.” He pulled out of her only to add another finger, twisting both inside her as she gasped and bucked against his hands. He gripped her hip and rubbed, urging her to relax. “Wouldn’t you like that?”

He felt her ass clench on his fingers before he felt her relax again. Good girl. He caressed her behind again, making her whimper and push onto his hand. Good girl. “Tell me you want that.” His fingers fucked her, the steady rhythm mimicking the same one he’d used to spank her. “Give me the words.”

“I want your cock inside me.” Her voice was shaky and thin. Her back arched and her hips thrust. “I want to feel you deep inside me. Fucking me hard.”

“What else do you want?” God, he loved the sound of her voice as she gasped, struggling to speak while pleasure shook her control.

“I want to feel you, hot and heavy, over me.” Her breath hitched and her ass clasped his fingers again. Hard. She was close to coming, he could tell. “I want to feel you sweat and strain as you feel my body hold and hug your hard shaft.”

“What else?” He gripped her harder, his fingers working her harder and faster pushing her closer to her edge.

“I want you to come inside of me, Peter,” she said in a hot hiss, the words a hot grip on his gut, practically a stroke on his cock.

He shut his eyes against a shudder of pleasure. It didn’t matter how long he knew her, how far they went, how much they did together, he would just never get used to hearing her sweet, innocent voice say the filthiest fantasies to him. Goddamn it, Kat.

Peter pulled his fingers from her ass as he struggled for control.

———

Kat squirmed when his fingers slid out of her, stroking her sensitive skin even as he left her feeling empty. She’d been so close to coming. Just a few more thrusts of his fingers. A slap to her ass. A touch to her clit. Anything. She’d have come, but instead she felt wild and craving. “Peter.” She wriggled her ass at him.

“You’ve got quite a way with words, don’t you, Katherina?” His own voice sounded ragged and on edge. “What am I going to do with you?”

She shook her head. She didn’t know. But she wished, whatever he was going to do, he’d do it soon. “Please, Peter.” She swiveled her hips restlessly. “I need you.”

He frowned miserably. “I don’t have lube, Kat.”

Sure, she thought ruefully. It wasn’t as if he knew he’d have her ass-up and begging for his cock when he’d set out to bring her dinner. She huffed, the aching emptiness inside her unbearable. She bit her lip, trying to hold back the desire to say she didn’t care.

Because, as much as she wanted him, she knew her own limits. Anal without lube; she shuddered at the thought. She might want him, more than anything, but she didn’t want that.

She straightened when she heard him reach for his belt, the unbuckling metal loud in her head. She swallowed hard. “Uh, Peter?”

She heard him pull the long length of leather free from its loops. “Shhh, Katherina.” Felt his hand press her shoulders down onto the table again. “Just relax for me.”

Kat’s eyes widened as her body stiffened against the now cold surface on her warmed skin.

“Relax.” He rubbed her lower back. “I know just what you need.”

She shut her eyes. Yes. This was what she wanted. What she needed. To give herself over to something bigger. Bigger than her job. Bigger than her boss. Bigger than her. To overwhelm herself with sensation.

With Peter.

“Ready, Katherina?”

She took one more fortifying breath before nodding. She shut her eyes and let herself slip further into headspace.

Kat cried out as she felt the leather’s lash on her ass, the sting both surprising and a relief across her cheeks. The hot mark felt electric on her skin as it spread over her body, sending adrenaline and endorphins racing through her. God! That was good.

“More, Katherina?” He smacked the belt against his thigh.

“Yes.” She pushed her ass out eagerly. God, yes, this was what she needed. Distantly, she wondered how it was Peter always seemed to know. Was able to read her so well.

But then all thought was wiped away when he struck her again and again with his belt. On her ass. Her thighs. From side to side. Over and over, she got lost in his beat. Let the chemicals raging inside take her. Let the heat and rush of it drive her. She bit her lip and her toes curled, her knees beginning to shake. She was so close, she could feel her climax speed toward her.

“C’mon, Kat.” He aimed the belt for her sweet spot, just beneath the curve of her ass. “Come.”

Her back arched and she cried out, her tense arms pushing her up and back as she blinked blindly, wildly. Her orgasm rocked her, shaking her stiff body, before leaving her limp. She sunk back onto the table weakly.

“Good girl,” she heard Peter murmur as she felt his hand rub gentle circles over her back and shoulders. “Good girl.”

She smiled and settled her boneless weight onto the hard, cold surface. She tried to move, tried to squirm this way and that. But with the table’s hard edge digging into her stomach, she just couldn’t get comfortable. And she was just too drained — from all the fitful nights and the stressful days as much as the mind-numbing orgasm — to find the energy to push off the cool surface holding her up. She just couldn’t move from this spot, no matter how much she wanted to.

She heard Peter chuckle a bit before she felt his hands at her waist. “C’mere, Kat.” He lifted her, shaky-kneed and tired, onto his lap. Gratefully, she curled and snuggled against him, taking comfort from him while she wrapped her limbs around him.

Oh, Peter. “I love you,” she whispered against his neck.

“I love you too.” He wrapped his arms around her. He took a deep breath and nodded as if coming to some kind of decision. “And, whatever you want — whatever you need — that’s what I want for you.”

Whatever she wanted.

If she only knew what that was.

She bit her lip and snuggled closer, feeling his hard-on beneath her. She fought a yawn and looked up at him. “What about you?” She pointedly pressed her sensually sore behind against him. “What about what you want?” Pulling her arm free, she reached for his pants.

He stopped her by closing his hands over hers. “You’re tired, Kat.”

“I can still — ”

“No.” He gave her a quick kiss to halt her words. “Don’t finish that sentence; I’m trying to be good here and you’re just a little too good at tempting me.”

She tried to speak again, but was cut off with another kiss. “You’re tired,” he repeated as he kissed and nibbled at her neck. “And I want — what I really want — is to take you home. I want to tuck you into our bed and hold you all night.” He stroked her face before cupping her cheek so she looked into his hazel eyes. “And, as much fun as this was, I want you to promise me: no more late nights.” He tilted his head acknowledgingly. “I know that this job is important to you and, if you want to stay, I’m behind you. One-hundred percent.” His lips tightened as he fought not to frown. “But you’re important to me and,” he said sadly, the loneliness in his hazel eyes breaking her heart, “I miss you.”

Kat sighed and kissed him. “Let’s go home.” She stood up, pulling him up with her. The smile on his face making her chest swell. She turned around to grab his phone off the desk. She tossed it in the air before pocketing it, feeling better than she had in days.

Taking his hand in hers, Kat led Peter back to her cubicle to grab her things and the food that, even cold, sounded delicious at the moment. As she shut down her computer, she glared at the massive pile of pointless paperwork her spiteful, prudish prick of a boss had left her.

With a snort, she pushed away from her desk and grabbed her purse. Maybe she’d call in sick tomorrow. Spend a lazy morning with Peter before looking at their finances, her savings, and the local job listings. Just to see. Just to figure out if what she wanted — financial independence and self-reliance — and what she really needed — Peter and a sense of control in her life — could exist together. Because she shouldn’t have to choose between the two. Especially not for someone like Stan.

She turned to her husband and smiled. “Just let me lock up, then we can head home.”

He wrapped his arm around her shoulder as she curled hers around his waist. It amazed her how whole that simple act made her feel. She giggled when he squeezed her tight against his side before they walked out of the dark, empty, cold office. “Sounds good.”

 

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Monday, December 10, 2012

Disobey Me, I Dare You

GAMIN

It’s a good night. In terms of atmosphere, at least. Dark and warm, the air just a little heavy with a heady humidity that held a man like a lover.

I peel off my coat as I enter the shadowed alley in the back of the club where I parked my car. Leather may make the look, but it’s damned hot.

Still, a good night in the city, weather-wise. Not so great on all the other fronts. I was supposed to meet someone tonight but, after waiting away a good chunk of my evening for someone who never came, figure it's past time to head home.

I watch as a couple, a little tipsy and a lot horny, stumble out of the club door, helped out by Gabe, his massive hands hard as he shows them the door. The tall man tips his head at me. “Rand,” he greets, as he takes a drag on his cigarette. “Nice night.”

“Could always be better.” I nod back, thinking it a shame the man’s on duty. Gabe’s a good time, if I remember right. Real shame he’s working.

But he is. And, for the first time in three weeks, I’m not. And I’m in the mood for a good time now. Just got off a big sting, a drug ring—little sex thrown in. Vice. I work vice.

Or it works me; six years in and I’m still trying to figure that one out.

I head to my car alone. Again.

My job’s not real conducive to a relationship, you know? Takes me away for long stretches; never letting go till the job’s done. Then there’s always the danger. Got me shot twice. Made me do more bad in the name of good than I’d like to recall. Sometimes the stress of it gets to you too, you know? Gives me a temper sometimes—not proud of it. Not exactly easy to find somebody willing to put up with that for long stretches.

But that’s all right. I like my job and I’m good at it; it’s a good fit. Even without it, I’m not too conducive for relationships either.

It’s why I do thirds. Be the second guy to someone else’s half. Be the less-significant other. It’s easier. On everybody. See each other when you can. Enjoy the hell out of each other. Then walk away. No expectations. No demands. No disappointments.

Except on hot, humid nights like tonight when I’m still fucking alone.

I pause by my car, digging for my keys in my pockets.

“Nice night,” I hear a voice say from the shadows. It’s light, kinda high, like a teenager. Slurred too.

My lips twitch. Just what I need...

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Peter will need the help of their friends  — from an exhibitionist learning to reconnect with her body and appreciate being looked at again, to an exhausted, off-duty cop having a rough night with an unexpected partner, to a Little struggling to keep her roleplay fantasy fresh against the toll of reality’s ticking clock — to remember that, with trust, communication, and the right partners, play can make life and love so much better.


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Friday, December 7, 2012

Erotica for the Big Brain's For the Men Interview

Love this shoutout! I may or may not have done a wiggly happy dance on the street when I read this:
"Automatically we are in the main characters head. We are him. The second we begin reading de Soto’s words, we see and feel everything her main character feels because she’s made us participants. To me, that’s a great story. Editors of anthologies are some of the most open-minded people. They have to be. Otherwise, you get a shitty anthology. So, writers should aim to captivate. Immediately."

Also, love this quote:
"To me, if it’s a great story, it’s valuable. If it effortlessly conveys its reason for existing, its good. If a story is easy, ‘brain candy’ I like that too. Sometimes readers just want a nice easy (wank) escape. I don’t want an anthology chalk full of stories that challenge me. I like to cruise too, man. Commercially speaking, ‘easy’ seemingly works, but there’s a lot of those for sale. How many paranormal romance shifter books are out there are killing it right now? It feels like too many, good for them. There are writers writing literally for the consumer. I’ve never rejected what I would consider ‘a great story.’ If a submission didn’t quite fit my call, but it blew my socks off, I like to think that I would try to make it fit in the anthology, or save it for another call, or hell, offer to publish it myself. A great story is a great story is a great story. And it wants to be read, but that doesn’t equate to being a commercial success."
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Watching Your Wife With Another Man

ODD MAN

There are things in life that you will never plan, but still have to live with anyway. You’ll think, as you drive the familiar road as if by rote, that this is just another one of those things that must be muddled through, one step at a time. You’ll be so sure that—once you’re in the middle of it—it won’t be so hard.

You will, of course, be wrong.

As you arrive at Donovan’s—a place you’d always thought of as your place, a place where the two of you could always come together—you’ll walk in at least three steps behind her, feeling for the first time since you stepped foot in the club—for the first time since you’ve known her—reluctant.

“You’ll like him,” she’ll tell you as she slows her steps. “He’s a great guy.”

Don’t say anything. Don’t even make a sound. Really, there isn’t a good response to this.

“Be nice,” she’ll admonish in that tone that makes you feel five. “Really,” she’ll insist, a slightly disgruntled sulk morphing her mythically beautiful face, “he is. You’ll see.” She’ll pause as she tries to reach for your hand, her quick, perky smile seeming plastered and full of plastic hope. “But I love you.”

You’ll spend far too long wondering what she means by that. Trying to solve the word problem seemingly Scrabbled in that phrase. You’ll waste hours—days—entire lifetimes—wondering if a three-letter word negates a four-letter one.

Don’t.

Just…don’t.

Your hand will slip like sand through her grip as you both push through the heavy, happy-hour crowd, leaving her holding nothing. Her frown—pretty, pouty lips—will kill you. It will also change nothing.

You’ll know the second she sees him, her eyes—sweet and soulful, a brown as rich and deep as the earth—will light up like they used to for you. She’ll make a sound—somewhere between a squeal and a laugh—as she rushes through the crowd toward him, leaving you to be swallowed up by the throng.

But she loves you.

You’ll stand there—dumbstruck—as they make their way back to you, her hand in his. Your teeth will grind, a rough screech in your head. Your nails will dig small crescent-shaped resentments into your palm like Braille as your fists form.

You’ll want to hit him. Kill him. End him.

Shake his hand instead as she makes introductions.

He’ll look like an honest-to-God, spitting-image, leather-bound Dom.

You’ll look like a CPA.

You’ll turn to her—your wife of five years—and wonder if this—this testosterone-laden, brick shithouse of a giant dressed in the Hollywood guise of a messiah—is what she likes.

They’ll talk, trade compliments and jokes you neither understand nor care to. You’ll tune it out as you signal a waitress, something pretty and young. You’ll smile and lean in as she takes your order—a rail drink; whatever’s her recommendation. It’ll make you feel better.

Until you notice that your wife and Rand have left.

The nagging need to leave will hit you. She’s got Rand; you’ll think, I’m unnecessary at this point. Superfluous. Spare. One man too many. You’ll think of your bed—the bed you’ve shared with her for six years—and long to huddle warm under its covers.

But you know you’ll head to the dungeon.

Because you love her.

And she loves you.

You think.

Besides, if you leave, you’ll leave her with Rand. You’ll imagine her, upon seeing you’ve left, leaving with him. Going to his home. Going to his bed. You’ll picture her writhing around with him in tailored, manicured, perfect sheets, not stained by midnight snacks or pre-washed pets. You’ll imagine him taking an interminable time with your wife, not rushed after late nights at the office or sluggish before early morning runs.

Stop this immediately...

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Thursday, December 6, 2012

Looking at You Through My Lens

SNAPSHOT

Darrin Phillips fiddled with the strap of his second-hand, hand-me-down digital camera, wondering what the hell he was doing here at dawn on a Sunday, when any normal person was either getting ready for church or sleeping off last night. If he, a lone black man with a camera, got caught on this empty, abandoned beach-side forest right next to some of the richest, whitest neighborhoods in the city, he’d have a hell of a time explaining himself. Why the hell had he let himself get talked into this? He wasn’t a photographer. He wasn’t even an amateur or a hobbyist.

He was an idiot with a camera he barely knew how to use and a handful of pictures his friends had convinced him were decent enough to post online.

“You have an eye, Dare,” Hayato had told him when the man had first proposed the offer. “A way of looking deep into a person and bringing out their essence and beauty. Of seeing what’s beneath the surface.” Then he’d snorted—an odd sound to come out of the prim, proper man. He’d shot Dare a scoffing look before adding, “Plus, you’ve a reputation of handling even the most stubborn subjects.”

At his job, maybe. Dare worked at Patty’s Playhouse, a children’s arcade and restaurant known for its singing waiters. He wore a stupid toy soldier costume with mitten-hands and sang six-year-old’s burger and pizza orders back to them. He dealt with temper tantrums and crying fits on the daily. Whiny complaints—from parents as well as children—had become the vernacular of his life.

So he’d learned early on to cajole. How to use compliments and distractions as verbal shields against the never-ending assaults. He’d learned how to watch for signs of stress—a wobbly lip from a child, a clenched jaw from a parent. Even in his fellow wait staff, he’d learned to tell when the noise of it all had become too much.

Like he had last week with Wendy—the rag doll waitress—who’d almost slapped a bratty birthday guest armed with spitballs and an early curiosity about that sacred space beneath a girl’s skirt. From across the room, he’d seen the exact minute her temper had flared. The second her rouged cheeks had flushed with embarrassed anger when the precocious fourth-grader had lifted the hooped tulle. In a flash, he’d rushed over in time to grab her pulled-back hand and lead her into a waltz out of the party and into the break room, where he’d poured her a coffee and let her finish her shift unmolested.

It was a shit job and Dare knew it. It wasn’t where he’d planned to be. Wasn’t where he wanted to be for the rest of his life but, he supposed, with working all day with rowdy, hyper kids and tired, on-edge adults, yeah, he’d built a tolerance to stubborn.

He just hoped that carried through to today. The couple approached, strolling the park’s path in the early dusk light. He watched as Hayato and the woman walked, her fiery hair glowing in the climbing sun’s rays as it waved in the chill morning breeze.

Max Wells. Queen bitch of the publishing world. The cocked harpoon in shark-infested waters. Dare wasn’t above admitting that she scared the hell out of him.

Or, at least, he thought she should.

He’d heard rumors about her being a ball-busting ogress. There were legends abound about her shredding grown men with manicured nails before grinding their bones into dust to powder her face.

When he’d imagined her in his mind, whenever he’d listened to those stories, he’d always imagined a giantess. An amazon. A hard, coarse cyborg of a woman built to destroy a man.

Not this woman, who laughed deep and throaty as she and Hayato neared him. She was small. Not even five and a half feet, she wouldn’t so much as brush his shoulder. She was lush too.

Softly rounded, curved and full. And she smiled.

Smiled! With her whole face, from her glossed lips to her dimpled cheeks to her crinkled nose to her warm, brown eyes.

She was gorgeous. She didn’t look like an ogress or a harpoon or even a bitch. Dressed in a long, tan sweater dress and tall boots, she looked like a nymph in the woods. An angel bathed in golden morning light.

“Dare.” Her voice was rich as her laugh. She held out her hand.

“Ms. Wells.” He held out his own, taking her small, graceful, cream-colored hand in his larger, pecan-shaded palm.

“Please, call me Max.” She shook his hand with a surety that both unnerved and eased him. “I’ve seen your work. It’s good.”

“Thanks, ma’am.” He bowed his head.

“Max,” she corrected, tossing her loose, red curls over her shoulder. “The only time anyone calls me Ma’am is during a scene. We’re not doing a scene right now, are we, Dare?”

He chuckled nervously, his face paling at the thought. “No, ma’—Max,” he stuttered.

“And even if we were,” Max said as she turned an impish, knowing grin—one full of innuendo and unintelligible inside jokes—at Hayato, “I certainly wouldn’t be playing the top today, would I?”

“Why don’t we just get started?” Hayato shot a matching smirk at Max...

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